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the recently late Tom Lehrer was so real for this in 1965 and it's more relevant than ever now in 2025

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they are flirting

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A thing about parenting is that there are a lot of behaviors that you want to encourage your future adult to have that are SO HARD TO HANDLE in children.

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☆2024 Pride Celebration☆ Day 6: Favorite LGBTQIA+ Media [2/10] ⤷Sense8 (2015-2018)

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IT guy 1: oh right is something up with server PROD45, I tried to connect and I got an error

IT guy 2: I'll check, maybe the tentacle is down

Me: the

Me: whAT

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*opens word doc covered in blood* it doesn’t have to be good. it just has to be done.

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Babe wake up! The theatrical and streaming release dates for the new Benoit Blanc film “Wake Up Dead Man” Just dropped

Link to post also another source

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Case in point: I almost just wrote the sentence attention fully focused on him now instead of partaged with the crowd.

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Pasi's brother: So what's your theory about Bing?

Me: I think we're in a postacopalyptic world where people were forced to upload their consciousness into dolls, and Bing is the first generation of biological beings after the big disaster. Hence why we see no other children but a lot of other dolls. That or when they grow up their consciousness also gets uploaded into the dolls.

Pasi's brother: Oh. I thought Flop and Amma are married and that they both work at the creche. That it's kids at a crèche.

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Writing update!

So I have now been back into my writing mood for *glances at calendar* gosh, nearly three months, and I'm still genuinely enjoying the writing, which is great. I kind of didn't expect it to last.

Of course I've also gone through the requisite no one is interested in this and i'm wasting my time this is stupid etc etc but I've been dealing with those since I first started writing in my early twenties, so blergh * sticks out tongue*.

Technically I feel like my vocabularly has gotten smaller, and I'm slowly and painfully trying to broaden it. I'm also suffering way more from other language contamination, both from French and from Dutch (wrote "adapted the file" instead of "adjusted the file" for example, or I have a word in Dutch in my head that I fail to translate while I'm writing in English) , which is... something that didn't used to happen? I've been reading less, and since I've barely have written anything new in years my exposure to English has simply gone down, probably. Still can't shake the feeling that parenthood has fried some of my neural connections, though. And it is getting better! Just.. slowly.

Also, once again I'm throwing myself in with a project that's riduclously complex for a starter thing, but apparently that's how I roll. It would be nicer if I could fixate on something that requires less brainspace and has quicker rewards than a 250k 4pov epic, but, beggars can't be choosers etc etc. I am also occasionally hopping into other projects so it's manageable, but, yknow. Slow.

Although I have had multiple little clicks of plot holes that fill themselves, or two bits that suddenly connect, which is always instant serotonin, and you don't really get those in shorter pieces. So there's that.

I do have to pay attention it doesn't turn into a slog, especially because right now I'm working on a bit that has a lot of hard plot and little interaction, and there's a danger there that I lose the enjoyment of it.

On the other hand, last month I took a week of me-holiday (wife at work, kid on a holiday camp) where I just... wrote, six hours a day, for four days, and I really loved it. Filling up my free time with things I enjoy has been something of a struggle lately - I've taken an occasional day off for relaxing, played some games or read a bit, but it always felt a bit empty. Meanwhile the writing is a bit frustrating because it still goes slow, but it also... It's accomplishment, it's escapism, it fulfills a lot of needs in one go. And also, as someone for whom writing and imagination and creativity has been a significant part of their identity, it's immensely reassuring to find that I haven't really lost all that.

That said, it comes at a cost. I'm trying to spend every free moment I can claw free on writing, and that includes time I before all this spent on household tasks. And writing is also a very individuel hobby. The wife has been lovely and supportive, but it does feel a bit like I have a trade off between being creative and being a good spouse and parent. Made me very very resentful of all those male authors who could write 12 hours a day while their wives took care of everything else.

Still. Generally speaking, it's positive. The biggest challenge now is not letting my perfectionist side win, because, as I said before, this thing doesn't have to be flawless, it just has to be done.

(because that means I can a) finally post the bit that comes after and that had been finished for years, which is some of my best and definitely darkest writing but I can't post without the thing that comes before, and b) that I can throw myself into the third part, which I'm v looking forward to)

But I do feel the lack of time a lot. There are so many other things I want to write, and so many other things I'd like to do other than writing, and it always comes down to choosing. So far, I have now multiple times chosen ruthlessly selfishly, and I still can't shake the guilt that comes with it.

Anyway. I have another week off the second half of November, with wife at work and child at school, and I'm trying to see it as a soft deadline to finally finishing this. After over a decade, it's about time, right?

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those kinktober rules banning dubcon or noncon fic but allowing cnc roleplay so long as the kink negotiation and aftercare is on screen is so funny to me. cnc roleplay but i morally disagree with noncon so we roleplay two people discussing and having cnc roleplay but within that roleplay of the roleplay we have to include a kink negotiation and discussion but to not be immoral there has to be discussion of the kink within the roleplay of the roleplay of the roleplay but in order to keep that above board we have to

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PX3 Photoshoot by J. Konrad Schmidt

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do you guys ever like forget you're interested in something until you start engaging with it again and you go "oh wait i'm like crazy crazy about this yeah"

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"I asked chat gpt–"

Well I asked HEX and the response was "+++?????+++ +++Out of Cheese Error. Redo From Start.+++". Worth considering.

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bringing this over from twitter bc this person literally gets it. watching su for the first time i was literally shocked by how wonderfully toxic the yuri was there. thank you women 🙏

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Crows feet are a normal part of getting older. While the pressure on your eyes is usually too gentle to wake you, over time their nightly visits will begin to leave a small footprint on your skin. It's all natural, nothing to worry about.