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[pastsaoi]

its coming up on a year since i last posted a fic.... my last upload was in JUNE ITS NEARLY MAY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

how have i been in a block for nearly a year.... how........ like ive been writing??? ive been doing my long fic and a few small ones..... BUT THEY AREN'T FINISHED i can't finish them....

tot fandom i am so sorry i have abandoned you

might force myself to write something... anything..... I NEED TO DEFEND MY TITLE OF #1 NXX FOUND FAMILY ENJOYER.....

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well.... artem u bled me dry quite literally.

100 pulls. every single schip i own. i had to scrounge around the game for the last 5 minutes before the banner left to do the 3 final pulls. artem. you bastard

but i love this card so much that i can't even be angry. even if his bday is coming soon. EVEN IF I HAVE 25 SCHIPS TO MY NAME

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been in a complete writers block for like 2 months now but ive had exams so it balances out </3

but also i need to get back to it bc i love writing my silly little fanfics might try crack out a mini lukerosa fic at some point... i dont think ive written properly for them yet???? crazy business from me

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UGHHHHH LUKEROSA MAKE ME SO EMOTIONAL WTFFFF

ive just finished the current event and im scream sobbing into my hands THEYRE SOOOO

like. luke is not my fav ml but i think lukerosa is my fav pairing??? idk there is just something about them????? holy shit???

like. this????

i deadass started crying when i read this???? like wtf rip my heart out why don't you

they make me sooooooo i love lukerosa so much holy fuck i wanna tear out my hair when i think about them

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HELLLO???? on the first free pull????? with like???? 70 until guaranteed??????? luke what r u trying to tell me

im not complaining at all this card has rosa's best outfit ever its so good + luke in glasses is always a win

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cn server spoilers for the new event illustrations!!

oh BABY WE BEEN FED W THESE

LOOK AT THEM. THEY'RE??????

luke n artems.... gotta say they're my favourites omggg...

more of a close up for luke.. the Hand Grab. His hair. HIS EYES

LUKE PEARCE. this man is always looking like he's staring death in the face WHICH HE USUALLY IS.

gang give my boy a BREAK...

i can't tell what rosa is holding?? my brain was saying whip but i am 10000% confident that i am wrong

either way..... luke. xia yan. you.

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giggling at the new event ITS A LITTLE FUNNY

bad bitches vs uwu owo yummylicious. a battle for the century truly

perfect and amazing me and vyn r on the way to destroy Everyone. with Mocktails

also if vyn doesn't come.... pls baby plslssss im begging u PLSSS.... im like. so poor this is the most broke ive ever been in tot Ever i have 120 schips to my name...... vilhelm... vyn...

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so obsessed w the new cn event cards

1. its the fantasy sci-fi i have been waiting for

2. BAD BITCH WITH A BOBBBB

like yes ik he got long ass hair at the back but IDCCC BOBBBB

its so good vyn you have never not served a look

i am eating up the traditional/modern mixes w all the outfits its so yummy

but the bob omg the fucking bob its so perfect

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RED ALERT RED ALERT

WHY IS MY FAV VYN CARD COMING OUT RIGHT NOW. WHY. WHY. WHY. WHY.BWHY

i i fear this was the worst thing ive seen WHY DOES IT HAVE TO COME OUT RIGHT NOW

IM BROKE I'VE SPENT EVERYTHING BC VYN N ARTEM HATED ME ON THE CURRENT CARDS

im so upset ive been waiting for this i should've know....... life was going too good...

tears in my vynrosa loving eyes

[pastsaoi]

its my bday today!!! yayy!!!

with birthdays comes... the tot bday messages AND WHEN I TELL YOU.... I NEARLY DIED DURING ARTEMS..

every single time i think i am somewhat starting to move on... that vyn may take his place as my number 1 he does something that makes me choke and die

if u want the bday thing to be a surprise... don't look...

亲爱的？？！！！！？！！！亲 爱 的 ！

eternally grateful that I understand some mandarin bc HOOOOO I HAD MY PHONE PRESSED AGAINST MY EAR LISTENING

he's so cute. so fucking cute sir u are 32!!! stop being adorable!!!!!

he's so awkward he is such a loser it is so endearing to me i am abt to go crazy and buy his plushie for my bday... ARTEM WING THE GJINGS U DO TO ME

also vyns??? nearly made me cry MR RICHTER....

luke's was precious as well i got cute aggression from him as he was talking i wanted to squeeze his face

marius. uses his money wisely I was Not expecting a cute little hologram of himself it was sososo sweet

ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEE and here's to another year w tot

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so. new arty.. artie??? event. MY FAVOURITE BEAR IS BACK!!!!

i love that fucking bear. it's wonderful. its so precious. everytime i think about it i blow up

artem wing. you man. UGH. idk how to describe how much that stupid bear means to me

HE PUT IT ON THEIR BED!!! THEIR BED!!!!!!!!!

that is temporary son that is littler wing

so he takes those keyrings w him on business trips... adorable btw DOES ROSA TAKE THE BEAR. (it may have said smth in the event but i blacked out from cuteness and don't remember much)

i love the bear best birthday gift ever its even better that it embarrasses him So Much

that man does not sing!!! he does not lullaby!! but he will lullaby for his girl!!!! he Will Record more for fiancée of the century rosa

artemrosa... make me scream into my pillow like UGHHGHH I HATE LOVE THEMMM

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google docs autocorrect thingy is my arch enemy actually ITS SO USELESS??? I KNOW IM RIGHT!!! its just wanna. claw my screen bc u can't even dismiss the prompt on mobile so i have to stare at a stupid line thats taunting me

truly an infuriating experience stop trying to rephrase my shit i will fight!!!!

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haven't written anything in a couple weeks or so bc ive had exams........ im itching bros ITCHING

might. just spew out a random au fic when im Finally finished on wednesday... got an idea cooking in the good ol brain

got the Idea. no idea if it should be mariluke... artemrosa... Hell maybe ill try vynartem for a giggle IDK IDK HELP...??? we'll see we'll see

MAYBE LUKEROSA??? THEYVE BEEN ON THE BRAIN...

im so indecisive its insane but... new oneshot will be arriving soon.. eta.. who knows... but soon....

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sometimes babygirl really Really is a 32 year old man Oh My God artem wing why are you so cute im going crazy

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i might... treat myself to one of the tot plushies... BUT IDK WHICH ONE

they r all so so cute. i need another little guy to join my plushie collection (i have 2)

might... get artem first then vyn after my exams are over??? a little reward.. a treat?? feel like if i get two... i gotta get luke n marius as well..... WHY NO ROSA PLUSH

insane trio of csm denji, L from death note and artem wing on my shelf.... tempting truly

i dont have any tot merch which must change but i always get embarrassed buying literally anything merch related bc im weird like that... but a plushie is a purchase i must make.

AND ANDNAND THOSE. CUTE LITTLE RAINCOAT FIGURES??? ADORABLE I WANT PINK ARTIE... MY LIL MAN I WANY ALL OF THEM THO THEYBR SO CUTE

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me when i want to talk about this stupid fantasy fic that is taking over my life (its only planning i have done so little writing)

but i don't want to give out spoilers but i don't want to get people's hopes up I HAVE SO LITTLE TRUST IN MY WRITING CAPABILITIES

im losing it im sososososo

and via. planning for this luke pearce has immediately jumped me launched me by the hair and tossed me into a cliffside (he is quickly rising in the favourite ranking) i love him oh sososo much im sorry you are the number 1 sufferer here i love you luke SMOOCH

just wanna give him a little kiss hold his hand go on a walk like RAHHH IM SORRY IM SORRY FANTASY LUKE IS GOING THROUGH SHIT TOO

sorry i keep yapping about this but ohhhhmygoddd i need to spew my thoughts Somewhere

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Trick or treat?

never been so scared of an ask in all my life....

i am oh so curious about the trick..