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Do you know what Elektra and Tang Bo have in common? :D

Anyway, I've been reading daredevil comics and I did this to fight the artblock. "Somehow" I managed to draw Bo's outfit even more revealing than Elektra's. Also, gods I hate coloring but i managed to make something decent.

I know I've been missing for a while, oops

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stare.....

bonus

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stare.....

bonus

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I think I spent too long listening to My Clematis from alien stage...

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👩‍❤️‍👩

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They were very good friends-

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i’ll post this early on tumblr bcs why not

(chapter 127 spoilers…. puku puku pow pow)

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MOUNT HUA SECT!!! 🌸🌸

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WIP cause I can't stop thinking about him-

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im just... always amazed at how perfectly rotbb portrays the whole process and every form of regret. especially the regret of realizing the importance of something too late because you find it not only in cheongmyeong but in anyone who lives in ignorance like pbss once did

(novel spoilers?)

this feeling can be seen in every line and chapter of the novel but it becomes even more vivid during the fight between gupa and jang ilso around chapter 1550, when beop jeong realizes what kind of consequences his actions have brought upon his people

and the best part was when beop kye starts talking about his memories of bangjang like the times he protected beop kye in shaolin, how much his words means to him and how significant his presence is in beop kyes life blah blah but then the pov changes back to bangjang and you see that he doesnt even remember those memories at all and this was the poisonous seed of his regret because He Does Not Remember It

the greatest sect of its time, shaolin, suffers its greatest downfall and beop jeong doesnt know anything about his disciple. the person youve occupied so much room in his life sacrifices himself to save you but looking at his lifeless body, it suddenly dawns on you that those fond memories he told you about didnt even mean anything to you till that moment

thats why you start weeping because you couldnt see all those innocent eyes that always looked up to you with utmost trust and admiration until you lost them, because you went to war in the name of protecting your people, but as you mourn in the midst of their corpses you suddenly realized that perhaps you dont even know the names of half of them

and you can not turn back time, nor can you change what has happened. all you can do is carry this devastating weight that crushes your being until you die

doesnt this sound familiar?..

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obligatory mdzs crossover. wei wuxian would watch over chung myung like a wizened troublemaker elder not knowing chung myung is thrice his age

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Gossiping

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Cheong myeong-ah, who are you waiting for?

"The kids"

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smiley! (ft. post war au tangchung)

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something devastating i realized while rereading the recent novel chapters

slight rotbb novel spoilers? i think?

when the five swords + a few members of the alliance and jongnam disciples teamed up and fought against the black dragon king around chapter 1560, cheongmyeong just stood back where no one could see him and watched their fight. no interruption. no scolding. at the time i thought it was to let the kids have some experience. but some chapters later, during cheongmyeong and jong rigok's conversation, he told the real reason and i felt something inside my brain shattered

"They fought together, those Jongnam guys and Hwasan."

Jongrigok was silent for a moment. Cheongmyeong glanced down at his teacup and asked.

"Do you know how that was possible?"

"......."

"Because I wasn't there."

'because i wasn't there.' this. he HATES them. those so called righteous sects. he absolutely detests them. and this sentence perfectly illustrates the enormous amount of hatred and resentment cheongmyeong carries

no matter how much time passes, it takes much, much longer for a deep wound to heal. and maybe for cheongmyeong, the past is a wound that will keep bleeding forever. he tries to bury his feelings deep in his heart but it is just impossible to put out the fire that boils inside him

but he knows this is wrong. wrong because his personal feelings can lead the next generation astray. wrong because an emotion like hatred shouldn't be something that is passed down from generation to generation. wrong because future descendants shouldn't bear the mistakes of their ancestors

wrong because those personal feelings of cheongmyeong have the power to change the course of the greatest war of its time

so he closed his eyes, bit his tongue and decided to let bygones be bygones. even though he couldn’t bring himself to forgive them. his heart may never be free of that hatred. and resentment. and grief. but cheongmyeong would rather let those feelings consume him to his very core than put his people at risk

— and the things is, we always focus on the part of the story in which the people cheongmyeong loves so much no longer exist and miss one tiny detail that the people he hates are also no more

this was the devastating part of my realization. there is no one left to condemn. no one to blame. literally. those who betrayed him, destroyed his home and spat on his kindness are all long gone, already faded into the pages of history. and the only ones left are the descendants who are forced to shoulder the sins of their ancestors. yes, the current sects and their leaders have also disrespected mount hua at some point but i believe it has never been about them. still, cheongmyeong doesn't want to forgive them... but can't condemn anyone either... he is stuck in a cruel dilemma and it's eating him alive

it's as if... as if the universe is playing with him. or testing him. i don't know. it doesn't allow cheongmyeong to harbor even a small grudge, nor does it give time for it. my sweet boy goes round and round in an endless loop of suffering... he is truly the child of tragedy

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gonna start archiving here in case twitter does something crazy

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Y'know what's guy's? This is the best I can do, yes, there are things to be fix but eh. Just hear me out, for someone who doesn't know what is doing, it came out better than I was expecting