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“You know, Niðavellir is a little scary, but I think that me and Reginn are going to be fantastic friends!”

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comfort starters

WORDS:

“  i’ve got you. it’s okay.  ” “  stay the night with me?  ” “  i’m here. and i’m not going anywhere.  ” “  shh, it’s okay. i’m here now.  ” “  talk to me.  ” “  i wish i knew how to talk about it, but every time i try i just— the words won’t come out.  ” “  i’m afraid if i start crying, i just won’t stop.  ” “  i don’t wanna be alone tonight.  ” “  you don’t have to say anything.  ” “  do you want me to stay with you?  ” “  we’re okay— everything is gonna be okay.  ” “  it’s over now.  ” “  it’s okay if you need to cry. it’s just me. let it out.  ” “  i don’t wanna have to do that ever again.  ” “  i’m so fucking scared.  ” “  i won’t let you go through anything like that again.  ” “  you don’t have to deal with this alone.  ” “  i just need to feel something.  ” “  i don’t wanna talk about it. i don’t. i just need to forget.  ” “  whatever you need, i’m here.  ” “  please, just tell me what you need.  ” “  lay back down, you need to rest.  ” “  here, i made you some tea.  ”  “  drink this, it’ll help you relax.  ” “  let’s go for a walk. sitting here all cooped up will only make it worse.  ”  “  i can’t breathe. i can’t—  ” “  just breathe. breathe with me.  ” “  look at me. hey— i’m right here. you’re not alone.  ” ”  i feel so sick.  ” ”  i’m just so fucking tired.  ” “  what can i do?  ”  “  i need you.  ” “  i’ll always be here when you need me.  ” “  i was so worried— i thought i’d lose you.  ” “  i’m really worried about you.  ” “  actually i’m…i’m really not okay.  ” “  i keep telling everyone everything is fine and each time someone else asks i get closer to just. breaking.  ” “  you’re not fine. and you don’t have to pretend that you are with me.  ” “  everything hurts and i want it to stop.  ” “  i know it hurts now. but it gets better. with time. the pain gets a little less until it’s more of an ache rather than some big overwhelming lump in your throat.  ” “  just tell me it’s gonna get better.  ” “  i heard you crying— what’s wrong?  ” “  everyone keeps asking how i’m doing but— you’re the only person i really feel like i can talk to.  ” “  i can’t promise you it’ll get better. but i can promise you i’ll be here with you.  ” “  i just needed to see you.  ” “  i just need to know you’re okay.  ” “  get some rest, i’ll be here the whole time.  ” “  i’m afraid to go to sleep.  ” “  i can’t stop seeing their faces every time i close my eyes.  ” “  i sleep better in your bed.  ” “  i won’t say sorry because that just, falls flat. but if i could change it. i would.  ”   “  as long as i have you, i think i’ll be okay again.  ”

ACTIONS: 

1. for our muses to cuddle after one of them has a nightmare 2. for one muse to invite the other to get under the covers with them 3. for one muse to come to the other in the middle of the night to crawl in bed with them 4. for one muse to hold the other while they cry 5. for our muses to spend the night together after a traumatic experience 6. for one muse to help the other clean blood off of themselves  7. for our muses to take a bath together to help one or both of them relax after something traumatic  8. for one muse to show up at the other’s doorstep in tears  9. for our muses to have sex as a means of comforting each other  10. for one muse to make the other’s favorite meal to help them feel better 11. for one muse to wipe the other’s tears away 12. for one muse to gently take the other’s chin to get their point across while comforting them 13. for one muse to fall asleep on the other after breaking down 14. for one muse to carry the other to bed and stay with them  15. for one muse to confess something traumatic to the other  16. for one muse to make the other finally open up about something  17. for one muse to stay the night with the other to keep them from hurting themselves  18. for one muse to take care of the other who is drunk  19. for our muses to drink together after a shared traumatic experience 20. for one muse to confess their love for the other after experiencing something traumatic

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how do you need to be loved?

Deeply, like the vastness of the sea

You are a very passionate person. You feel everything so intensely, and that definitely includes love. You need someone who will match that passion, that intensity. You need someone who will care about you as much as you care about them, but you have a hard time finding that. You're usually the one who loves more, and it's sad sometimes, but it's okay. But you will find someone who loves you just as much as you love them.

Tagged by: Stole off @jasperlion

Tagging: whoooooooooooever hasn’t done it yet ig?

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Poetry lines

The Sun

You are daybreak after the night. You are joy with its hair in braids. You are the light to be found within every healing heart. I don’t know where you got all this despair from, but here, here. Let me bury it for you, if only for a day. Here, here. There are mornings bright enough to escape it.

Tagged: swiped it from @vallablooded​

Tagging: @jasperlion​ and you there with the face

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vallablooded​:

✥ | It’s still a big mystery on how alternate versions of one person can coexist in the Order of Heroes, let alone in Askr or Zenith. However, Megan didn’t really find that too bothersome, for it also revealed certain sides of a person, whether it would be good or not. Despite Megan being in her Nohr Noble armor, her heart was still in the right place, and she didn’t hold any biases to neither Nohr or Hoshido. In fact, she cherishes both of her families, regardless of how hard it is for both of those rivaling kingdoms to get along. She holds the dragonstone close to her, as the stone itself continued to shine in the palm of her hands, and yet, the dragon royal herself didn’t transform into a dragon. 

“Hm?” Ruby red eyes blink upon someone calling her name, and Megan turns around to look at Corrin, a smile forming on her face. She gives her an acknowledging nod, hands still holding the dragonstone.

“Hi there, Corrin! What’s up?” Megan greets, having her full attention on her friend.

"Oh, um... nothing, I suppose.” Already she feels herself faltering. Is this what others talk about when they say she brings such a surreal air? She knows that her path- her real path -is one that is threefold, and she shouldn’t be so surprised to see Megan after the dust settles from a long path well trodden, but it’s... strange. It’s very strange, to a princess locked behind the single path of a dream that was now simply delaying its end.

“I just... wished to speak with you.” Was her real self so bad at planning ahead? She scarcely has a topic to think of. Always thinking of an ever uncertain now than any sort of defined future, for what was the point when it all changed so quickly? Or at least, such is the landscape she has acquainted herself, the stark contrasts of a dream that don’t quite match with reality’s more subtle and varied shifts. She’s still getting used to it.

“I hope you’re feeling well. Taking care of yourself is very important, especially when it’s taken you so long to get here.” Such is also her nature to simply dote upon others, reach out to provide aid that was scarcely asked for. “And I hope you don’t mind my intrusion. I guess you could say I’m just... curious.”

Her hands fold quietly in front of herself with no stone to grasp- no, she’s left it behind for now -and she simply thinks of how different they are in even something as small as a finger: hers smooth and untouched, born without a moment’s strife, Megan’s showing the wear and tear of war.

Corrin’s silence is simply a product of her fixating on what small differences she can find, the conversation lost from her attention.

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I know who I am now      I know who I want to be I want to be more than      This devil inside of me

Indie - Semi Selective - Multiverse + Ship - Mun and Muse 21+ - formerly thegraypath, follows from scripsitventi

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jasperlion​:

It’s one of those good days, he’s sure. The harvesting session earlier in the morn had gone over well— heck, the sun’s rays were awfully gentle, and it made work a breeze! … Maybe it was also because there was a breeze.

Still, it is quite good kindling for a good mood, and he finds himself humming as he walks down the hall and off towards the library (maybe he can make off with a book or two without being shoo’d out), only for a familiar, rhythmic sound to catch his ears.

He finds himself humming along to its beat, creeping ever closer (footsteps? bare? He knows a couple of people who run around barefoot) until—

           “ALM!”

“Gah—!” It’s like he’s jumped out of his own skin, stumbling with wide eyes as he wildly looks around until he locks in on the rapidly approaching ‘pouch’-carrying dragon princess calling his name like an excitable and joyful mantra, feet pattering about at around the same pace as his heartbeat.

He finds his hand over his chest subconsciously as he takes a breath to calm himself, a fond smile forming on his face once the situation actually registers. “Corrin!” Alm greets, eyes curiously peering at the cape full of discoveries. “Let’s see, let’s see!”

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…

Oh. A frog.

It’s hard not to smile wider at her enthusiasm over an animal like that! Sure, it wasn’t a specially… special frog, in his humble opinion, but… he used to pull stunts like that all the time.

“It rained last night, didn’t it? I saw frogs about the most in the countryside after the rain.” Alm says with a chuckle as he leans forward to peer at it, though he distinctly avoids touching the animal. “Don’t you look grumpy, little guy?”

And oh, Corrin looked so excited… but it didn’t look all that remarkable to him! Still… it seemed safe to touch, and so he places one single finger over the animal’s head in a soft little tap. “Boy, you sure are lucky these guys don’t have poison all over their skin—! Nasty stuff, we didn’t see those boys around often in Zofia. I read they were more common in Rigel— lots of those in Mycen’s field guides. Kinda looks like a chorus frog, if you ask me!”

… His eyes pull away from the animal to instead offer Corrin a smile. Might as well throw her a bone, right! Wouldn’t want to act just like Mycen, in this case. “Lucky find! If I’m right, you don’t see these often at all. Elusive little fellows…

… but I think we ought to keep this guy wet if we don’t want him to get sick, right?”

“Poison?” She lifts her head with brows angled high, “They can make poison on their skin? I-I didn’t think- I mean, I think I’ve read something like that, but it sounded so... strange.” Still, despite her surprise, she finds room for a breathless, soft giggle. It’s all so... new! and lovely.

“A chorus frog, huh...” She repeats the name with wonder, “I wonder, did you come through a gate left behind? Or are you native fauna?” And the frog simply continues squeaking angrily.

And Alm brings up a fantastic point!

“Oh! Oh gods, we DO need water, don’t we?!” She bounces and looks around for- for a pond or something? Frogs. Ponds. That’s what she read, right?! “Oh, no, no, no, this won’t do I don’t want to hurt it-”

She leans forward, finally coming to a conclusion as their little companion keeps croaking about being jostled about in her cape, “Alm, can you take off your breastplate?!”

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“I must say, fairly jealous of the cape.”

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The Crane Wives Sentence Starters pt. 3- The Fool in Her Wedding Gown

Assorted RP starters taken from lyrics from the album The Fool in Her Wedding Gown by the band The Crane Wives; slight adjustment- such as pronouns -for ease of interaction OK!

“Oh my brother, who have you become in the wake of all that’s happened here?”

“Tell yourself there’s no more need to lie. We don’t have time for that.”

“There is nothing left to bring me back down.”

“Steady, steady, you know when you’re ready.”

“I can take for better but for worse can’t condone.”

“How long is forever?”

“This ring around my finger’s like a chain around my throat.”

“Are you so sure you tamed me?”

“Don’t just watch me go, you fool.”

“Run with me, keep up.”

“If I were someplace else, would this be easier?”

“The only peace I have ever known is the peace I made with you.”

“I won’t move, but I can’t stay here.”

“So what the hell am I supposed to do?”

 “If I were someone else, would this be easier?”

“I learned to hold it for a while and let it go.”

“Please tell me someday I’ll at least be able to sleep.”

“If I were not myself, would this be easier?”

“I’m at a loss for better plans.”

“'Cause this is all I have.”

“So I’ll just close my eyes and try to pretend that it gets easier.”

“Stay the course when you falter and don’t you think of me.”

“Let her leave my sight. Make her leave my mind.”

“Bring it down on my head if these sins are mine.”

“Let her go.”

“Keep your distance.”

“Make resistance.”

“All I want is to be free.”

“You built your kingdom around me, now I’m trapped within your walls.”

“Bundle up darling, you’re on your own now.”

“I am not one to live with regret.”

“It’s all that I can give to you my dear.”

“I know that you mean so well.“ 

“I am not a vessel for your good intent.”

“If you’re fine with that.”

“Abandon all your stupid dreams.”

“You gotta know that this won’t last.”

“I can’t stay here anymore so remember when I go.”

“I know you’re not the one.”

“ I’m a book on a shelf, collecting dust all by myself, but I carry all the words you wrote.”

“There ain’t nothing about you I don’t know.”

“For bravely I will wield my weapon I made from those that died.”

“I shed my old sins, for weight will only make me weak.”

“I only fought for love at your request.”

“You could still carry me away but you’d leave me here to die.”

“Once and for all, what does that mean?”

“It’s a promise I’m making that I don’t actually believe.”

“Am I the only thing that keeps you safe when the light is gone?”

“I’ll sing you songs until the darkness does recede.”

“But if in the end I lose my voice will you forget about your love for me?”

“I still hold out hope that maybe someday I’ll be worth more than all the silence left in my way.”

“Know that all my love will be your breath.”

“You’ll need room to run and something to chase.”

“There is no safe place, no sanctuary. It’s all just child’s play, a game of hide and seek.”

“Don’t make it harder than it has to be.”

“All you’ve ever wanted is an escape.”

“Love’s the only thing worth being alive for.”

“Those of us who vow never to love again are making liars out of honest men.”

“Though you’ve convinced yourself you’re safe and sound within, the thing you fear the most never need get in.”

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The Crane Wives Sentence Starters pt. 2- Coyote Stories

Assorted RP starters taken from lyrics from the album Coyote Stories by the band The Crane Wives; slight adjustment- such as pronouns -for ease of interaction OK!

“My daddy always said: ‘Nothing worth doing comes easy’.”

“Every day I told myself ‘I’m not ready’.”

“Time is not your friend.”

“Time is not your remedy.”  

“No amount of waiting will make you brave.”

“No amount of fear will keep you safe.”

“The older I get the more fears I collect.”

“I could have been anyone, anyone else, before you made the choice for me.”

“We made our peace with weariness, and let it be.”

“I never gave a single thought to where it might lead.”

“I loved you like the sun.”

“I shine only with the light you gave me.”

“I want to feel the fire that you kept from me.”

“I swear I didn’t mean what I said.”

“Are we allies or enemies?”

“This will be the death of me.”

“All is fair in love and war, but I can’t fight with you anymore.”

“I never knew that I needed you.”

“But now my love is gone and I am left unraveling.”

“I’m tryin’ to make something of myself.”

“I’m one deep breath away from a breakdown.”

“Does everybody have it together or are we all pretending?”

“Can we stop pretending now? Can we all admit that we don’t have it figured out.”

“You can’t trust a single thing I say.”

“I can’t trust a single thing you say.”

“I’ve gotten good at stretching the truth out of shape.”

“I got no money but the change that jingles in my pockets.”

“No man should stand to work all of his days and have nothing at the end of them.”

“It was a march we made towards ruin and despair, but we held hands all the while.”

“I swear that I loved you.”

“We didn’t give up, we wouldn’t dare surrender.”

“It was an honest loss.”

“You were already gone.”

“I hear something calling me.”

“On some level I think I always understood.”

“On some level I think I always understood that these hands of mine were clumsy not clever.”

“I tried to do the best that I could.”

“Try as I might I could not bring myself to hold you.”

“It’s a secret I keep tucked inside my chest.”

“A ship could never really love an anchor.”

“So I did the only thing that I could, and severed the rope that set you sailing from my harbor.

“There are times where I still wonder about you.”

“You are someone I have loved but never known.”

“And you’ll never see the reasons I had for keeping my claws away when they were close enough to hurt you.”

“I am selfish.” 

“I am broken.” 

“I am cruel.”

“I am all the things they might have said to you.”

“Do you ever think of me and my two hands, and wondered why?”

“These steps I take won’t go to waste if I’m moving towards something.”

“I want to believe there’s something left for me. A new discovery waiting for me.”

“Sometimes I feel like I’m lost in a desert, and every dune is the same as the other.”

“I want to kindle a love that doesn’t age.”

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The Crane Wives Sentence Starters pt. 1- Foxlore

Assorted RP starters taken from lyrics from the album Foxlore by the band The Crane Wives; slight adjustment- such as pronouns -for ease of interaction OK!

“What about the rest of us?”

“I’ve been hearing that you’re leaving town.”

“The dust never settles when you’re around.”

“Do you ever feel nothing at all?”

“Do you ever want nothing at all?”

“Happy is the man who wants for nothing.”

“Heartbroken men long to feel nothing.”

“I would not wish that on you.”

“I’ve been wishing that you’d prove me wrong.”

“Ain’t it easier to just move on?”

“How lucky we are.”

“The dark doesn’t frighten me.”

“It’s time to learn to be more forgiving of yourself, and your sins.”

“When have you ever known the world to be a fair place?”

“Those mistakes you’ve made; you've got to try to take the lessons away from them.”

“You can’t be always trying to dig up what you’ve already buried.”

“All the self-loathing in the world won’t change a thing.”

“Every word I say is kindling.”

“Tell me I am good enough.” 

“You don’t have to believe every single thought that tumbles through your head just ‘cause it sounds like you talking.”

“Sometimes all you can do is say goodnight and tuck your demons into bed, 'cause they’re not worth fighting.”

“You keep a running list of all your doubts and your dead ends.”

“There are lessons in life no one should have to learn.”

“Trust is now something I make people earn.”

“I don’t believe the pretty little things that you say- I’ve heard a lot of little pretty things.”

“I am not brave.”

“I keep my focus on what is safe.”

“You drew a line, made up your mind.”

“I gotta wrap my head around what my heart is telling me. I’ve been trying to drown it out.”

“Just because I know what I am supposed to do now doesn’t mean I know how.”

“If only I could break the chain of disappointments weighing me down.”

“I won’t be afraid of all the things I’ve wanted.”

“It’s the fear, and not the ghost that leaves me haunted.”

“Get on your knees and dig up the garden.”

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She’d spent quite some time drifting on the outskirts of the Order, at least in comparison to the one she had deemed the center best avoided. The dream-born princess wasn’t really certain WHAT would happen should the two cross paths... They were, after all, different versions of the same person on a number of fronts: too different to be truly the same and too similar to be anything but facets of the same crystal. Or at least she supposed. She was nothing but a reflection, a refraction, some mutation of the one she was visiting, and yet all the more curious for it no matter what space she puts between.

But she’ll dare an approach in a dream. It’s as simple a gesture to her as a shadow sliding over the world as night falls, and yet she still leaves herself ample time for a careful pause to assess the dream she has found herself in.

“Hello? Megan?”

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Bare feet slapping against the polished Askran floors did well to herald the princess’s arrival in leaps and bounds. Her broad smile was unmistakable, pace never faltering as she dipped to and fro if needed through groups of other heroes of the Order as she kept a sharp eye out of one particular mop of green hair.

“ALM!” She calls out upon spotting him, her already fervent pace getting somehow faster, “Alm! Alm! Alm!!! Alm, you’re not going to believe this!!!”

One could clearly note her cape was pulled up in a makeshift sack, and she comes to a bouncing halt on her heels as she looks around before looking back at her friend, “You won’t believe what I found, Alm! Tada~!”

She pulls apart her cape, and, sitting there rather serenely in the rich blue fabric, is a frog.

“I-I’ve never seen- I’ve read about- No, I don’t think I’ve ever read about a frog like this! I think I’ve discovered a whole new species!” She jostled the poor thing around to gently run her finger along its back, the result being a series of fairly grumpy ribbits and chirps, “And- wow, I- this skin is so smooth, I never could have imagined anything like it- i-it’s amazing, right?!”

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     … can i dream for a few months more?   +.*)

independent princess sharena  //  by huxley.

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