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[pendarharap]

In the hush of night, echoes of self softly alight.

Act I—Introduction

I am Aslan Nightrowan. Most people call me Aslan, though Night works just as well. He/They is what I go by, and I’m of legal age. I was born under the restless fire of early days, and somewhere between the stars and the stillness of night, I found a home within myself.

I’m an INFP-T, driven by ideals and deep emotions. I live more in my mind than I do in the world around me, but that’s where my peace is found. I cherish the quiet moments, but I’m also always learning, exploring, and evolving.

Act II—My Soundtrack

Music has always been my safehouse. The place I go when my thoughts get too loud. I drift through the echoes of My Chemical Romance, Bon Jovi, Bon Iver, Pierce The Veil, The Last Dinner Party, Queen, M2M, Wave to Earth, Jannabi, CAS, Reality Club, Jeff Satur, Nerd Connection, DAY6, GOT7, WOODZ, The Boyz, Enhypen, and LYKN. I also find pieces of my past and future in local tunes like Sheila On 7, Noah, Hindia, .Feast, Lomba Sihir, Chrisye, and Nike Ardilla.

Act III—Cinematic Escape

Movies and series are my escape. I lose myself in twisted mysteries, heartbreaking romances, and stories that leave me breathless—like: 9-1-1, 9-1-1: Lone Star, Partner For Justice, The First Responders, The Guest, Revenant, Spare Me Your Mercy, Triage in my mind long after the screen goes black. When I crave something softer, I turn to Even If This Love Disappears, Viva La Vida, My Love, and ThamePo Heart That Skips a Beat. Besides that, I like to review movies or series that I usually watch on my Letterboxd account.

Act IV—Books

My reading journey isn’t dictated by genre, but by what calls to me in the moment. Books like Ways To Live Forever, The Next Person You Meet in Heaven, The God Son, The Newcomer, and Salt to the Sea have left their mark on me, each one speaking to different parts of my soul.

Act V—The Things I Love

Outside of stories and songs, I find peace in simple things: brewing coffee, savoring matcha, cooking meals that warm more than just the stomach. I’m a huge fan of Formula 1, Formula 2, and MotoGP—taking the lead in my heart with a deep admiration for Marc Marquez, whose journey I’ve cherished since childhood. When I need chaos and fun, I turn to Plato, MLBB, and Monoposto.

Act VI—Content Warning

Please use TW or CW for posts or QRTs containing snakes, trypophobia-inducing images, and content related to the deep sea (thalassophobia). I truly appreciate your kindness in respecting these boundaries.

⚠️ Do not follow if you are a 02 voter, supporter of Jokowi, zionist, racist, LGBTQ+ phobic, misogynist, someone who disrespects privacy or personal boundaries. If you can’t respect my interests and the things that matter to me, we’re probably not a good fit.

[pendarharap]

Semoga dunia bersedia berlutut kepada perempuan yang menghidupi hari.

Adakah langit yang lebih teduh dari sepasang tangan yang tak pernah meminta balas?

Dalam tubuh yang tak pernah meminta panggung, tersembunyi sejarah ribuan senja yang dilipat diam-diam di antara lipatan waktu. Ia bukan bunga, tapi tanah yang bersedia basah oleh musim, agar segala hal bisa tumbuh di atas luka-luka yang tak dinamainya. Di sana, kasih itu mengakar, tak mengenal batas—meresap ke dalam diri seperti embun yang perlahan menyatu dengan pagi.

Ia bukan terang yang mengabarkan pagi, melainkan cahaya samar yang tinggal bahkan saat malam menolak padam. Segalanya disulam dalam diam—seperti pohon yang berakar kuat, ia hidup tanpa pamrih, menanti waktunya untuk memberikan naungan. Setiap hari adalah pengorbanan kecil yang tak diumumkan, hanya dicatat oleh semesta lewat retakan-retakan halus di jari dan waktu yang terus menggerus usia.

Maka biarlah semesta tahu—setiap helai napas yang masih bersambung dengan dunia ini adalah doa yang tanpa suara, dilayangkan untuk jiwa yang tak pernah selesai mencintai dalam diam. Semoga hari-hari bersedia berlutut di hadapannya, menyuguhkan waktu yang cukup—waktu yang panjang dan penuh teduh—agar ia dapat tinggal di bumi ini lebih lama, bukan sebagai beban, melainkan sebagai berkah yang terus berdenyut dalam hidup yang tak selalu mudah. Semoga kedamaian menyelimuti langkahnya, semoga hari-hari tak menuntut banyak darinya, dan semoga cahaya tak pernah ragu menyapa bahunya di pagi yang perlahan membuka diri.