perfectcx3
perfectcx3
This Has Been A Journey To Say The Least
595 posts
I’m gay 26= Miami is home.searching for love. This is for me more than it is for you.
Don't wanna be here? Send us removal request.
perfectcx3 · 2 years ago
Text
Getting things together and revamping however many times it takes to get this shit right. Almost done with school. Getting things in check. Living the dream
1 note · View note
perfectcx3 · 2 years ago
Text
Well I just got on my second flight to El Paso. My plane rides have been delayed and annoying. I feel neutral. Trying my best to adapt. I want to really focus and being free and not keeping my brain in a cage. I wanna safe and happy. Leaving home felt weird. As much as I love my family. It feels like there is a barrier from my childhood that I can’t seem to over come. Am I already successful? I have the materials but this journey I’m about to embark on is truly gonna prove to myself that I more than strong and capable of much more than what I think I am. Thank you papa dios for guiding me and protecting me. If I didn’t have you I would be lost.
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 2 years ago
Text
Valentines day is the hardest day for me .
6 notes · View notes
perfectcx3 · 2 years ago
Text
Tumblr media
181 notes · View notes
perfectcx3 · 2 years ago
Text
It has come to my attention that it is time that i move out of my grandmas house. There is nothing else i can do to better help the situation. It is not fair that i am the one responsible for all of the elders care when no one else comes around and when they do it is because they need someone.
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
A time of Silence
As i sit here December 21. i cant help but look over 021 as a whole. its incredible as a human population where we have ended up. Does anything even actually matter? 
COVID SEEMS TO BE HITTING HARDER THAN EVER. IT SEEMS AS I HAVE HAD ALL THIS TIME OFF SINCE OCTOBER. I. ITS THE TIME FOR CALL OF DUTY. it is time to get back to the frontlines and do what I Christopher castellanos does best and that is help heal people. i dont do it for a sense of self gratification to feel better than others. its almost like if i lost all my emotions. i have gone through them all it seems. i have been happy sad mad angry hurt been in pain. worried. all for what?to live in a planet in which you dont know if you or the people you love will survive? i admit to having a sense of anticipatory grief. I am ashamed of what sand paper i have become. I can see rationals from-everyone and the intentions from their actions and i have come to realize that iam not the bad. If you dont have something to offer or for people to feed off of, you are replaced in the matter of seconds. it is so important to do things that make you happy. JADED af. 2021 taught me that i need to learn who i am and accept who i am. without hair, gay, fat, loud, bitchy. i am so many bad things but i am so many good things as well its come to my attention that i am a good person i share love and cherish people authentically. i am all about a genuine connection with-the people i am attracted too. however the moment ti get a wiff that things are for the benefit for a someone or even just spiteful i remove myself and run. i have officially lost so many people that i grew upwith. maybe its because i outgrew the many awful characteristics that attracted to me to those individuals in the first place. sometimes things are blessings in disguise. you see the trick to life is not to be preoccupied with with things to forget the many traumas and things. To me : i have had to learn that you have to place your finger exactly where it hurts and then face it face to face and experience all of it. truly go through the emotions. do not cage yourself because you were tiny back then and the beast scared you. you are strong you are kind you are love, you are anything you want your heart to be. trust yourself, love yourself, find peace. enjoy your skin and your own love. instead of giving the energy to others to make them feel better. give it to yourself. water yourself and blossom into that beautiful orchid tree. 
xoxo- imperfectly perfect C <3
1 note · View note
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
Tumblr media
964 notes · View notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
November 10
Am I a Journalist? it feels very nice to be free
I feel held in confinement when under stress driven environments such as running errands that have to due with due dates, school, tests, things that are to be completed. I need to learn to welcome this stress rather than run from it. It s important to me to live a stress free anxiety free lifestyle. 
I have to welcome being alone
I have lived the dream and now all I have to do it travel and go to different places. I wanna be happy. 
to continue, 
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Photo
Tumblr media
Japan | hobopeeba
6K notes · View notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
November 2021
Okay Today is 11/05/21 and I am finding myself a little frantic. I needed to come and just destress and type away some emotions. Violette is at my bed side. I just took like 3 huge dabs. im stressed asf. yet I have no priorities. I feel like time is passing and I am being lazy and not taking advantage of it however all I wanna do s just chill. like I feel like I just wanna have a good time instead of doing the things that are important and are what will take me to the next stages of my life. if I miss the train then ill always be behind it feels like. I made notes as too what it is that I actually need to do such as get a new job go back to school exercise more. I think the main issue I find my self in right now is smoking, lol I need to really quit it out. there is too much pressure that society places on the acts on smoking that we can't even enjoy it lol. lol wtf I just wanna chill. quit the stigma. anyways I'm gonna go about my day and try to do things that are going to help my restructure in the near future. the near is coming to an end and I don't wanna be the one to say it but I'm only getting older. its time to get my shit together and do this shit alone and like a boss Ass bitCH. 
PERFECT c Signing out bitch.
I get it everything is all about me me me me me but bitch I am literally trying my fucking best too survive out here. when I have this shit on autopilot like u sluts do then ill be more about everyone else. 
EVERYONE loves to see the shine but they never see the struggle.
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
I am up once again
Scatter brained. contemplating on my next move on the roads of success. I tend to feel the burst of anxiety and search for things to do immediately. always have to be preoccupied by something. I wish i could just zone everything out. i feel as though if I don’t use up the valuable time that my brain is kicking ass. time is a waste. i wish i had someone that shared that same spark in their ass (not literally cause i’m not a top) to accomplish goals and advance in live. Violette is so delicious i can hear her in the background getting comfy in my bed. Life is good but until when ........ i feel a huge leap of faith coming soon. I don’t know how to coop with the anxiety. 
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Photo
Tumblr media Tumblr media
Tajikistan by Alovaddin
11K notes · View notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
Perfect for the first time.
The year is 2021. it was my year. I got everything I ever wanted. From owning my dream car to enjoying diablo on all my updated new computers set up to the tv. this is what life is all about. I have this wireless keyboard and mouse and hanging on my bed. This laptop is soo awesome. it feels like I'm literally using a desktop when i have to monitor connected to the wireless set up. it may be very silly but i struggled so much to ever have everything I ever wanted. Things have always been placed in the distance for me, I always get the short end of the stick. for the first time ever I feel that feeling in defeat. I am sober at this very second. I woke up at 4 am cause I indulged in a self care loving day. I instantly laid on bed and got comfy to enjoy my room when boom I K.O’d. Lmao i woke up to my goodies scattered under me in bed.  The next  step in my life would be to find my own property. I have literally accomplished and conquered anything i have ever put my mind to. I confine that I will find/build the dream home I have ever dreamed of. I am so blessed and thank god so much for guiding me and protecting me. i would like to share all my experiences with the world so that christopher castellanos does not get lost in time. I worked really hard to be where I am. I am so happy i have all the resources to completed the tasks that i fuel in my head. I just wanna be a  roll model for people. I think that it is very important to live your truth in life. Do the things that bring you passion. Unfortunately, the cancel culture/shaming/humiliation from individuals keep us from living our truth. I can say that if i died today, I truly lived my divine truth. i love my mom, my grandma, my brothers, Daniil, my friends. they have truly helped ground me into a healthy functional person. i have experienced a lot of trauma in my life. Thank you for allowing me to coop . god bless all. 
Thanks for coming to coming to my ted talk,
live more, die less,
CC, More than just a nurse <3
i am complete where i am right now,. 
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
I Went to El Paso and i conquered and dominated the Healthcare system. I Went to Dallas and danced like its what I do. I met so many new people and I am so thankful. I have been blessed upon blessed. things have rolled out so smoothly. I went to Houston and ate delicious food. I went to New Orleans and had my fun and walked around independently throughout bourbon street and its radius.  Now I made it to Orlando where i will attempt to restructure my love life with what I believe to be my forever lover. Time will tell. What is important above all else is that I Place myself before anything and anyone else. No one held my hand for this Journey. I may be conceited or narcissitic, however, I am the only person that will ALWAYS have my back. Take accountability for that BITCH. I LOVE ME MORE THAN ANYWAY. I WILL CELEBRATE ME WITH ME. I deserve the love to me that I want to give to everyone else. 
Next goals in the upcoming months is to get on the Health Grind. Stop smoking weed. Become Financially independent. Go back to school. live alone with Violette. Enjoy my life and who wants to be apart of it. Share my love with those true ones. not the one’s that i endlessly try to groom into it. Life is a very crazy rollercoaster. I am so proud that I am having my arms in the air and enjoying it throughout the ride. 
Thank you God. I love you and without you I am NOTHING. Cheers to happiness.
1 note · View note
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
Posting everyday updates on social media is cute until everyone knows all your personal details and literally stalk you.. People are weird, its not support you see, it is curiosity. 
  I made it to Dallas Texas! so far I fucking love it! the vibe is very nice. so mystic. Sending love to the universe. Fall 9 times, get up 10 with more power than the last time. 
Ongoing monitoring at La Reunion.
0 notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
Tumblr media
What a gorgeous and cozy setup 😍✨🌿
2K notes · View notes
perfectcx3 · 4 years ago
Text
So far everything that i have thought into existence, god has truly gifted me with. I continue to try my best and do good. I love and try to help heal. I do not do it for a gift in return. i do it because god puts it in my heart, I am so thankful for all the blessings. there truly are so many. I got the atlas i wanted, I got the laptop I wanted, i got the bag i wanted. I'm saving. everything that I dreamt of and worked so hard for is right in front of me. and this is only the beginning!!!
0 notes