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Hey to whoever reads this, or if no one does then hello no one

I've decided I'm not gonna post on here anymore. There isn't a particular reason for this, but I just don't think I can keep up with it anymore and I've changed too much that being on here feels odd. Nothing has made me want to leave and I'm so grateful for all the mutuals I've met on here and our conversations and getting to know them. I won't delete this blog, so it will still be up and who knows I might come back sometime in the future. And I think I might make a more private blog in a way just for my interests so I'm not disappearing properly, but we'll see

Good bye for now x

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i’m still alive and breathing.

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does having my father’s face make you love me less?

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henri cartier-bresson - paris, 1954

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me: *spills my feelings* my brain: *slamming fists on table* REGRET REGRET REGRET REGRET REGRET REGR

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me at every year of my life: i'm very mature for my age, unlike when i was younger

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The intimacy of unliking and reliking a post for your mutuals tags

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hearts of darkness (1991) dir. eleanor coppola, george hickenlooper, fax bahr

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dragging its dead weight forward. yayyyy ^_^

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when i'm rlly rlly bored i put the names of the people i'm in class with in a hunger games simulator online. is that weird. should i stop

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since 'woe' is used for a lot of the wednesday episode titles in s1 i would kill for the first ep of s2 to be called "here we woe again"

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i had to share this because i’m crying about it

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Autumn has come 🐱🍁🍂

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Ada Limón, from “Sometimes I Think My Body Leaves a Shape in the Air”, The Carrying: Poems

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i will sexualise the horrifying and find the horror in the sexualised

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Sorry if you know any of this before hand and I'm gonna try my best to do it without spoilers, but it's based on the lore from the videogame League of Legends and is about a place called the City of Progress. It's divided though, between the rich and the poor and there are some inventors who try to create something forbidden with the intent of helping everyone. But obviously that creates problems in itself. There's a lot of conflict between the sides and sorts of politics in regards to how the place should be governed and just a lot of tension between characters. It doesn't follow one character specifically but there is a sapphic relationship that's canon in it.

I'm aware that as far as overviews go, that was pretty shit but it has beautiful and emotionally devastating writing and its art style is honestly so impressive. I think you'd really like it, if that's worth anything. Also it's only 8 episodes long, though they are 40 mins long. And it hadn't been cancelled, which is surprising considering Netflix and fantasy queer shows - season 2 is coming out in November I believe.

Have you watched Arcane ?

If you haven't I thoroughly recommend it and I think you'd really like it but I'm happy to give an overview of it if you don't

I have that on my list on Netflix, god, I really need to watch it. I'd love to hear an overview of it.

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<3

I'm not sure if you remember this but one time you recommended some Bon Iver songs to me. Just wanted you to know that since then I've added them to several playlists and hearing them when they come on always remind me of you

(sorry if this is weird but its my rambly way of saying I missed you)

stop this is so sweet i'm glad you liked them!! and i'm happy ur active again <3