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Later, The Coffee Gets Cold.

This. This doesn't always simmers quietly under the surface, but the kind that moves like a storm inside. We've always been here, experience it, and yet, it's one of those mastery we still have to be conscious about.

The art of mastering whirlwind of emotions, prolly easier to lose and letting it take over (on a moderate amount) and make things we wouldn't normally do (I repeat, moderation is the key. Some may classify certain activities like bungee-jumping might still on that list, as I am). I am having this kind of moment right now. It's loud and bothersome, but often, it's just mask for other things like frustration, helplessness or even fear. This, the fluctuative hormones we couldn't bear.

But here's the thing, like all emotions, this particular emotion is fleeting. Some may say it as anger or sadness. Powerful, but it doesn't have to control you. Simply ride it out and peek on the other side with a clearer head and lighter breath. It's not about suppressing or pretending it doesn't exist. It's more to finding the right ways to express it, to vent it, so it doesn't get intrusive.

Well, naturally, there are times when this become so intense that it needs to be expressed, stated, heard. It just some part of the complex tapestry of emotions that make us human. For me, to cool things down, my cortisol reduction strategy mostly involves physical activity to tire myself out. Such as running hard (even though I don't usually run since I might collapse. The risk of exhaustion is a real thing, like seriously. But I just did! And my feet felt numb:/). Another demanding ones like front-crawl swim, reaping cattle feed (this is by far the most tiring). Some others are singing, chat it out with a good food, reading, library-hopping, random trip, and here I am doing my last resort hope it works, writing.

*inserting related-snaps*

So next time you're feeling that rage build up, remember, it's okay.

It's okay to let it out. Just make sure you're doing it in a way that honors your well-being and the well-being of those around you.

As this too shall pass, cheers to no transient impulsive judgments!

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Somewhere between Semarang and Jogja, raining a lot, and repeating this song. Plain of leaves tossed in the air. Heavy weather blocking the front-view. I always loved rain. Despite me loving the rain there are people drenching wet and I shouldn’t be happy about this.

These few days been off course, shows me there are always two sides of everything. The way we see things giving a great deal on where we look at them from. If you see the way you look at things, the perspective you always held change.

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Used to wish for a long ride to somewhere peaceful and quiet and I do it a lot now. I was sleepless. Not even once I dare jump to the past thinking the possibilty of not seeing my own reflection exist. Yet here we are, took a long glance and thought I saw myself smiling at the past. Letting go of unworthy things interfering the journey and stupid matters with a whole heart. A reliable support is something turn out to be so necessary. For every sign You gave, and every twist and turn I had, also with the right people on the right time I’m finally here on the spot I’m supposed to be. Now I find serene within me.

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I'll be dancing in no time.

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The axe forgets; the tree remembers.

African proverb

The North remembers

(via frosthater)

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Some time ago was somewhat a rough year. 

2016, some things starts pull through while apparently he's still the same after all. This Korean-5SOS-vibe somehow interprets what I've been trying to say.

Fun fact, I don’t even know it's a Korean band before looking up online. There's this sudden urge to jump to the hype of K-pop upon hearing this.

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loving this kind of rhyme lately.

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what I had in mind is Captain America could win this since it's his part, but i'm still #TeamIronMan. There are some issues that can't be fixed right?

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why bother writing?

Have you ever feel like the world isn't on your side? Problems come and go, back and forth like it has no end, leads to depression which renders cruel consequence. My mind kept remind me saying "I hope you're not regretting the fact what you've done."

I wasn't. Until a trembling voice along a blank mind peeping out. By this point, I hope my awareness doesn't arise too late. People tend to talk without considerating what they've done and how the impacts would be, without giving suggestion what's really suitable in their society. I may indeed did something wrong, but does that make you right? The fact that they actually just don't wanna know, or don't even care really woke me up that lies or exaggerating story that perpetually told can be seen as fact. Let's just hope they never get to feel the same thing they've done, I can assure you they can never bear it.

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“She was a person you would not be surprised to find sitting by herself in a corner of the world where she didn’t belong, writing things in a notebook to prevent the rise of panic.”

Alice Munro  (vialangleav)

Going back to couple months ago where I made a turn-point to live in a boarding and put my college life at hold. My parents jaw dropped, like literally.

First couple days of new place, new life, all I do is either writing random things in elementary-skill Mandarin just to make sure no one can read it or sleeping. Feeling depressed, regretting my choice. Days later, I found myself trying to cohabitate and it ring back a bell that the choice I took is for me. Not anyone else. So I tried to live with the fact without realizing that was an effort, simply because I made the choice myself.

Face it, conquer it, and you'll get used to it. I still wonder to this moment, is acceptance the key?

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Snap this and had a kind of epiphany where I just want to have some fun and do things worry-free. Blurred Blackberry phone's pictures give the vintage vibe more.

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My same reaction when “Worh It” is on

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I AM NOW A COLLEGE STUDENT EVERYONE! Did that impress you?

GUYS THIS WAS WORTH 80% OF MY FINAL EXAM GRADE FOR OPERATIONS MANAGEMENT AND I GOT AN A