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Theres nothinf left of me anymore for 19 years ive searched ive tried i gave it everything i had i went to lengths non have ever gone before and in the end im just a lifeless corpse fragil and afraid nobody is ever gona want this broken thing nomatter what im willing to learn nomatter what lengths im willing to go what anything to achieve ive tried it all and im worthlessbim nothing and i dont wana live anymore i dont wana die alone i dont wana be without love i dont wana be forsaken ;-; butbthis curse that follows my family

Gods somebody anybody out there pleasepleaseplease i beg of thee please kill me ;-;

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Better then none

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Wolf Spirit Guide

I'm sitting on my front porch right now listening to the local wolves howl. The sound invokes a very special feeling in me. We don't hear them that often but when I do, it instills a sense of peace and strength in me that I so desperately need.

So let's talk about the wolf in terms of spirit guides and totems.

The wolf symbolizes a lust for freedom, a wild side of you that can't be tamed. It indicates a strong ability to communicate with others and an innate ability to not only be a team player, but to lead as well. The wolf also symbolizes strong familial bonds and devout friendships.

If the wolf appears to you, it could be saying many things depending on where you are in your journey.

It could be telling you that you have become too tame or beaten down and that you need to remember that you are wild, free, admired and powerful. Take your power back and put those who oppose you in their place.

It could be telling you that you need to take action to free yourself from a certain situation or environment and run free in the wild.

It could also be telling you that danger is near and that you must ready yourself for a fight. Whether it be to defend yourself from certain people, situations and circumstances, or to protect those you care about.

It could be telling you to work on your communication skills and strengthen your leadership skills. Alternatively, it could be telling you that you need to reevaluate your outlook on things and learn how to work better with others to accomplish your goals.

The wolf may also be reminding you to reconnect with your close friends and family and to rebuild any bonds that may be weak or broken.

Call on the wolf as a totem animal when you feel weak, lost, hopeless or afraid. Remember that you are untamed and fierce. Never let anyone take your power from you.

Bare your fangs, howl at the moon, and run free.

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Forest doggos

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Everyday all the time ;-; why am i so neglected and taken advantage of why am i treated this way i give all love i give it all i always try to fufill her wishes ber wants her needs i always cover everything why would i be treated like this when anyone everyone craves a love like this i dedicated my mind body and soul to her entire life to serve and cator and im treated like this why! Non of this makes any sense WHY AM I NOT ENOUGH i give everything that nobody else ever could u endure harshships abuse neglect and vents anyone other thdn me would oack there shit and flee and im always here to save her day and in the end im still alone with nothing and no love givin back to me

This feeling is of death itself whats the point of suicide when im already empty inside

Im without my healing cure im without my savior my safe harbor the only thing that makes all things dark and cursed go away there is no light that will save the day

Without hsr i am nothing and will die anyway

Nomatter what i do im just a joke

I would die for her and nothing seems to be enough and here i am hers foewver and always im never leaving im never abandoning her i will give her my love always but....will i get the same in return or will i die alone as her lonly server

Help me gods help me HELP!!!!!!!!!!!

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Autumn Fox

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Why am i not loved the same way i love her non of this makes sense non at all i give her everything i do everything she wants and asks without question all her financial daily needs i give it i counsel her i listen to her i write journal entries with her share her shows and music she wanted me to learn e subjects and i had a friend who was gona give me the books ive never done a thing wrong because ive made sure there was nothing left to reap when im out there gathering and obtaining resorces applying for services reserching home corp concept ideas were supoosed to be becoming real estate agents there is not a single fucking goddamn thing that i havent scoward and obtained all for her saying i go above and beyond is an understment i give her 100% of all of me and the only thing i want in return is fof her to love me weve bin together for a year and im scared if she leaves me because why would someone love me then pull away when theres nothing and nobody that has her every best intrest and desire at heart like me i do give her everything

And im left everytime wirh tears anxiety and all the things that i give to her including food money gas all i have nothing and her love is my every cure shes my medicine my safety shes my hero my goddess shes the mosy precious thing to me in the world id do anything just to put a smile on her face

And herebi am alone neglected. Deprived of the love im craving ti feel again

I guess.....mt value my worth is nothing more then her expendable play thing

I feel broken

Enpty inside

All i wana do is cry and whIl untol my brain puts me to sleep

Nothing i do or say ever changes i could roll over and die and my corpse would ve treated just the same

I just wana sleeo ane never wakeup

Someone help me i need the love ;-;

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