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To you Libra

I give the mission of service, that humans will be mindful of their duties to others. That they may learn cooperation, as well as the ability to reflect on the other side of their actions. I will put you everywhere there is discord, and for your efforts I will give you the gift of Love.

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You ruin your life by desensitizing yourself. We are all afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us. Caring is not synonymous with crazy. So open yourself up, do not harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how you love. There is courage in that.

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I lay my garden of fruit and seedlings on this soft mattress... I am awake, cold and if you take a closer look-broken.

My eyes reflect a hopeless abyss..

Broken people are the most evolved of all...they know they can survive and rise again from their ashes.

Years ago before I ever loved myself, I would seek refuge in every man that came close to me.

Without a family to guide, and support me, I became prey.

When my predators found me, I was naive, weak and easily manipulated.

I’d also take on their pain, suffering and try to build them up.

I played a savior in this non existent film directed by me.

They never chose me, loved me or appreciated me in the ways I thought I’d be rewarded..

As much as I tried to escape my reality these dark emotions harbored away deep in my heart.

It was a destructive, self inflicting way of life.

My behavior became a cycle.

But year after year, I have tended my garden, and watered my seeds until eventually they yielded fruit.

This is the only truth about wisdom, to fully understand, you must go through it and feel it.

I wasn’t always this proud, open, rebellious woman people have come to know and appreciate.

Through all these dark moments in my life, I thought I was being buried, left alone to die- but as my feet sinked into dirt, my tears found their way into these roots.

I was being planted~ with time by my side awaiting my blossoming rebirth.

I have turned my painful experiences into lessons and paths of guidance so that I may be this better, stronger version of a woman that stands before you.

I aspire to be happy with the choices I make daily. I will never again let people who I thought loved me: use me, abuse me or place their criticism on me

bc in the end,

we are all just projections and reflections of the worlds that live inside of us.

I no longer seek to save you or anyone, I’m sorry, but you have to save yourself..

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I just want to remind everyone of how fragile our lives really are. Sometimes lives are tragically cut short..but in the midst of all this pain, I also find strength and beauty in it. We get caught up in worldly things that sometimes we forget what truly matters in the present moment. So if you are working way too much, and you are neglecting your family, putting money and material things above people who truly care for you, you might as well be dead. To live is to love. To live is to experience the world through curiosity. Adventure, and thrills, conquering fears. To touch and change lives through acts of kindness. Waking up and taking small steps towards habits that make us better people for ourselves and those around us. What can I do today, to put a smile on someone elses face? DIME CON QUIEN ANDAS, Y YO TE DIGO QUIEN ERES. Translates to: Show me who you hang out with, and I will tell you who you are. Death forces me to re-evaluate my own life. If I were to die today...would I be happy with the life I have written for myself..or would I regret the words I never said, the feelings I never expressed ..or the time I should have spent with my loved ones.

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Its shocking for me to see the reaction of so many people around me when I am upfront and honest with them. Its as if they are not used to this type of BASIC fundamental social character trait. It's saddening that many people lack the quality of integrity; that so many of us immediately shut down when someone confronts us with the truth, or they are so surprised because they are so used to lies and deceit.

We have been conditioned to automatically distrust, and this behavior steers us away from people who could possibly be so good for us-that's not good to say the least... Don't allow negative memories or toxic past experiences alter your kindness, or future visions of mankind. To compare your ex to every present and future bf/gf is UNFAIR to that person but mostly to Yourself.. You are limiting yourself to grow, and experience true love, greatness or even simply a smile.. let your guard down. to hurt, to feel pain, brings us awareness of the dark and ugly sides of ourselves and how we deal with our agony. It gives you insight on how to get up and move forward when you are knocked down, lying on the floor, wishing to no longer exist.. For me, I am the best version of myself when I'm hurt. I start over, I start fresh. Its when I am most productive and I dig into all my bucket lists of things Ive been wanting to do but never have gotten to.

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The moment someone tells you what to do with your life-is the moment they have disrespected you. We all have our own ways of thinking, different backgrounds, different stories. You don’t know why a person reacts or behaves the way they do. And you have no right to tell them how to spend each waking day. As with ALL things: Intelligence, Love, Patience, Inspiration and Support is not shown by opening your mouth. It is shown and proved by actions.

Queen of the fall

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