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i am an absolute sucker for the reverse dynamic of buck pulling away and repressing his feelings because i do think one of the intentions of the writers this season has been eddie and buck breaking cycles. they brought up the your first, not your last thing for a reason, and now I think they are showing the audience why buck and eddie are each other's endgame.

with buck's potential repression, it is going to challenge eddie in a way eddie has never known (within their friendship). he has always been able to see buck, but if buck is hiding and purposely keeping eddie out, eddie is going to lose his mind. first, they had the physical distance, but now it is emotional distance. and that feels 100x worse. but the thing i find most interesting is it is going to challenge eddie's thesis on communication. 'i don't want to break down the door, buck, i want him to open it.'

buck has never made eddie work too hard to see inside his head. if buck is feeling it, eddie can usually see it (except, of course, the things eddie can't focus on/doesn't want to see). but if buck is purposely not feeling something to protect himself? as much as i have my problems with the texas plot, i think one clear thing we were supposed to get from it is chris wanted eddie to step in way earlier than he did. eddie waited so long for chris to make a move that chris thought eddie didn't want to be his dad anymore. once again, we are back to eddie always running out of time. he waits too long hoping someone will come back to him when all they want is for him to fight for them. i think this is even evident with shannon... look how quickly she tried to become part of their lives again once she knew they followed her to LA.

anyways I think that parallel would eat. eddie going out of his mind and waiting until he realizes he is making the same mistakes he has always made. but he can't lose buck, not like he lost shannon. not like he lost chris (temporarily). he can't deal with that heartbreak again. and so he has to decide that sometimes, it's okay to break down the door.

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And that right there is the most beautiful relationship on tv 😭😭😭😭

I've been thinking while chilling in the they cast Ryan with a plan delusionland, but specifically what it would take to give Buck the most satisfying love story possible. Because Buck was written as the love interest. His purpose in season 1 is to give something to the main character. And ever since, he's been there to provide something to his love interests even though he's the main character now, he gave Ali a place to stay, he gave Taylor professional advancement (and this one is made worse by her book), he gave Natalia inside information on death, so he's constantly providing things without getting anything substantial in return, much like with Abby and the way that he was just a device to make her feel better about her life. And the main thing here is that Buck is being pursued in order to offer something. He's never the one to go after them, he's the one being chased in a sense, Abby calls him, Ali calls him, Taylor kisses him, Natalia asks him out, Tommy kisses him, so these people want something from him and they take it, most of the time without giving him something in return, Abby forces him to get closure by himself, Ali leaves him because she can't handle the job, where do I even begin with Taylor. So if you think about it, considering the initial way Buck was written, and the way they expanded this to the point that he was literally born to offer something to someone who provided him with nothing (in this case his parents), or the way Maddie shows up because she needs the safety he could provide (I'm not saying Maddie doesn't provide him with anything, I know she does so much for him, but she did show up because she needed a place to hide) his main love interest needs to be someone who's not asking him for stuff. And that's been Eddie since he was introduced. Under Pressure is about Buck choosing Eddie. Eddie tries, but when he realizes Buck is serious about not liking him, he validates Buck's feelings, granted in his sassy way of his, and backs off until he has a chance to give Buck the choice to let him in. You can have my back any day. The phrasing of this is great for the whole Eddie trusts Buck to take care of him, he's not saying he will take care of Buck, he's giving Buck the option of taking care of him. But the thing there is that he puts the choice in Buck's hands. Buck could've walked away. Even Buck's reactions to the way Eddie says it shows a moment where Buck is considering before offering the or you can have mine. The metaphor surrounding the rescue in this context is interesting because while Eddie is choosing Buck right there, he's not forcing Buck to step in. Much like the ambulance, Eddie is offering himself, but he's not forcing anyone to go into the ambulance and risk getting blown up with him. Buck needs to volunteer. And he does.

I know the fandom loves to say Eddie baby trapped Buck, but Buck was the one who took one look at Eddie and said I'm stepping in with you whether you like it or not. Eddie never demanded anything from Buck beyond for Buck to be himself. He never asked for help with Chris, Buck chose to talk to Bobby to clear him being at the station, Buck chose to trick Eddie to offer him help in the form of Carla. Sure, when it's convenient for the plot, Eddie will just decide on things, but like, even the lawsuit of it all, when Eddie is inserting himself into the conflict, Buck is ready to be forced to provide Eddie with something to be forgiven "so whatever it takes for you to forgive me" but Eddie is instantly "I forgive you" because he doesn't need for Buck to prove himself. Over and over again, the show puts Eddie in a position that shows that he just loves Buck. No matter what. He never asked Buck to provide him with something. I think even the will and the way Eddie hides it plays into this. He doesn't want to ask for Buck to do this. Eddie knows Buck will do it, he knows how much Buck loves Chris, but the will reveal is not really about Eddie asking Buck to do something for him, taking care of Chris if he can't because the episode already showed Buck doing that without knowing that was what Eddie wanted, but to give Buck that shock that he does have something to live for, that he matters, that someone loves him. Eddie exists as the person that allows Buck to make his own decisions. He does push back when he thinks Buck needs that push but he doesn't make the choice for him. Even if Buck ever decides to walk away from him, he'll let him if that's what Buck really wants, because ultimately it will be Buck's choice and he respects that. And ultimately, with the archetype they had in mind when they created Buck, that is what Buck needs for him to be in the most satisfying romantic relationship narratively. Buck needs someone who loved him before they were in love with him. And that is the work they have been putting towards buddie since Eddie was introduced. And that's also why Buck is the one who needs to start his endgame relationship. It's never gonna feel right until Buck chooses to do something about it because everything about him is about someone else making the choice.

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I've been thinking while chilling in the they cast Ryan with a plan delusionland, but specifically what it would take to give Buck the most satisfying love story possible. Because Buck was written as the love interest. His purpose in season 1 is to give something to the main character. And ever since, he's been there to provide something to his love interests even though he's the main character now, he gave Ali a place to stay, he gave Taylor professional advancement (and this one is made worse by her book), he gave Natalia inside information on death, so he's constantly providing things without getting anything substantial in return, much like with Abby and the way that he was just a device to make her feel better about her life. And the main thing here is that Buck is being pursued in order to offer something. He's never the one to go after them, he's the one being chased in a sense, Abby calls him, Ali calls him, Taylor kisses him, Natalia asks him out, Tommy kisses him, so these people want something from him and they take it, most of the time without giving him something in return, Abby forces him to get closure by himself, Ali leaves him because she can't handle the job, where do I even begin with Taylor. So if you think about it, considering the initial way Buck was written, and the way they expanded this to the point that he was literally born to offer something to someone who provided him with nothing (in this case his parents), or the way Maddie shows up because she needs the safety he could provide (I'm not saying Maddie doesn't provide him with anything, I know she does so much for him, but she did show up because she needed a place to hide) his main love interest needs to be someone who's not asking him for stuff. And that's been Eddie since he was introduced. Under Pressure is about Buck choosing Eddie. Eddie tries, but when he realizes Buck is serious about not liking him, he validates Buck's feelings, granted in his sassy way of his, and backs off until he has a chance to give Buck the choice to let him in. You can have my back any day. The phrasing of this is great for the whole Eddie trusts Buck to take care of him, he's not saying he will take care of Buck, he's giving Buck the option of taking care of him. But the thing there is that he puts the choice in Buck's hands. Buck could've walked away. Even Buck's reactions to the way Eddie says it shows a moment where Buck is considering before offering the or you can have mine. The metaphor surrounding the rescue in this context is interesting because while Eddie is choosing Buck right there, he's not forcing Buck to step in. Much like the ambulance, Eddie is offering himself, but he's not forcing anyone to go into the ambulance and risk getting blown up with him. Buck needs to volunteer. And he does.

I know the fandom loves to say Eddie baby trapped Buck, but Buck was the one who took one look at Eddie and said I'm stepping in with you whether you like it or not. Eddie never demanded anything from Buck beyond for Buck to be himself. He never asked for help with Chris, Buck chose to talk to Bobby to clear him being at the station, Buck chose to trick Eddie to offer him help in the form of Carla. Sure, when it's convenient for the plot, Eddie will just decide on things, but like, even the lawsuit of it all, when Eddie is inserting himself into the conflict, Buck is ready to be forced to provide Eddie with something to be forgiven "so whatever it takes for you to forgive me" but Eddie is instantly "I forgive you" because he doesn't need for Buck to prove himself. Over and over again, the show puts Eddie in a position that shows that he just loves Buck. No matter what. He never asked Buck to provide him with something. I think even the will and the way Eddie hides it plays into this. He doesn't want to ask for Buck to do this. Eddie knows Buck will do it, he knows how much Buck loves Chris, but the will reveal is not really about Eddie asking Buck to do something for him, taking care of Chris if he can't because the episode already showed Buck doing that without knowing that was what Eddie wanted, but to give Buck that shock that he does have something to live for, that he matters, that someone loves him. Eddie exists as the person that allows Buck to make his own decisions. He does push back when he thinks Buck needs that push but he doesn't make the choice for him. Even if Buck ever decides to walk away from him, he'll let him if that's what Buck really wants, because ultimately it will be Buck's choice and he respects that. And ultimately, with the archetype they had in mind when they created Buck, that is what Buck needs for him to be in the most satisfying romantic relationship narratively. Buck needs someone who loved him before they were in love with him. And that is the work they have been putting towards buddie since Eddie was introduced. And that's also why Buck is the one who needs to start his endgame relationship. It's never gonna feel right until Buck chooses to do something about it because everything about him is about someone else making the choice.

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Rewatching season 2 is like, Buck is being standoffish with Eddie in the first episode and by the end of it making declarations of loyalty and then the rest of the season they're glued to each other's sides and he's yapping up a storm and Eddie is gazing at him softly, like as soon as Buck determined Eddie was 'safe' he enfolded him into his life immediately and Eddie sunk into that affection and care and partnership like an exhausted man falls into bed, with gusto and relief

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🎬 I Stand Alone (1998)

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Janeen, turn around. Why turn around?

RESET THE SERIES (2025) Premieres June 2nd

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GINNY & GEORGIA S03E08 Is That A Packed Lunch

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impulsive sexual decisions

self-harming/reckless behavior/suicidal tendencies

self-harming behavior to avoid abandonment/garner attention

efforts to avoid abandonment, whether real or imagined

disassociation

unstable sense of self; viewing situations through a distorted lens

unstable relationships; conflated/altered view of people

chronic feelings of emptiness

excessive or binge drinking

unstable sense of self; constantly "reinventing" himself

Buck + Borderline Personality Disorder

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address change. I live here now.

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Yk, I'm a believer that Eddie went through all the stages of realizing he's actually in love with Buck and is now settled in the acceptance that he will be Buck's best man and it's trying to be okay with it. I don't think that at this point you can say Eddie doesn't know. I think Buck doesn't know how to name it, because he always loves with all he has and he thinks romantic love is this all consuming thing and Eddie is safety so he doesn't fully understand what they have. But Eddie knows. And it goes back to the beginning, to Buck stepping up with Chris without being asked to and never making Eddie feel like a bad parent, just realizing he needs help. But because of the Shannon of it all he didn't stop to consider those feelings until the tsunami and the lawsuit. The there's no one in this world i trust with my son more than you is very telling but I also don't think Eddie stopped to consider what it meant that he actually means that. And then Eddie lost his footing not being able to talk to Buck because he got used to Buck always being there, because up until that point Buck has always been there. It's why he gets so mad at Buck and there's the grocery store of it all because that's not a fight you have with your best friend, you don't bring up your kid to make your best friend feel bad for leaving you, you just don't, and also the way Eddie just let it go the second Buck apologized for not considering him in his decision. And he spends a while ignoring his feelings, until the well. Signing a legal document that makes a guy you've known for like, 2 years, who's single and has no kids of his own, the legal guardian of your kid is crazy. Like, Eddie's lawyer probably stared at him like he was insane because one, Eddie has living family that's very willing to take care of Chris and two, Buck is also a firefighter and not only he's a firefighter, he's Eddie's partner, so if Eddie is in danger, Buck is probably in danger too. And he just does that. And doesn't mention it. And I feel like that is because, mentioning would mean thinking about his reasonings to do it and thinking about his reasonings would be thinking about Buck's place in his life and more importantly his feelings for Buck and he didn't want to do that. But then he got shot. And he was trying to reach Buck. He asked if Buck was hurt as if he was not bleeding out. And sure, you can brush it off as he needs Buck to be okay because one of them needs to go home to Christopher, but when he tells Buck about the will, it's not really about Chris, is about Buck acting like he somehow matters less and Eddie can't have that. Then there's the PTSD of it all too, but with the PTSD, there's Eddie going to therapy and learning how to stop moving past things. You can't tell me season 6 Eddie doesn't know. Because he does. He's just living in his bubble with Buck and Chris and acting like that's enough and hoping that maybe Buck will get where he is eventually until Buck dies and meets someone else and Eddie has the revelation that he's not what Buck wants, so he needs to move on. It's very interesting that Eddie decides to date after Buck makes it seem like this random woman is the love of his life, because what it tells him is that he's never gonna have that. But Buck thinks love is work, but in that way that makes him ready to kill himself to make it work, and he hasn't realized the amount of work he's put into his relationship with Eddie and that Eddie is right there with him and doesn't realize that he already has the thing he's searching for. So Eddie knows but accepted it's never gonna happen and Buck needs someone to shake him so he can have his oh moment.

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there's something unbearably tender about the fact that christopher is symbolic of eddie's world—his everything—and it’s christopher he gives buck in moments where words may fail.

whether it's after the ladder truck incident, to explicitly giving him to buck in his will, or in 8x17, every time eddie gives buck christopher, he's giving him more than trust—he's giving him his heart on a platter.

like—this is the only thing of worth i have to offer you. this is the best part of me. its yours. he's yours.

eddie has been handing buck his heart piece by piece in the shape of his son over and over again throughout the seasons; i wonder if he even realizes all he's revealing in doing so.

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shaoxing绍兴, zhejiang province, china (photo by 八月的旅行，涛涛在路上，猫森璐，诗涵）

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How can a man be so ethereal 😩😩😩😩

Ryan Guzman as Eddie Diaz ↳ 9-1-1 - 3x15: Eddie Begins

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Ryan Guzman as Eddie Diaz ↳ 9-1-1 - 3x15: Eddie Begins

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Ryan Guzman as Eddie Diaz ↳ 9-1-1 - 5x03: Desperate Measures

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The Nightly Detox Guide: How to Reset Your Body While You Sleep

by Soleau Club / www.soleauclub.com / @soleauclub

Detoxing isn’t just about green juice and sweating it out at the gym. Your body is designed to naturally reset and repair itself while you sleep—if you set it up right. Here’s how to create a nightly detox routine that leaves you waking up feeling lighter, clearer, and totally refreshed.

1. Hydrate with Purpose The detox process starts with hydration. But instead of chugging plain water, amp it up. Before bed, mix a scoop of electrolyte powder into a glass of water. The added minerals can help flush out toxins and reduce morning bloat without making you feel waterlogged.

2. Dry Brush for Lymphatic Drainage Before hopping in the shower, grab a dry brush and gently sweep it up your legs and arms toward your heart. This stimulates lymphatic flow, helping your body release built-up toxins. Plus, it’s a quick way to exfoliate and get that glow.

3. Detoxifying Bath Soak A warm bath is more than just self-care—it’s detox therapy. Add Epsom salts and a few drops of lavender oil to calm your muscles and encourage circulation. Soak for 20 minutes while you listen to a chill playlist or do some deep breathing.

4. Nightly De-Bloat Stretch Session After your bath, roll out your yoga mat and do a few light stretches to aid digestion and release tension. Focus on gentle twists, seated forward folds, and legs-up-the-wall to keep things moving through the night.

5. Belly Massage for Digestion Lie down, rub a few drops of coconut oil on your hands, and massage your lower abdomen in clockwise circles. This helps stimulate digestion and can reduce bloating overnight. It’s a simple, soothing step that takes less than five minutes.

6. Support Your Liver Your liver is working overtime while you sleep, so give it a little love. Sip on a cup of dandelion tea before bed—it’s packed with antioxidants and can aid in flushing out toxins. Plus, it’s a calming way to wind down.

7. Bedtime Supplements for Deep Sleep To really let your body reset, quality sleep is essential. Pop two of Soleau Club’s sleep gummies about 30 minutes before bed. They’re formulated to help you drift off easily and stay asleep longer, so your body can do its best work while you rest.

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Hes so so beautiful

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