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almost been a year since I've posted anything. Doing good! Just not much to say haha.

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got a book on witchcraft recently, specifically crystal witchcraft. very fascinated by that stuff

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sweets! ૮꒰ྀི ⸝⸝´٥ ˋ⸝⸝ ꒱ྀིა ·˚₊⊹₊˚ෆ

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Kaoru doesnt show up as much as he used to. It's sad :( I miss him being there...

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i wanna be a good friend i do, but man, im so intimidated by you....

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gen afraid if i go on stims for my fatigue i will stop being a little overreactive weirdo. i link going crazy over media i like. luckily there are many doses, brands, and i can always chose to go off of it.

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waa changed the tagging system!!!! also i'd like kaoru to get his own tumblr but he's super against the idea. he says it's more fun to get me to reblog stuff for him. maybe i'll move his reblogs here tho

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ohh the fact i wanna change the tagging system.... i just dont like how it looks :(

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i guess i wish i didn't feel so alone, you know? i dont consider myself a system because its just...complicated, it doesnt seem like it's that way, but it feels so out of my control that calling them imaginary friends feels disingenuous (besides, one of them really hates being called that anyway...)

besides that, i really dont have anybody to talk to about this, not very close people or in a way that i dont feel like im "trauma dumping" in a way. i guess i just wish i could be more open, but i feel like i can't.

i feel envious. i have other friends who are plural, who have friend groups with other plural people and can talk to them about this stuff. when they're feeling scared or confused with what's happening to them, they can easily bring it up without having to feel dumb or anxious. and just the little things, too, like sharing experiences, being able to relate to one another...i worry i won't ever really get to have that.

a part of that is on me. i'm not brave enough to reach out. i feel like i'm too different. which in and of itself makes me feel awful. you always see those posts that are like, "oh you're faking it so you can be different and cool." and "people make up new disorders so they can be different" but i dont fucking want to be different!!! god i'd give anything to be "normal". i dont WANT people to think i'm not identifying as a system because im too "cool" to, i just legit don't think that's what's happening, and it doesn't make me more cool or different, and i don't want it to, if anything it makes me MORE stressed because I don't know how to find people who are experiencing what I'm experiencing, and that's scary.

it's just ughhh. not having a proper support network sucks. kaoru, one of the people in my head, tells me not to worry about this shit and that it's nobody else business but my own, but i don't think he understands how emotionally taxing it is, too. like it or not, humans crave understanding and acceptance, and i don't really get that if i'm kind of forever like this.

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I haaaate that feeling when a New Guy is showing up. or at least you think. like you're always like, am I making this up? I have no clue...

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im so tired and i cant stop sneezing. also i do want cake when we have none!!!!! :-((((((

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Okay guys, officially made the switch + modified the url a bit :] will still reblog aesthetics, this is just now a personal + vent blog too yaaay!!

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Hi hi!! You can call me by any of my kin names but Ver/Nia are my favorites :D

This blog will be used for me to vent, reblog aesthetics related to my kins, personal rambles, etc! I've had this blog for a while now but I've never made a pin, so here we are.

I have no DNI, I will just block if somebody makes me uncomfortable.

My kins, tagging info, and other info under the cut!

Kinning for me is very much half-spiritual mostly coping...It's less of "I am/was this character for sure in a past life" (although I do feel that way with one of my kins), and more of a coping thing/comfort thing. All doubles are allowed.

All original posts are tagged "nia.txt". Kinshifts have their own tags as listed below, and all photo reblogs are tagged 💌+{ *·.*ギャラリー.·*° }+💌

IDs

Ver Million (WaTGBS) | 🌠÷{ *·.*ベル.·*° } Komaru Naegi (Danganronpa) | 📢÷{ *·.*コマル.·*° } Near/Nia (Death Note TV Drama) | 🎲÷{ *·.*ニア.·*° }

Kins

Mello (Death Note) | 🍫÷{ *·.*メロ.·*° } Kcalb (The Grey Garden) | 👑÷{ *·.*クカルブ.·*° } Yonaka Kurai (Mogeko Castle) | 🔪÷{ *·.*ヨナか.·*° } Sebastian Debeste (Ace Attorney) | 🎵÷{ *·.*ユミヒコ.·*° } Mitsukuni Haninozuka (OHSHC) | 🍓÷{ *·.*ハニー.·*° } Shio Kube (Happy Sugar Life) | 🍨÷{ *·.*シオ.·*° } Makoto Naegi (Danganronpa) | 🍥÷{ *·.*マコト.·*° }

I don't condone all aestetics I may reblog, including yandere.

As this is a personal blog, I will talk about a lot of person things. I will tag obvious triggers but vents in an of themselves will NOT be tagged.

I am plural(?) It's complicated. I am not a system and do not have DID/OSDD, but I will be posting about the people I talk to occasionally.

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I forget this blog exists sometimes...I wanna use it more. I'm thinking of also turning it into a sort of vent/personal space that isn't just about kinning. Dunno :0

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