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The sweetest thanks <3

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I have a porn addiction can you help me? I think I’m searching for connection

o no anon i'm sorry :'( idk if i can personally help u cus i dont know much about porn but i can share some things i kno about addiction in general ;..

i know that It Is possible to rewire your brain to a place where you can live without this, even if its a wretched process that takes immense will power & suffering, going thru that discomfort for a few months or a year or however long it takes is Way way better than spending the rest of your (im assuming long)Life shackled to /it/. and u already acknowledge u want to change, u see where it comes from in ur psyche, that takes SM strength that in itself is a huge part of the process so gj ^^

TBH st thats helped me a lot w my own addictions is reddit, the subreddits for various addictions r usually pretty sincere & u can make a burner acct to stay anonymous. i dont even post on them i jst go sometimes to read ppls stories & comments when im having moments of weakness. it has rly helped me w some stuff , i hope it cld help u find some feelings of connection too. sometimes those boards can be bleak but at least its real idk. Ur not alone tons of ppl going thru it.

ALSO!!!! Journaling!!! introspection & journaling & really getting to the bottom of your motivations, privately, is not only good for understanding yourself better it is also so cathartic.

i wish u the best anon, and i believe in ur strength to change your life & find the connectedness u seek in this world.. i understand how hard it is and i struggle too...Sometimes u have to learn to sit with the void and love the void instead of filling it with substance and distraction. i'm not even all the way there myself but its a journey worth trying. Sending u psychic strength x PMD9

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Miss PMD9 do u think humans are born self-interested?

hmm sort of :) bfore u incarnate i believe a soul is most likely living on the astral plane completely aware of the fact that we r all connected. but then as soon as ur born u forget everything and are suddenly confined to this tiny uncomfortable body u have hardly any control over, so U have to be self interested in order to survive & get to a point where u feel safe enough to start thinking outside urself. its interesting how EGO is a concept often thought of negatively amongtst 'spiritual' types but at certain points in life u may need to keep your ego Up just to [endure] something temporary that eventually ends up leading to your soul's progression. ego serves a purpose in this material plane u just dont want to b so swallowed up by it that u lose track of ur higher self & connectedness of all humanity ^-^ use ego responsibly..

Sadly western society encourages ppl to remain self centered throughout life but i believe if the culture was different most ppl wld grow out of it very young. thx for the Q:) pmd9

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cute emochie

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started recording for the wall of thunder & it quickly turns to downpour💧💧💧(from yesterday)(ASMR)

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somewhere a group of weird little girls is accidentally practicing a ritual that got forgotten 3000 years ago. brings me peace 

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bouquet of clumsy words🩶a simple melody🩶this world's an ugly place .. but ur so beautiful to mee🩶

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abyssmal

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being 30 years old means i finally understand the purpose of the "Queue" feature

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gm thimblr 🐐

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its 1:44 why am i hyper

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I'm normal. In the club dressed formal.

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how have things been 4 you ? if you dont mind me asking of course !! i also wanted 2 say i love listening 2 your music on soundcloud hehehe

U are kind and angel🥲🩷 things have been....bizarre .. and there's so much happening its taking a lot of time to process. i feel prett y chill and accepting tho. there's a lot of stuff i been able to let go of under these conditions. how about you?:] and thanku for listening im rly trying hard to work up courage to release the music i made over winter i recently realized i been holding back cus its so personal i dnt usually reveal myself that way 😷 its FreakYyYy i'll get there tho i trust my sense of timing. Thanksyou for still enjoying the old tracks tho that inspires me🎵🎵🎵 Once im done draining ill getback to work 🪷 Cheers x

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do u happen to know what sorts of astrology things are happening atm im trying to figure out y i feel poisoned and abandoned >_<

DUDE idk what it is about this day specifically but so many people i know had a really abnormally bad day. i'm thinking it has some connection to mercury stationing direct right ON the north node in aries that happened today ? because aries is ruled by mars & rn mars is in pisces getting really close to neptune. so all the bodies transiting aries rn (mercury NN venus chiron) are kind of being inhibited by a fog.. and mars conjunct neptune in itself is intense, it's a real dissolve of certain karmic contracts since neptune is getting ready to leave pisces this is the last time we'll ever see them conjunct in pisces, in our lifetimes. we're also still under a jupiter uranus conjunction which only happens once every 12-14 yrs, and the last time it happened in taurus was 1941. so there's that.. we're just barely coming out of eclipse season, merc retrograde too it's just been relentless. that whole aries season w/ mars in pisces, was not my fuckening cup of tea..

but hey we got some nice stuff coming up, in a few days venus enters taurus & mars enters aries, so they'll be in their home signs & WAYY more supported. mercury is direct again too. if life been feeling like u been trying to drive w the brakes on, all this shld help to lift some tension away. defnitely pay attention to what's calling u to surrender during these next few days w the mars/neptune merge. definitely rest a lot!! cus things are about to accelerate in May. defnitely look into the pisces/aries/taurus areas of ur own chart for more specific clues. Good luck, 2012-chan, stay safe out there... <3PMD9