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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't think anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

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I ghostwrite booktok romance crap and I once asked the manager the why hockey question, since every single genre we write has hockey stories, including sci-fi and fantasy stuff. Apparently there was one really good(?) romance novel that revolved around a hockey player, and tiktok girlies like to read the exact same story with names changed over and over. So because one book did it well one time, everyone writes hockey. And it never fails. We also tried football and soccer and it went nowhere. Only hockey forever.

that's so funny also what's it like being a booktok ghostwriter?

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everyone get unemployed. i will provide for us.

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what super expensive indulgence would u get for urself if u suddenly came into a bunch of money?? assume all bills/mortgages paid, all friends helped: what treat are u buying just for u?? for me it would be a quilted lambskin chanel bag in iridescent pink

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enjoying a character is so embarassing like ugh yes i do want to buy this thing that has him on it. just because it has him on it. what next. a fucking shrine? get real.

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sigh i love you dogs

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bitches have complicated feelings about me due to my inconsistent swag

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id die for the internet archive over my country

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what else was peewee herman supposed to do in that porno theater

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Would you rather have a Phineas and Ferb summer or a Gravity Falls summer?

would you rather have endless fun forever or have satan attack you every day

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i do not believe in labubus or their cause

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Star Wars immunization promotional poster, 1979

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yellow and white birds please?

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Computer. Iris by the goo goo dolls. Loud enough to kill.