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i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love. i am punished by love.

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they are BOYFRIENDS, your honor

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XI - Annihilation

@silkenweinberg

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Photography: “A Palestinian demonstrator sews a Palestinian Liberation Organization flag before a protest during the first Intifada”, February, 1988. Photography: Patrick Robert

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How can we help 😔

Gaza Funds

Donate if you can. Spread this if you can't. Direct support to these families is the best thing we can do right now.

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the stares, the caresses, the smiles

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touch starved

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the hand placement.

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CRAZYYYYYY

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every single day just thinking of them alive

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seoknen

ada yang menunggu di bawah hujan waktu itu, seperti waktu lain sebelumnya, seperti cerita lainnya dengan menunggu hujan juga. entah mengapa fates suka sekali dengan hujan. dan kali ini ada sepasang di tengah hujan. di bawah payung yang menyelamatkan mereka dari basahnya air menyentuh baju. padahal tidak apa begitu, bukannya fates juga yang mau. "deketan sini biar gak kebasahan."

"kenapa harus gue?"

"karena gue yang punya payung, jadi kalo gak mau kebasahan mending deketan sini." wonbin waktu itu juga ingin menolak tapi apa daya sekarang hujan dan situasi seperti ini, ia harus apa, kalau tidak bajunya akan kuyup. "wonbin."

"astaga, iya. jangan deket banget, seok."

"gue pake sendiri aja."

"padahal gue bisa neduh sendirian." gumam wonbin, yang pasti eunseok dengar juga dengan keluh kesahnya. tapi ia tidak masalah juga pulang menuju parkiran dengan satu payung di atas kepalanya bersama eunseok. pria itu...

"romantis tau satu payung berdua."

"—tapi gak sama lo." potong wonbin, sebelum pria itu melanjutkan kalimat aneh lainnya. apalah soal dunia dan romannya, memang situasi seperti ini dua manusia harus romantis? memangnya kalau terjebak saat hujan dan satu payung bersama dengan orang asing mesti romantis? memangnya wonbin harus merasakan itu, apalagi bersama eunseok? memangnya pria itu bisa romantis? persetan dengan nasibnya sore ini. dan mengapa parkiran jauh sekali saat satu payung bersama dengan hujan begini.

"enak aja, sama gue juga bisa romantis. mau coba?"

"hah?" entah eunseok yang menantanginya atau pria itu memberikan opsi untuk melakukan hal romantis di bawah payung dan sedang hujan. "gue kuyup, jangan aneh-aneh."

"gue cuma ngasih tau..."

"lo—"

"apa?"

"nggak jadi."

"apa wonbin?" eunseok yang menggenggam lengannya atau payung yang pria itu punya memang kecil tidak akan cukup untuk dua orang bersama. atau sekarang wajah eunseok yang mendekat hampir menyentuh pipinya. benar-benar perjalanan ke parkiran mengapa semakin jauh.

"apa?" bodohnya wonbin yang menengok dan bertemu ketampanan eunseok dicampur kerlingan tengil yang memberikan sinyal aneh mengocok isi perutnya. begini memang dinamakan romantis? wonbin tidak pernah merasakan seperti itu.

kalau yang fates bilang kalau sejoli bisa romantis di bawah hujan seperti cerita lainnya, mungkin saja.

"pipi lo merah, wonbin." sama juga seperti bibir eunseok yang empuk begitu wonbin memejamkan matanya dan membawa tubuhnya ikut turut serta hanyut di bawah hujan. "well, gak taunya malah lo yang curi duluan."

"jalan..." apa yang ada di kepala wonbin dipastikan sama dengan eunseok, hanya saja pria itu bicara sedikit lebih banyak.

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my other half was you.

"you're kidding me right?"

"what? what do you mean?"

"you just said... something relate to soulmate... something like that."

"as you promise me to be stay by my side, meaning that you are my other half. yes, you are my soulmate." he's not even kidding, sohee never really been freaking serious about something but this different.

"and what if you lose your other half?"

"so what do you think would be if i lose you? we are one pair of shoes, if i am not with you i cannot change with another one. i am no longer funny because i'll miss the you laugh, i protect you. you are my achilles heel, seunghan-ah."

my other half was you.

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in the future we are still us. "what if,"

"in the future i will still waiting for you right by your side, in the future we're still looking the same sunsets wherever we are, in the future i'm gonna love you still, we're gonna have fun, more concerts to attend together. in the future we're still together, laughing about memes we used to talk to, asking you about dinner, maybe ramen or just ice cream because you like sweets. in the future i am still thinking about you, seunghan."

"i didn't finished—"

"but future ahead of us, but i still here stay with you, right by your side. thank you."

"you look sad."

"you look pretty. in the future we won't be a stranger because i will always know you no matter who you are. i love you too much that i can't bear myself not knowing you." maybe if the universe's with us, you still with them, seunghan.

"anyway, don't be stranger."

"remember us, seunghan."

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'In the end, the members gave me the strength to pull through.'