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Araw-araw masakit pa rin. Tangina. Kailangan kong labanan eh kasi sa pagkakataong to hindi mo na ko pinili.

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He gets to see my mistakes. He sees only his pain. He sees that I am tiresome. He does not see his mistakes. He does not see how hurt I am and that I am willing to love him again despite all of it. He does not see all the mistakes he did to me. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically. And this is where I will start to move on. This is where I will leave you. Because a love which continues to forgive and understand you is the love you don't deserve.

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I am ending my hopes to you on the day I first had it. One year. Exactly one year. And now I am done.

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I swear, you will lose me this night.

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And you did not choose me.

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I got the wrong guy all along.

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I wanted words but all i heard was nothing 🎵🎶

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Silly, silly girl

No, you do not deserve that.

You do not deserve someone who does not love you wholly. No, silly, silly girl, you do not deserve someone who loves you partially. You do not deserve someone who seemingly loves you entirely by words and loves you halfway through actions. Should the love is partial, trust me, it is not love.

You do not deserve someone who seemingly ignores the fact that you are struggling mentally. Likewise, you do not deserve someone who actuates episodes of your mental illness. Should the person loves you genuinely, you will see an effort from the person to being sensitive enough–heard and seen through words and actions. Should the person is not initiating an effort to lessen the burden you feel, silly, silly girl, leave.

You do not deserve someone who lets you sleep at night while you drown in doubts and uncertainties from that person. You do not deserve someone who makes you feel uninteresting. Should the person is apparently starting to get interested to someone else, run! Silly, silly girl, believe what you see and not what you hear.

You do not deserve someone who does not value the chances you give. You give one chance, you give the second chance, you give another, you give the last chance, and you give the last, last chance. What a bummer! He did it again. So you give your soul, your strength, your courage, and your will because there is nothing left to give. You are such a silly, silly girl.

You do not deserve someone who does not acknowledge their own mistakes. You do not deserve someone who forgets all the the pieces of yourself that you sacrificed and all the million chances that you gave away freebies just because the person cannot handle you with your self-issues. Can’t you see, silly, silly girl? He does not recognize his own self-issues–the ones I mentioned above and the ones you both keep as a secret.

Silly, silly girl, never apologize for struggling with your self-issues.

Silly, silly girl, you deserve someone better.

Silly, silly girl, he does not love you.

Silly, silly girl, can you stop loving him now?

Silly, silly girl, you are dumb as fuck.

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Will you struggle with me?

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You made me the saddest person alive.

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How do i unlove you?

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Last good night message

You made me love in the most inexplicable and sporadic way. I love you and I hate you both at the same time. There's no thin line between those. l did not expect you to this to me. I thought your love can go beyond the waters and winds of my storm. I thought I will never experience waking up and feeling my body, mind, and soul all paralyzed. It was a whole year of ups and downs. It was just a year, but, i swear, it wrecked all my senses and all my consciousness down. Do not get me wrong; I do not disregard all the times you made it to the eye of my storm. I do not forget the times you endured my rage because of my self-issues. Should I blame the timing then? That we met at the time when the skies and the stars and the moon do not align for us? Should I blame you then? For the times you told me you love me constantly when I was feeling it all differently? When I was seeing every love and interest from you deteriorate before my eyes? When I am seeing you getting all interested with another girl while staying committed to me? Love, your inconsistency killed the insides of me. And, love, my love for you stayed the same.

But you told me you love me and I feel otherwise. You told me you are as interested to me as before even if I feel otherwise. That’s the worst thing you did to me, love. You made me believe all the words from your mouth, and you do otherwise. You made my hopes all hyped then drag it down in front of my face. What’s worse than that is after all those dragging down and all those faking and lying, at the end of the day, I still find my self loving you in every way.

For some reasons, you stopped sending me long good night messages. Your eyes stopped dazzling as you look at me. You stopped writing me letters through your typewriter. You stopped mentioning and telling to all the worlds through you social networking accounts how I made you feel surreal when we see each other or even on the simplest things I do. You stopped looking at my pictures and wondering how you get me to love someone like you. There was also a time when you stopped talking to me. There were no stories to share. You stopped kissing me with trembling hands and a fast-beating heart.You stopped getting all too excited to see me. You stopped picking me up at PNU. You stopped telling me how much you love me so much while I sleep on your lap at Luneta. I stopped hearing the sincerity and the bliss from your i love yous. You started getting interested with another girl. And no matter how much I say that it hurts me to death to see you converse with her to the point where I had episodes of depression,you still continue it anyway. That is why I cannot remind you of the things you are doing to me before so that you can do it again to me because those are the things you did unknowingly and naturally when you still love me wholly and genuinely. There were a lot of things you stopped doing, and you didn’t stop all at once. You stoped doing those things one by one, which killed every piece and hope in me one by one, too.

I’m tired of getting all mad at you. I’m tired of the doubts and uncertainties you give me which kept me up all night. Im tired of cursing you and telling you how you are the worst person I met when it doesn’t change a thing-you’re still that guy who stopped loving me hard enough.. who stopped loving me deep enough. Nothing will change. There is not a thing I could do to change you and your ways. There is no dress I could wear to lure you and get you so madly in love with me again. There is no makeup I could wear that can make you look at me the same way you did during our first months of dating. I realized, this is not something I can control. It’s your job. And your actions are telling me all the truth: you have fallen out of love.

Should I blame you? Should I blame myself? What does blaming even do to make this better? Nothing. That’s why i want to apologize to you. For all the money you spent on me to pick me up at school, to eat with me, to drop me off the condo or the school. For all the sleepless nights you have when you still loved me the most. For all the hurtful words which kept you up all night and lowered your self-esteem. For all the times you have to accompany me to coffee shops just so I could finish my requirements. For all the times you spent your whole night trying to explain and clarify things just so you can win me back. For all the times you helped me revise the papers I needed to pass. For all the times you got jealous and uncomfortable with the guys I talked to. I swear, I never liked and loved anybody else during our relationship. It was always you. I’m sincerely sorry.

And, love, I will be lying if I tell you that I don't want this relationship anymore because the truth is that I will always long for this relationship. Yes, we do have a lot of disagreements and quarrels, but, surely, I will never forget the surreal moments we had. I will always want you like I always do. I wil always love you like I always do. But, you are destroying everything in me-my hopes, strength, courage, will, myself, dreams. And, yes, we have to stop now. There’s no turning back and we’re also never going to get back to each other again. You see, you have inflicted so much pain in me that I cannot help but carry it unwantedly and constantly on my sleeves everyday because it’s just so much for me to carry inside my heart.

Let me leave you. Let me leave you. And for the last time, let me love you until my heart ran out of love to give to you the way your heart did.

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I love you

The last time I heard you on the phone, you didn’t say those three words, and right then, I knew that you stopped denying what I accuse you of. Right there, I knew that you are acknowledging the fact that you ran out of love to give to me. And, now, I am torn. Tell me which is worse? The absence of those three words? Or the presence of a lie between those three words?

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Mom, my heart just died.

This is what my mom is telling me every afternoon she sees me. "Ang panget mo na! Natutulog ka pa ba?! Namumugto na naman mata mo! Ano bang iniiyak mo! Ang payat mo na!" Mom, just grieve with me. My heart just died.

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How to sleep with a brokenheart?

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Your shitty mistake

Have you ever wondered how easy it is for girls to generalize a single trait of a guy to all the guys-dead and alive-here on earth? Well, I guess, that is because she felt like he was the only one.

When she loved him, it felt like he is the only man breathing on earth. She didn’t notice the handsome football player who passed by about 5 seconds ago. Or the smartest guy in her class whom all the girls adore. Or the funny guy who admires her secretly and just always makes her laugh.

But there is just this guy whom after she solely loved, still, knocked her soul and heart out of her body. It is only then that everything is actually making sense. She disregarded all other men that could’ve possibly taken the position of that there-is-no-one-else-i-see-but-you guy. And so when he made the shittiest mistake to her, she clumsily thought, “Pare-pareho naman lahat ng lalaki,” which I thought is seemingly valid.