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days went by so fast so dump ulit hehehe

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buhay pa me

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always matching ✨

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More dump from May kasi akala ko May pa din hahahaha

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MAY dump

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"where u at"

"alfamart. wala na tubig remember?"

"hala paakyat na ko"

"ay nako, lovey"

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always persisting to make honest deposits in life and keeping faith to this eager heart so then all else aligns. here's to finishing things we almost always dread and to coming home with even the smallest of wins everytime. ☀️

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never having a bad day with you

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so lucky i found the good ones ✨

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bago mafood coma hahahahaha

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one am shifts

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i like to think ive become a slow reader or im a bit more preoccupied lately, reasons why i always find the need to put this book down. Hundreds of pages in and the truth just comes flowing out, like waters from high places, and i can no longer deny that this character called marx reminds me so much of you, papa. he's the calm one, the mediator, always the one who takes care of important things when the others couldnt move– almost as if he's an npc. he lets everyone do whatever but never leaves them astray. he was also forcely taken away too soon.

i like to think of the times when im living away and ill get a random message from you asking me to come home. most times i couldnt go home because life was happening and i couldnt let you see the bruises. this time, im the one who messages you to come home. they never do get sent.

hahahaha im sorry for blaming you about the book, pa. there's just holes bleeding sober tonight. holes that do not widen but never really close. holes i will keep open if it means i will remember you. uwi ka na, papa.

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how is it already a month ago of being together but also was it really just a month ago?

thank you for taking part in realizing these tangible manifestations of my thoughts, emotions, and even the littlest of my dreams everyday. thank you for knowing the gentlest of my sighs and for keeping my turbulence at bay as if you do hear the voices who run them in my head. thank you for always taking care of me even when afar, for making me understand that distance is not a space meant to keep people away but is a space to long for each other, and for curtailing said distance that now i finally get to go home to you.

with me, you will never be an afterthought stowed away. all of it will be requitted as if it is my renagade and undoing. i rethink the world around me with pieces i take from you and it's a growing, ever-evolving complex of a world, everyday. like a flare, you keep this fireheart burning. thank you.

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thank you for coming to mnl

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i was caught a little off guard when you asked the reason as to why i love the song so much because how can i explain that.. it is you?

I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you

funny because as someone who is almost blind, my brain works best if it can relate to anything visually. imagine being so used to staring at such expense of time onto something and then looking back at it again before deconstructing it or even recognizing it. although it has never been the case with you. i just know it is you, almost as if a newly invented colour.

I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you

they said that we consume and that which we consume makes us and what makes us becomes our capacity to understand. when you came into my life, it is incomprehensible how everything just made sense. to be here took some years of relentless persevering and im glad it is you i bumped into.

I've been sleeping so long in a 20-year dark night

it is being sensitive to all points of tension, introspective and extrospective, accepting the necessity of change, if not almost magical, since the arrival of you.

And now I see daylight, I only see daylight

inherently, i find solace in the fact that, it had been you. it comes with the acceptance that there will be dull days or disillusion, even more days of eclectic discourses or topics that do not imbue any meaning. undertakings. dreams. i hope i get to spend my grandest and most mundane days with you. willfully, intentionally, and earnestly.

happy valentine's day, Kelvin.