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need this

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born to be the friendful visitor forced to toil in the Horrors

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(english butler voice) Will you be making an attempt on your life this evening, sir?

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Customer: THIS IS ME WHEN I VISIT MY FRIEND DMV: THE FRIENDFUL VISITOR

Verdict: DENIED

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godfeels update: B1 Chorus 3

we're back! godfeels 3.2 continues with B1 Chorus 3, where we learn a few things about a young Lenore Lehart

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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someone needs to invent a Horrors you can be saved from

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antwithabindle.com/careers

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hello pochapal! I hope you're doing well. I have a little bit of an odd request.

I'm writing a research paper for an Art History Methodologies class about how the visuals of Umineko's PS3 port support the themes of the VN-- especially the ways in which Umineko links cuteness/femininity to horror, and how that contributes to the novel's examination of girlhood/womanhood in a household like the Ushiromiyas', which blends Western and Japanese patriarchal values to create an uhhh Especially Unhealthy Environment for everyone involved.

All that to say: your Umineko liveread deeply inspired me to write this paper, and I love your insight into characters like Maria. Would you allow me to cite your blog posts as a source in the paper? Please don't feel pressured to say yes! Thanks for your time either way.

hey that sounds Really Super Cool!! citing my blog for like a legit research paper is a suuuper huge and humbling honor! also funny because a) this is just my silly liveblog and b) i am getting cited for Umineko Understanding when i'm like 5% into the story lmao. but yeah go ahead!

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all my tumor blood tests came back positive ^_^ looking almost certain that i have this one in a million fucked up medical condition ^_^

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The most embarrassing thing In my life is whenever I see people and they ask what I’ve been up to . Literally nothing ever . Im like ohh you know this and that …. The usual ..

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being a little kid was so funny bc you could literally just say somethint like “I think everybody should get along and share :-)” and all the adults in your life would go oh GODDDD STUUUPIIIIDD!!!!!!!! STUPID FUCKING KID ALERT!! Don’t uou know when you grow up you have to face the Government Mandated 100000 Wild boar Attack

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