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Maybe I’m just old but I didn’t know about the primary blog vs secondary one so if you really want to know more it’s duskys-mind-palace

Teto profile pic and purple aesthetic

Much better over there https://www.tumblr.com/duskys-mind-palace

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Feeling better lol just needed to eat sleep and exercise lnao

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Damn I kinda strongly dislike who I am

Im kinda sick of myself lol

I promise you I don’t complain all the time but this is kinda the place to do that so

I’ll try to fill it with positives too

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So anyways I downloaded tinder, updates d to come

I was super consistent with my skin care for like 3 months but for the last week I haven’t been doin it

I need to sleep it’s 1am and I have lab tomorrow :(

Stop overthinking, hopefully you won’t have any dreams about him

I know it’s because of the holidays that you are going through it what with his birthday, the anniversary, match-iversary, and Christmas traditions uGH

Just breathe please oh my god just

F if you see this please don’t say anything to me I was doing so good ok this is just a few days of me in a slump. I’ll get over it I don’t need to talk about it just journaling

I mean Im finally ok with being y myself/alone, I’ve accepted that I’ve lost a friend, lover, companion, I’m over not having his parents who I adored very much, what’s left is the bitterness and resentment

The problems we never fixed

And I guess the fact that he is in a seemingly happy relationship while I’m still pouting about it

Im actually really angry that he never took my feelings seriously

I hate his stupid hair that he grew out it looks terrible

He streams but his persona is so lame

He never communicated swept things under the rug

I hate that I was codependent for so long

This is actually really helping writing this down

I hate that I looked at his social media and his girl

Why do I keep thinking about it

Hopefully it will stop after I write this down

Anyways I’m gonna channel this energy into the gym so, which is nice because I was out of forbidden pre.

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Dedicate my life to the school, simlab, gym

For the next two years.

This is all I will think about

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Dude it’s so simple!!

If you don’t ever get into a relationship again (not that that’s hard lol) you will never be disappointed in that way again.

Aight you good. Dedicate your life to your work, lifting heavy af, and creating comics to tell your story.

Stay close to your select friends so that the “social meter” for your avatar is fulfilled enough but at the end of the day, dawg, it’s a 1P game

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Also I finally have skin/body/hair care stuff

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currently living without a constant weight dragging me down. I feel as though something is missing.

Maybe I am maturing as I get closer to 25. Idk I still feel like I’m in my early 20s, but also I feel like I’m 30 lol

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at the end of the day dude, he had an emotional affair and then gaslit you about it

Period

No need to off myself girly, things will work out

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i think if I’m still alone by 35, I’m gonna end it all

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just under a year and a half later, I’ve forgotten your touch.

I have forgotten how we feel together.

I’ve lost you forever

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Things I want at my wedding

Live painter

Photo Booth with Clicky click

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I think I am at that point where I do wanna call in love again. It took a lot to get here.

I want to fall as deeply in love as I did before. It’s such a pure and wholesome feeling.

It’s gotta be with the right person tho, there’s no rushing that. I know it will take time to develop too.

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despite everything, I do love you. Fuckin still. I’m sad we couldn’t work through our differences.

I hope I can one day meet someone who makes me feel that sparkle of love again. I do know I’ll still encounter differences but, it is what it is.

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Sayings I live by

Love is always conditional, any love that is unconditional is toxic

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Ok so

This is the last time I will ever get my nails done and they are not a full set

I feel like a fuxkikf baby!! Ah well gotta learn eventually, at least I learned before I got to NY 💀

Next time imma get short almond shaped with pink and red, and strawberries

Pretty!

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