pointlesssoul1

[pointlesssoul1]

i don't know what it was about you that keeps me stuck, maybe I'm just crazy, maybe I'm obsessed, I genuinely don't know

[pointlesssoul1]

i could never seem to give up on you

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I should've been better for you

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How is it that I still miss you. Everyday I miss you.

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never thought I'd still be here missing you

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Something happened. So in August a couple months after me and my past boyfriend broke up, I was talking to this new guy. He was funny, sweet, really weird (in the best way possible) but also soft. We were friends long before anything happened. But finally he asked me out on a date and of course I said yes. The date was amazing, we went to the aquarium and we sat in like in one of those bubbles where you can be under the fish tank for hours. And for those hours we just talked and enjoyed each other's company. It turns out this guy had liked me for years and I had just finally realized how amazing he was. He really was great, but I had to mess things up. I was still healing over my my past relationships while this was happening. It's not excuse but I was scared and overwhelmed. This new guy was (I assume) just so ready to do all of those relationship things with me and I wasn't. It was my fault. I ended things with him but he still continued to talk to me and try. He waited more. We went to a dance together and it was genuinely a great night. Of course I still had feelings for him and he told me he also had feelings for me. I really wanted things to work out trust me I did so I told him I wanted to take it slow. A month went by and we were talking still trying to go out. It was and has been difficult for me to want to go out often because I live with my grandparents and if I happened to get covid they would be compromised. I don't know if that was a problem for me and this guy's relationship but it might've been. But one day we just stopped talking. I tried again in December to fix things but it's like he changed so much. He also moved on which was fair. But the problem was he never told me he wanted to be with someone else. By the way we talked about things I thought that maybe he wanted to fix things too but then later found out he got into a relationship with a new girl so I left things there. I didn't and still don't want to intrude on them, he seems happy and she does too. I can't help but miss him though. I really do miss him so much. I would do anything to have him back. I know I messed things up too, and it was my fault. At points I definitely made it seem like I was leading him on and ignoring him and there is no excusing it. I was wrong for that and never apologized the way I should've for it. I've never told him in this detail either how much I love and miss him. I'm sorry. God I'm so sorry and I wish I was as telling you this instead of me posting about it on an app I barely even use anymore. I love to think that maybe one day we can fix things but I really think he is done with me and that's fair of him to do. I can't help but miss him but I really do hope he is happy.

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for the first time in a while. i looked at someone and just thought "I love you". the way your eyes shine, your laugh, the way you look up at me. god you're beautiful. I've never thought that before. I look at you and think "fuck you're the most beautiful person I've ever seen" it's confusing but I don't mind these feelings because goddamn I really like you.

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Just wanted to share this beautiful artwork

tumblr tuesday: some days, there’s an animal

We all know and love @1coweveryday​​. Well, here are some other blogs that produce some sort of animal at some point or other during a week or another specified (or not) measure of time.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

@1chickeneveryotherday​​!

@1kittieeveryday​​!

@1rateveryday​​!

@1puppyeveryday​​!

@1duckeveryday​​!

@1kitteneveryday​​!

@sometimestheressheep​​.

@1monstereveryday​​!

@1hamstereveryday​​!

@sometimestheresabear​​.

@1sealeveryday​​!

@1bunnyeveryotherday​​!

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i just love her… so much…