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1|100 Today, I join the ‘hundred days of productivity challenge’ as a motivator to proceed with my thesis. Quite a bunch of words to write today, but if I’ll tackle it, I can do everything!

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RANDOM ANGSTY SENTENCE STARTERS.

“I only want you.”

“You lied to me…”

“I fucking loved you.”

“Why didn’t we work?”

“I can’t keep doing this.”

“Fuck you. I trusted you.”

“I fucking fought for you.”

“I hate that I need you.”

“Please don’t leave me.”

“Just leave, okay? Just go.”

“You can’t fix it this time.”

“I wish I could let you go.”

“Are you sure about this? Us?”

“Will you ever trust me again?”

“Why wasn’t I enough for you?”

“How could you do that to me?”

“You’re not what I want anymore.”

“I love you, but the timing is wrong.”

“I’m not ready to throw us away yet.”

“I guess we’re done for good, then?”

“They’ll never love you the way I did.”

“You hurt me. I hope you know that.”

“I really wanna kiss you right now.”

“You never loved me the way I loved you.”

“I just wish you felt the same way about me.”

“We’ll never be able to make this work.”

“I wanna forget you, but I fucking can’t.”

“Do you even regret what you did to me?”

“You never gave a fuck about me, did you?”

“Please stop pretending like you care about me.”

“If you’re trying to make me jealous, it’s working.”

“Stop trying to talk to me. I don’t have anything to say to you.”

“Do you ever think about me? About us? About what we had?”

“Just say you don’t care about me, and I’ll leave you alone for good.”

“I don’t know how you sleep at night, knowing what you did to me!”

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I’ve been thinking about how, even though the main falling out is really between them, it’s odd that Arthur never does speak to Percy again on the page.  They DO make up, but it’s completely non-verbal on Arthur’s part.  Percy apologizes and Arthur goes to hug him, and later they fight a Death Eater together. 

 I have a problem with this, and it really goes beyond Arthur himself.

On the one hand Arthur is, like all Weasley males but one, allergic to his own emotions in that stubborn way where he is just not going to acknowledge them no matter how much pain the denial causes him or anyone else. But the fact that he and Percy never speak during the estrangement, not even when Percy comes to the house with Scrimgeour in HBP, is A Big Deal. We don’t know much about Percy’s emotional response to this silence–that he doesn’t come to the hospital after Arthur’s attack is not proof that he doesn’t feel anything–but not only does Arthur not talk to him, he doesn’t talk about him and other members of his family are afraid to mention Percy in his presence

This silence even encompasses the fight that led to Percy’s estrangement. We know that Arthur shouted at Percy, but we don’t know what he said because the purpose of Ron and the twins’ story is to villify Percy, not to be accurate.  This silence, and the remaining family members’ acquiesence to it, not only protects Arthur from his own feelings but from other people’s judgement, including the readers.’ And it is never broken.

It bothers me because Percy has to break his silence to apologize to Arthur, but Arthur gets to maintain his even as he, supposedly, forgives Percy. I want to be swept up in the beneficence and grace of that scene, but it’s a bit hard when I’m also thinking, “Cat got your tongue, Arthur?” Even Fred and George are trying new ways of relating to Percy after he admits he was wrong! I don’t even mean that Arthur needs to apologize too, but after years of complete and devastating silence he can’t even put forth the effort to say anything? 

This reread was not kind at all to my view of Mr. Weasley, but this issue isn’t all his fault.  That he never breaks his silence towards Percy for the reader to see–I don’t mean to suggest that he actually never speaks to him again–implies that there was nothing wrong with it to begin with.  And there is so much wrong with it; to begin with, how hard is it going to be for Percy to reintegrate into a family where no one has talked about him for three years?

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characters who crave affection but at the same time have no idea how to respond to actually receiving it due to the fact theyve rarely ever experienced it are my absolute favourite

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reply  speed   ≠   my  interest  in  our  thread  /  plot  /  or  you,  in  general.

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               “Voldemort.” Regulus sighed. “That cock.”

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“I’d never let anyone else talk shit about you. Only I can.” / dragntamed

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 || 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠

     “ well …  THAT’S nice , charlie. thank you for that. of course , I would prefer NOBODY went out of their way to insult me , but that seems far - fetched now , doesn’t it ? ”

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𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 :

❛    Oh,  I’M   the   stupid   one   ??   You   do   realize   that   more   accidents   happen   on   the   ground   than   off   them   ,    right  ??   ❜

     “ oh , falling - to - the - ground - and - dying accidents , oliver ?? that’s likely ! ”

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WHEN A CHARACTER GETS WOUNDED AND THEY GO TO THEIR LOVE INTEREST FOR HELP AND WHILE THEY’RE GETTING THEIR INJURIES CLEANED AND PATCHED UP THEY FLINCH FROM THE STING OF THE ANTISEPTIC AND THEIR LOVE INTEREST SAYS “HOLD STILL” IN AN EXASPERATED BUT TOUCHINGLY CONCERNED TONE OF VOICE AND THEN THEY ACCIDENTALLY MAKE EYE CONTACT OR BRUSH HANDS AND JUST FREEZE IN THAT POSITION UNTIL THE TENSION IN THE ROOM IS NEARLY UNBERABLE BEFORE BOTH LOOKING AWAY AND PRETENDING THE UNSPOKEN THING THAT JUST PASSED BETWEEN THEM NEVER HAPPENED

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@veelae​ ♥ this

     “ . . . ” a long sip of coffee. he had barely considered how awkward it was that he hadn’t spoken to his brother’s wife before they were married. then chose not to attend their wedding. “ er ––––– you performed well in the tournament. I was–– well , I was able to watch. pleasure to see you again. ”

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@quidbitch​ ♥ this

     “ I hear you made chaser. congratulations. not nervous for the gryffindor - ravenclaw game , are you ? ”

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𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 :

❛    SO   ,,, , , .   what   you’re   saying   is   that   you’re   a   wuss  ??  ❜

     “ no , are you STUPID ? you could die falling from those heights !! merlin’s BEARD ! ”

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hc + boggart form

     percy’s boggart is …  HIMSELF !! 

     obviously not just himself. his boggart is a much older , poorer , more unsuccessful percy. his clothes are torn , he has a scraggly red beard , and his eyes look hollow & sunken in. he tells his younger self of all the ways in which he’ll become a FAILURE.

     percy struggled quite a lot with ‘ riddikulus ’. he could never find a way to make that funny.

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@cursbroken ♥ this

     “ just because you’re the oldest doesn’t mean you can tell me what to do ! I am PERFECTLY CAPABLE !! ”

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@insuffercble ♥ this

     “ you ought to know , ron learns by DOING , not by having his work done for him. ”

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@ginivera ♥ this

     “ avoid the kitchen if you don’t care for another wretched joke shop debate. mum and fred are at each other’s throats. ”