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Happy 30th Birthday to me.

I get married in 10 days. I thought the urge would be gone. It's been almost 5 years since I relapsed and sliced my wrists and thighs open. He threw away my blades. He took back ownership of the term "slut", he calls me it lovingly when he talks dirty to me. I have a service dog who won't let me lock myself in a bathroom alone lest I cave to temptation. He's nine and is training a little puppy to do what he does so that he can retire. I am surrounded by the same love I've always had around me and haven't felt since high school. I secretly berate myself for not ever loving again the way I did then. Am I capable of loving as freely as then? Is the scarring from @tassodar that permanent? My fiancé is my jasper stone, grounding and constant. He caresses my hair til I fall asleep and whispers the sweetest most heartfelt things I've ever heard. I'm thirty now. I'm a grown adult. I get married in 10 days and yet on quiet nights when the overthinking hits, I still want to hold my blades and try to escape my flesh.

Happy 30th Birthday to me.

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animals in armour

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Friday The 13th (1980)

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A supervillain unleashes a disease on the world in order to weaken his enemies and monopolize the cure. But his team of goons didn't test it on women. The unaffected female hero(es) confront him and the fight devolves into a conversation about lack of female representation in medical testing.

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do you ever think about dead versions of yourself that are fossilized in someone else's mind

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An eldritch horror beyond comprehension arrives in the mortal realm to drive humans insane with its incomprehensibility. It's rather annoyed to find that most humans aren't being driven insane by its incomprehensibility due to most of them accepting there are things they don't understand.

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You belong with me. 💚💛💜❤️🩵🖤

Letter on my site :)

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What is your biggest sexual fantasy?

Probably to be eaten out while reading something spicy. Or even have what I'm reading about happening to me simultaneously.

But I'm still a virgin so that's the best I got right now. Maybe after I get married I'll have a better idea of what that would be.

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heyyy

Idk how long ago this was but hey as well my dude

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“Public libraries are such important, lovely places!” Yes but do you GO there. Do you STUDY there. Do you meet friends and get coffee there. Do you borrow the FREE, ZERO SUBSCRIPTION, ZERO TRACKING books, audiobooks, ebooks, and films. Have you checked out their events and schemes. Do you sign up for the low cost courses in ASL or knitting or programming or writing your CV that they probably run. Do you know they probably have myriad of schemes to help low income families. Do you hire their low cost rooms if you need them. Have you joined their social groups. Do you use the FREE COMPUTERS. Do you even know what your library is trying to offer you. Listen, the library shouldn’t just exist for you as a nice idea. That’s why more libraries shut every year

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This is mesmerizing to watch.

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I made these as a way to compile all the geographical vocabulary that I thought was useful and interesting for writers. Some descriptors share categories, and some are simplified, but for the most part everything is in its proper place. Not all the words are as useable as others, and some might take tricky wording to pull off, but I hope these prove useful to all you writers out there!

(save the images to zoom in on the pics)

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you’re not alone, someone else is reading this post at the same time as you