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Sir take off the hair from your mouth, please

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that guy from that show sure has done a number on me

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you can only regain your memories by touching/regaining ownership of the specific death note that you gave up, not any other ones (which is why misa doesn't get her memories back when rem reveals herself in the bathroom)

without ownership, touching the death note will still get you your memories back but only for the span of time you are in contact with it

you can only regain your memory up to 6 times per death note, after which the memories will not come back

CONCLUSION: If L had just bapped Light over the head with the Death Note in the helicopter six times,

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mihael keehl ⊹ ࣪ ˖

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maybe light hates mello because he blames him for the death of his father but i don’t think so. I don’t think light blames anyone for his fathers death except from maybe soichiro himself (not in a malicious way. more like an exasperated, disappointed way.). i think he hates mello so much because he broke the rules. With light and L, they had a kind of unspoken agreement: push for shove. They would make moves, strategise, think circles around each other in equal time. They had a kind of harmony there. then in comes mello, unannounced, not giving light any time to think things through. He doesnt want to entertain himself or light. He just wants to get this case solved (and prove to near it was him that did it first). And i think that makes light angry, because even when he was the prime suspect under L he was still being catered to, mentally at least. Mello pulled out the missiles and light went thats not fair like the petulant child he is

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positive affirmations (mello’s daily ritual)

Mihael Keehl, you are the baddest bitch the mafia has ever seen.

Mello struck a cunty little pose and flipped his hair.

Near WISHES he was half as sexy as Mihael Keehl.

He picked up his cross necklace and clasped it behind his neck.

The only reason L didn’t pick ME, Mihael Keehl, to be his successor is cause he never saw me in person. If he’d seen me the charisma would’ve been overwhelming and he never would’ve thought about Near ever again. He would’ve gone “Ooh, Mello, it’s gotta be Mello!” and Mihael Keehl would’ve been the winner.

He bucked his belt and left the bathroom. The morning ritual was complete.

No one knew exactly how Kira’s powers worked. Obviously, he needed a name to kill. But what sort of name?

If aliases worked, L would’ve been fucked in the ass the second Kira ever saw his face.

(L had probably gotten fucked in the ass anyway but that was neither here nor there.)

(Both metaphorically and literally.)

So it couldn’t just be the name people called you. It had to be some sort of “real” name, a “true” name.

What the hell did it mean to have a true name?

Wammy’s house hinged on the principle that you couldn’t trust anyone at all, except for yourself. And so they had to use the names Roger gave them. But living under a fake name was dangerous. Spend too long with everyone calling you Mello and you stop thinking of Mello as a stupid pseudonym. You become Mello.

And that was why Mihael Keehl had to remind himself who he was every single morning.

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mello's iconic "the old world's runner-up, the best dresser that died like a dog" is in japanese

僕は旧世紀のかませ犬、犬死にのベストドレッサー

1. notably the literal translation of かませ犬 (runner-up) is underdog but as far as i can tell runner-up is actually the better translation because in english 'underdog' has heroic connotations; かませ犬 is quite literally just the weaker person in a fight. still i will mourn the extra dog imagery.

2. 犬死に (died like a dog) is actually so much worse than i thought. it doesn't just mean you die in misery and pain. here is the google-translated definition from the dictionary website i use

To die in a way that serves no purpose. To die uselessly. To die in vain.

he thought his death would be for nothing…………………………

3. also best dresser is just the actual literal katakana

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Mello the type of guy who would have an ant colony and he'd terrorize people who piss him off with these ants

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Mello

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AU where Sidoh gets cursed to live as a human and goes crawling back to Mello like a sad wet dog…

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mellos theme is heartbreaking. unlike L or Near he doesnt have a piano that etablishes his melody, its all carried by a guitar and a bass. but then the electronic boops come in and theyre so painfully not a part of the song, they dont come from him. theyre Near. and theyre in conversation with mello, theyre unfazed by the increasing aggression in his guitar, he abandons his somber melody for a screaming, peaking riff and its in agony breaking itself apart as the boops get more and more frequent, always saying the same dumb blooping beeps, unaffected as always, and mello calms down and settles down for his end. KILL ME.

and then mellos theme B comes in and fucks your mom. its so good its so wild and powerful. death notes second half deserved to be 2 full seasons.

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Obviously everyone can do whatever they want and enjoy Death Note however they want to with whatever headcanons, and i can always scroll if i really don't like them....

That being said, as a certified Watari hater it drives me a little crazy when i come across posts from people who interpret their relationship as like a sweet father/son or grandfather/grandson type relationship. Although I do imagine Watari would benefit from L and the other kids viewing him that way since they'd be easier for him to control and manipulate.

That filthy rich old man did not "adopt and raise L" or "help" any of the other children out of the goodness of his heart. He wanted tools to solve crimes. His only intention was grooming those children- who were already probably pretty traumatized when they showed up in his care, since it is an orphanage after all- into becoming those perfect tools. I'm not even going to say detectives because that would imply that it's a job. It is not their 'job'. It's all they are.

The only thing those children were ever intended to be, from the moment Watari got ahold of them, was used. Not loved. Not raised into functional humans. Used as tools. Even after kids started killing themselves due to not living up to his expectations, even after one of them became a serial killer themselves, he STILL didn't change anything. He is not someone's cute grandpa, he's a disgusting, entitled, rich old man.

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‘The most difficult part about killing someone? Killing someone.’

There are so many great lines from LA:BB that I will never ever get over but i think this one is my favourite for a few reasons- this is said about halfway through the book in the narration, clearly meant to be foreshadowing that Beyond will in fact not be able to kill himself at the end, because as the passage later says, ‘humans are not designed to die that easily’. Naomi stops him, and he is later killed by Kira. 

But I miss my old english lit class, so i also want to talk about how there are two other main things I read from this line that make me love it so much:

These words are said in the narration as explicitly Mello. The style is the same as he uses in the introduction, he addresses the reader (who he imagines is either Near or Kira), and generally he mentions things that would only make sense outside the context of the narrative. The way he discusses killing someone, as a character we know for a fact  beheaded someone as a 17 year old, is so interesting. I feel like he’s talking from experience, you know? Like that one line is Mello slipping something personal into the text. It feels very vulnerable. He’s admitting that it wasn’t actually easy to kill however many people he did, no matter his attitude at the time; it had a physical toll, and i’d 100% say a mental one on him too. Which also leads me into point number two:

He’s basically mocking Kira with it. He clearly wrote LA:BB at some point after the explosion, so he knows all about the death note and how exactly Kira’s been operating. And Mello’s calling him weak with this line, I think. He’s implying that if Kira had to actually kill someone, in person, he wouldn’t be able to do it-which is again something Mello actually has over him here. It’s essentially ‘the most difficult part of killing someone is actually doing it, and Kira can’t even do that without his cheat code. But everyone reading this knows that I could.’ And i love it.