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*with a dark and evil aura surrounding me* I'm shy

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i dont get how people get friends as adults. tired of crying alone when i could go to a friends place, eat ice cream and watch a movie

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uh just going to shout into a void and rant a little about personal stuff

Like where I live health care is generally one of the best you can find and usually its also cheap but because all is shit everywhere it affects our system too

and im tired, like super tired since they found a strange mass from my ovaries a month ago and I have no money to go to private clinic more than once a year so they had to transfer me to public healthcare and they havent been calling me back. I've called and asked a few times how long will this take and what is going on and I get no answer.

And it's been a month???? Like I get it, most of the tumors found from ovaries are benign, especially from young people, but waiting for over a month without any information about whats next, not even how long it will take for them to get back to me, feels like an eternity.

Mind me, when I was younger, like 10 years back, I could just walk in urgent care and they would hear what's wrong with me and it would cost like 15 euros. Now when I call they call me back in a week. I know that if things are very urgent there is always the emergency number but I never know when things are serious enough for that. I mean this isnt a situation like that but I've had those moments and I'm just lost haha.

And all this waiting causes so much stress in my body. Like I have symptoms I had in 2012 when I went through a very traumatic event. My brain is foggy and my ears are ringing and i can't sleep because my ears are ringing. Like this is easily one of my most horrible anxiety symptoms (likely because i used to have this after the traumatic event and only that time it has been as bad as it is now).

I would very much like to know if im dying or not. I know I'm probably going to have a surgery. I'd like to know when that is. I'm trying to plan a trip to meet my sister in another country. I also have to finish my thesis this spring. So much going on but I can't do anything 'cause my mind is stuck in this anxiety and waiting.

What the hell people do in situations like this? I wish I had money so I could just go to a clinic and book a surgery for like next week. This waiting is HORRIBLE

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

1x01 || 3x13

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Fucked up deer - Hannibal behind the scenes

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My verdict after watching all 3 seasons in 3 days

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Paint the Town Blue // Blisters and Bedrock // Dirt Under Your Nails

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i love to learn. unfortunately my brain doesn’t like to remember

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please can someone finish my masters thesis for me

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Pokéball Still Life

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HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE (2004) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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prettybadco

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“you’re a scary lady” suuuuure

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it took me two whole weeks to create this illustration... do you think it was worth it? 😂 a small tribute to the finale of the second act of arcane and one of my favorite scenes from the series. even now, i feel like crying every time i rewatch that final scene.. poor isha 🥺

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Young-mi-ah! (Happy)

(in another universe, they're happy together)