This. Yes to all of this. To think that we are close to the 3 years mark, it's insane. My keenler wound will never heal completely. No one will ever be able to fill the void they left.
I never thought I’d do this, posting keenler in 2024 but here I am.
In my whole fandom life, I’ve experienced some really painful stuff. But Keenler was the biggest heartbreak I’ve ever had to face in this hobby. I know people outside these bubbles can’t understand but we do. The love, the energy, the emotions I poured into this, the pure devotion; I’ve never given as much of myself to something before them. Content creation for this fandom was second nature, loving this ship felt like breathing. Woven into my life in a way only you guys can understand.
In roughly 2 months, it’ll be 3 years since it all broke down. But if we’re honest, we knew it was falling apart in the months leading up to it already – we just didn’t know it’d be *this* bad.
Keenler, you will forever be my once in a lifetime. Thank you for one of the greatest times I’ve got to have so far. Thank you for connecting me to so many people on such a deep level. Thank you for being my greatest comfort during tough times.
You are what fueled my passion for editing and creating. Wherever I go, whatever I create – there will always be a part of you in it.
I will never forget the day it finally came crashing down on us. I’ll never forget June 23. I’ll never forget the pain that made us feel like there was no breathing anymore. How everything we poured into this, for years, was trashed and our unbound loyalty betrayed in the worst way a fandom can imagine. How they acted as if we, the support that made them big, had never existed.
It took me weeks to be able to look at anything fandom hobby related again. It took me months to try to edit again (and failed). Loosing keenler had made me numb in a way that made creating impossible, while before, creating was where I felt the strongest emotions ever. I truly thought I had lost the hobby I loved so dearly. It took me 8 months in total until I could somehow continue it. It was a long process with many ups and downs but today, 3 years later, I am incredibly grateful to not have given up on it. While there were multiple factors at play, I must owe most of it to rollisi.
So thank you, sonnshine and georgia peach. I cannot put into words how thankful I am.
having a keenler breakdown felt just going back to the tbl days also known as the good old days 😭 (well from 1x01 to 8x21 that is); @resslawx you can always count me in for keenler breakdowns.
Have you looked at my life? I’m a widow and a single mom. A marionette. With a high functioning sociopath pulling my strings. My grandfather tried to murder my mother. And my mother is a legendarily lethal Russian spy.. who moved in next door without even telling me who she really was. I mean it, have you looked at my life? I mean, really taken a close look.