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prettyuglydrug · 10 months ago

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Porcelain heart, Pt.2

Y/n thought of making a good first impression on her must be official interaction with the boy, she didn't want to run away again, she wanted to greet him but she must first think of that good impression. Ran a little background check and analysis, maybe stalk a bit but not in a creepy way, but in a way she could find out what type of girls he's into, and how she could maybe adjust to it. So many idea and imagination cross her mind, like how his reaction- and how he would stunt at her charms and beauty, her alluring feminine energy that she could only dream of pulling off, though she never really was able to be in her womanly sensual energy intentionally. All this daydreaming while looking at just the back of his head, y/n hadn't really notice someone is starting to take notice of her presence. The braid guy had seen y/n standing from the beginning but it was no concern since from his point of view, she was just another student chilling around the corner until it gets really odd how long she been staring at them. In the most subtle way, he tilt his head to take a better look at the girl that seemed to be dropping her ears to their conversation, though in truth, y/n could only hear her own thoughts. He couldn't really understand it, y/n has been standing there for quite a while and it's only strange to why a girl would stare so intensely at the back his leader's head. Unless, unless if she was interested. With the look in y/n's eyes, like she was hypnotized, completely unable to look away, the braid guy could only come with one conclusion. He smirk, that's when y/n realizes he saw her presence, and when she starts questioning how long has she been looking like a fool? and the way y/n standing is like an NPC character, it was so awkward with her legs slightly apart and her hand on the side spread in the same length. And he notices her in this, this awkward-not-feminine way of standing, she was very convinced she look like a fool. The braid guy chuckled before he start muttering something. That's when y/n's heartbeat stop dancing to its beat, instead, it starts to beat rapidly like she's back to throwing out her heart again. Whatever that braid guy said, it must've been something funny, because his other friends- the glasses guy immediately lean to the side to take a look at her. Those grin was wide enough to form a frown on y/n's face, y/n isn't sure if its just her anxiety but that grin looked very much like an indication of mockery, or a tease. The situation starts to freak her out more when he too start to mutter something as well, and she knew there's just the 3 of them. She know to who is he talking to. Whatever they say, that will be y/n greatest wonder and the beginning of endless overthinking, because that made the boy turned around. He turn around, and saw y/n. Standing there, frozen in that awkward idle. His eyes,.. oh his eyes are still so beautiful and mesmerizing. Except, they were cold. No, it was his gaze, he looks at her again but his gaze has changed, after these many years, why was she thinking it's gonna be the same? Everybody change, only her, only she stays the way she is now because she was sheltered and hardly experience any hardship & challenge in life. Oh, those gaze were never the same as they were back then. 'What now?' she thought. If she ran that would give out the clue but if she walk away... if she walk away, it be a little awkward, no, Very, awkward. Y/n didn't know why, but that seems a lot better than letting him know how she feel about him, or letting him assume what she feel about him. To be truthful, she doesn't even know what she felt for him, its way too early to tell and she needs more time to collect her thoughts before she could confirm it herself. The urge to cry and breakdown for an unknown reason is at its peak.

Y/n turned around, and start walking a way. Whatever they wanna think, they think. She care but she doesn't want to care about it right now, she just wanted to walk away. After 4 steps, y/n didn't know which one of the guy but someone was shouting at her. "Little girl, wait!" (fyi: i was referring to her physical, little as in size, not an actual little girl/child) Y/n ran as fast she could, why, she ended up doing both, walking and running away. She knew they wouldn't chase her so she only make sure that they lose track of which way she goes. Its really funny, cause in the end, they still in the same school, going to the same school. She will saw them at one point and so were they. Y/n look down on the floor as she wipe her tears, her tears that managed to escape her beautiful eyes. She was sensitive, and a bit dramatic too, all because it was embarrassing. But mostly frustrated that it doesn't go her way. It was supposed to be perfect, and romantic maybe. But the conclusion it was no good impression. After a lot of years, she never thought she be the one to ruin her own chance of getting to know him. With how awkward things turns out, y/n became unsure if she could ever try to speak to him. But that is only on her side of the story, and how she view it but she'll never know how the boys seen it. And mostly, what were they saying about her to make the boy turned around just look at her? Y/n went back to class as soon as the bell rang.

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prettyuglydrug · 10 months ago

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request: i've seen the post, i came from ao3 and instagram

i've send the details of the female lead appearance and her interest + personality etc, but i like for you to label her as y/n because i want it to be for other girls as well (that are similar to the female lead because i request/wrote her for being feminine and not the fighting in a gang type). a childhood crush or/to highschool crush would be nice, as for the trope, anything that work with these above.

if it isn't too much, i like for her to be not the popular or cool or mysterious type, please just a normal girl that just start highschool.

maybe a little bit common and not too much of a main-character vibe (but don't get rid of all, she still needs it in her -mc energy). i think it be interesting to see a stand-by (npc) type of girl but in a pov of a readers with plot but not as a side story.

thank you very much for taking request, i'm looking forward to it thankkyuuuu <33

Taking request, from Anonymous

Title: Porcelain Heart, Part 1

"Mrs Kurokawa,.. Kurokawa y/n, sounds nice..."

A little bit of introduction, L/n Y/n is a girl standing X'X in one sock and has a big doll eyes and a small frame. A petite girl with an extremely feminine features, she was and has always been quite popular but because of her shy demeanor, she was only known for her face rather than her personality. Her circle is small and its all really just her appearance, she wasn't the 'cool' type of popular, but still, known. But that changes when she enters highschool, she was just another face and nothing really special about her because at this age, a natural and more mature-looking woman look is more desired among teenage(highschool) boys. Though the adults seems to like the opposite, which y/n find quite...strange, or rather disturbing. All the other girls are beautiful, she supposed it was puberty and the glow up trend, there's a lot that are more shockingly beautiful than her. So many girls and she's no longer one of a kind. At least that is what she thought.

She had the same interest just as when she was a little girl, still like dolls and tea party, but of course, now that she's a bit older, she still plays with dolls but it leans more towards collecting and baking and have a nice evening. She pick up a new interest that every girls would when they turn the age, that is makeup and fashion. But out of all that, one thing she hasn't experienced yet is love. Teenage love, True love, Platonic love or anything that has to do with that. She was never interested in any boys, yet she has so much love to give and many that are willing to receive as well but they're just not....'him'. And by 'him', y/n meant whoever that God has destined for her. She knew fate will bring him to her, because she is, and has always been religious. But even though she never experience a romantic relationship, she believes in love at first sight, because that was the only time she ever felt something for a boy. She couldn't differentiate what, or whether if she's feeling love or a genuine like, or maybe a connection to him. That, we took it back from the beginning.

7 years old Little Y/n is heading to the store to buy a milk, but the store she usually goes to was unfortunately close for a week due to a personal reason. She has to go to another store that was just a bit far from her home and the store she usually went to. That is when she saw the most beautiful boy. It was in the mid of winter and she was passing by an orphanage, she saw a uniquely beautiful boy there. His hair was white and his eyes are the color of lilac, his eyelashes are heavy like the snow. His tan complexion glow even through winter. The boy were playing with his friend, and why, she never thought he looked back at her. And his gaze, his eyes remind her of a sorrowful angel. Though he was smiling, maybe that's just the way his eyes look. But even so its beautiful. He just looked at her, and she couldn't keep her gaze anymore. Y/n turn around and ran, her heart is beating in an unusual pace from running like its the last day on earth, it felt almost like its coming out of her mouth or her chest. After that, she stopped coming to the usual store even after a week, she took the long road just to look at him but he never notices her after that. She was too shy to greet him and so. But one day, he disappeared. After a month of consistent effort, she never get his name nor does she know if he was still alive. And that was the first and the last time their eyes ever met.

Until today, here in the present, Y/n L/n, 16 years old girl and highschool has just begun. It was at the entrance, she was changing her shoes and happen to turn when someone open a shoe locker few boxes away from her. That, was again, a love at first sight. She knew, she just knew that was him. 9 years has passed and he popped out of nowhere, nothing romantic about the way she found him again, not like in the romantic books at all. But it was enough, she was grateful and almost break into tears. But he walk pass her like she was nothing, because she is, nothing. A few period has passed and she couldn't concentrate, all she had in mind is the questions regarding his personal information. 'the same school?' 'what year?' 'which class?' It goes on until recess. She went out to search for the boy, to see him again and more closer this time. She wanted to see his face and the excitement she felt in her chest, her heart beats but in a good way that is no longer like throwing up, but it felt like its dancing to its own beat. At the hallway, y/n stop her track as she came closer to the window and spotted him on the other side of the hallway. It was him, she couldn't see his face yet still, it was just the back of his head. He was talking with 2 of his friends, one was tall with a braid on while the other one was slightly shorter and has a round-frame glasses on. The boy that y/n searched for a long time is now back, even though he never knew her existence she thought it was better. There was nothing between them therefore she could make a good impression when she finally had the chance.

Present:

Y/n saw him, just the back of his head but even just that is sending thrills down her spine. What is this good feeling? it feels like excitement and fear all together. How she wanted to look into his eyes again, she wanted to see his face but she doesn't want him to turn around and saw her.. looking at him from here. 'That be embarassing', she thought.

Little did she know that is what about to happen because the braid guy, just because the braid guy tilt his head. And saw y/n presence.

Read for Request:

Hi, this is prettydrug, your hello-kitty drugstore manager. I have not had much time to finish this so this is just part 1, i will continue and post it, but i am super busy so it might take a little while. I decided to make it a bit longer since i find it very intriguing, thank you for sending me details, it help to make it easier to write it down since i do not have to filled in the details myself under a request.

For the people who read this, if you're interested, please send me a request as well. I like taking short story as a form of practice, maybe someday i like to make a living by writing, it would help a lot if you request.

However please noted, preferably i like to take request from tokyo revengers fandom, since i watch it, its easier to write their character unlike for example, if i write down a levi aot story, i only know he's cool and somewhat nonchalant? from edits but i won't be able to write his character accurately because i didn't know him and that would be disappointing for requester.

Looking forward to gather and interact with Tokrev Fandom again :) (i broke my phone, my edit, writing and twitter account died since 2022 december)

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