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Bro no offense but... I think the way tumblr treats alters as completely separate people is part of the reason DID/OSDD is so misunderstood. It’s so focused on individuality between alters that you can give yourself such a massive switch headache trying to keep everyone separated. Co-con is a thing. Co-fronting is a thing. Overlap in personality traits /similar style between alters? Definitely a thing! It’s okay to be different but you don’t have to exaggerate who you are for the sake of standing out. Focus on the healing process, and be kind to yourself and your system. Thank you 🌻

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"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

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Is it really?

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Whenever I see someone saying they “wish they were a system,” I don’t think: “Oh how DARE they try to mock this shit that debilitates me every day!”

I think, “I wonder what in this world could make them feel like they need to have multiple voices in their head.” I think, “Are they lonely..? Did they even have any friends whilst growing up..? Were they neglected..?”

I understand because I also felt this way as a little kid, elementary school age (5-10). **I** wanted to be less alone as a kid, so I created imaginary characters that began to separate and distinguish themselves from one another. While yes, I had some major events of trauma, my trauma was what I thought as “monotonous” or “insignificant.” I just wanted someone to talk to, someone to confide in. I didn’t feel safe telling an adult what I went through, so it was stored in another alter.

You guys are so quick to jump at someone you have no information on in any way. You don’t know how educated this person is on the complexities of DID, and you don’t know what the person went through at all.

Please stop being so harsh and aggressive towards people figuring themselves out.. you would want that grace too..

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Sys culture is not always knowing what's your thoughts and what's another altar's thoughts

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The constant "wait did I think that?"

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holder headmates are funny af. this is Symptoms Georg he lives in my brain and has more of The Symptoms than everyone else. critical feature btw

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here's your daily reminder that no-one is entitled to any information about you, your system, or your system members; nor do you have to use any terms you don't want to no matter how popular they are ^-^

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Don’t make me put your ass in the sealbarrow

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pdid culture is never seeing alters for months at a time, having them co-front for a day, then they go away again

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today was not the day I expected to find out I hand a thing for choking but here we are

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well i guess that's fine

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Idk maybe that's why

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we don't experience much everyday blackout amnesia, but we do experience a lot of emotional amnesia - that feeling of "that wasn't me, i don't feel connected to that."

the best way that i've found to describe that feeling is "that feels like a dream." so many memories feel like dreams, like i didn't actually experience them. it's like how sometimes you'll only remember a dream in bits and pieces, and it gives you a weird "off" feeling whenever you think about it. the memory of the dream feels distant and strange. that is what emotional amnesia feels like for us.

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Being a system is so weird like my mummy and daddy didn't like me so now I'm sans the skeleton

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w/ @infernal-journal !

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Me when I was a "singlet": I wonder if my system friends think it's cheesy when I say "ya'll" or "you guys" to them.

Me knowing I'm a system, after someone just referred to us as "you guys":

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P-DID host culture is yes, I'm in full front 24/7, doesn't mean I am myself, I'm a blurry mess, almost constantly.

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