privateblife

[privateblife]

I’m back

Its been awhile...I’m here again with my keyboard, wondering if I’m enough. Where did it went wrong? I don’t know. I don’t really know. Where should I start? I don’t even know where. Am I really meant for anyone? is there someone for me? or was I destined to be alone? Why is everyone leaving? What’s wrong with me???!!!! Am I hard to love? Why do I always need to explain to someone on how they should love me??? I am very sensitive to things and people I love so much,, but because of that I always end up losing them...Why do I always feel invalidated? Why do I have to feel sorry for feeling certain things? WHYYY???!! Why do I always have the need to explain why I get mad, why Im hurt, why Im frustrated? Am I just too soft? or is the world just to harsh? Damn. I just wanna feel my emotions freely and peacefuly without someone saying I AM TOO MUCH. Or my emotions are just too much, LET ME FUCKING FEEL MY EMOTION!! There’s no switch where you can just turn it off and everything would be okay!!! I feel so empty. Damn man, I tried. I really tried everything, gave my all. I got nothing left for me. HA HA HA, love hurts. love really hurts. I guess it will never be for me aighttt hahahaha, how to stop your heart from believing that there is someone out there for you every after a fucking breakup?? HOWWW!!! Because Im so tired of this routine. God, Im tired.