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I know it's silly, but I ask for your prayers. I relapsed hard again, the night after I had counseling/therapy that morning so I feel extra horrible. I'm so tired of dealing with this, but there's nothing more to do but keep walking with God and sticking with Him no matter what.

Still. I am very tired. Prayers would be appreciated.

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post-counseling poem

standin’ in the room was I

not a thought behind my eye.

screamin’, shoutin’, no sense made

tunnelin’ vision was my reprieve.

fawning like the deer before

shinin’ starlight turns it gore.

frozen still i did remain

bowin’ my head to take the blame.

yet scarred hands did hold my face

lifted my eyes, He did embrace—

heard Him whisper like a dove,

“your eyes were made for life, my love.”

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[said with increasing amount of distress] i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this

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Beach sunset view that we had from our hotel earlier this month :)

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I made a protein shake today AND finished it completely!! Yay for nutrition!!

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girl help I'm being faced with the overwhelming depth of my own sin

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I like to say something along the lines of “think of me often” or “remember to write”

People who say “have fun” in response to “I’m going to the bathroom” must think they’re so funny

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Reblog if you recognize that Jesus Christ is Lord

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She wanted to make her own :( my services are not required

My youngest sister got minecraft! Guess that means it’s time to make her her very own skin >:D

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My youngest sister got minecraft! Guess that means it’s time to make her her very own skin >:D

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Reblog this if you are a CHRISTIAN and PROTESTANT.

If you are a Christian and Catholic, reblog this one.

If you are a Christian and neither Protestant nor Catholic, reblog this one.

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orange

aka practice with shading and colors :]

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Figured an introduction was in order, since I’ve been around a bit now!

Hello! My name is E. Grace, but you can call me Grace (it is my middle name— y’all will never know what the E stands for hehehe). I am a 19 year old Bible college student based in the Pacific Northwest. My whole life, all I’ve ever wanted to do is to glorify God with whatever I have. Recent years have uncovered that I can do that in my writing, and am currently in the process of planning, drafting, and writing a story I hope to publish someday!

I am a creative writer, poet, and a huge fandom nerd! Some fandoms that I am in are Star Wars, Hermitcraft/the Life Series, the Hunger Games (I’ve been getting back into it after Sunrise on the Reaping), Avatar: The Last Airbender, and Marvel (which I'm getting back into after the Thunderbolts). I can go on rants and rambles for long periods of time about these interests, and even dabble in fanfics on occasion.

I love a mix of worship/Christian music and the occasional secular music, my favorite artists are Brandon Lake, The Gray Haven, Phil Wickham, the Oh Hellos, The Arcadian Wild, Sleeping at Last, and the Crane Wives (color coded based on the genre :3).

I love games, my top favorite being Minecraft and Stardew valley, and I love writing stories surrounding my playing the game. I'm trying to teach myself how to draw, because I want to be able to draw my characters someday.

That's basic information for now, I think. Hope to get to know you all more as time goes on! God bless you all! <3

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Certain People™: Christianity will make you happy and healthy always! If this doesn't work for you, you are the problem and should consider praying harder ^-^

Literally all of Ecclesiastes:

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Apologies for taking this screenshot on a potato

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Saw a moth the other day and named him Gregory

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Knowing that you are sinful does not equate to hating yourself. I’ve been told I have self-hatred because I recognize my sinfulness in the sight of God. But I don’t hate myself. I struggled with self-hatred for a really long time, and this is not that. This is actually the first time, possibly ever, that I genuinely see my worth.

We are all sinful— lying, gossip, disobedience, taking things that aren’t ours, these are all sins just as much as the “big ones” like murder and adultery. We have sinful nature. Our very bodies are sinful. Which is evident in the fact that we all do little things like what I just mentioned. It’s also evident in the fact that we get sick, and in the fact that we die. Our bodies are simply sinful. They’re not going to stand the test of time, they’re going to decay and fall apart. God made Adam and Eve perfect, and THEN they fell into sin. And we, as their children, have inherited that sinfulness. But this doesn’t mean that I hate myself, nor does it mean that EVERYTHING we do is sinful. We’re not walking, talking sins. We just have sinful nature, and are prone to temptation. The spirit may be willing, but the flesh is weak. When I compare myself to my Lord Jesus, who is perfect in every way, I see that I fall short of His perfection. I recognize my sin. And I have a moment of “Oh, no. I know that God hates sin. I’m not perfect like His beloved Son! What am I going to do?”

And then I take IMMENSE comfort in the reality of the situation. God did not leave me and the rest of mankind in the dirt. He didn’t leave us to wallow in our sins and to become corrupt and twisted to the ways of the enemy without any hope of salvation. God loves us so deeply that He has always provided a way for His people to wring themselves of sin and become beloved in His eyes, just like Jesus has always been. He sent His only Son to take our place. He lived a perfect life so that, upon His death, He took ALL sins into Himself. And there, on the cross, our sins died with Him. We no longer need to identify with our sins, because they’ve already been paid for. They’re done. As Jesus said: “It is finished.” Now, when we sin, we can confess our sins in the name of Jesus, and God promises to forgive. He always forgives the repentant heart. And for those who believe in this sacrifice and forgiveness, they are united to Jesus in His death (the death of our sins) and resurrection— to live eternally in Paradise.

And so, when I look at that incredible, selfless, perfect sacrifice, and when I remember that it was FOR ME, though I am so riddled with sin, I take heart. I see how deeply the Creator of the universe loves ME. I see that He wants ME. He doesn’t need me — He doesn’t need anyone, He’s God! But He made this whole universe and still thought, “We certainly need her here, too.” And I can’t help but marvel at the depths of my Father’s love for me.

I don’t hate myself, because my God has loved me and had plans for me since before the beginning of time. I am loved by the King of all creation. Self-hatred is of the devil. The evil one wants us to despise ourselves and ruin ourselves and keep looking inward at our untrustworthy hearts and minds. But God says, “stop looking at yourself, and look at Me. I have redeemed you. I have called you by name. You are Mine.” And all I can do is smile. The King sees me, one of eight billion in the year 2025, as worthy of His love, His forgiveness, and His Kingdom. He wants me with Him. I am loved by the Lord of all! So, no, I don’t hate myself. For once, I really do not hate myself! God gave me this body and mind and soul, and I will strive to spend the rest of my earthly life taking care of these wonderful gifts in grateful service to my King. He gave me life, so why shouldn’t I praise Him for it?