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Well! I live in humanopolis suburbia! Absolute pain seeing other therians in somewhat natural areas so...Poll time!

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I’ve been doing more deliberate research on clinical cynanthropy & clinical lycanthropy (cause’ lycanthropy has more particular articles on it), and it has actually made me notice WAY more stuff about myself being a dog than I ever have before.

In a few of said articles and passages, I’ve noticed that most of these other zoanthropes’ roots for understanding themselves to transform has an influence in religious delusions, and when described in more western cultures, it is described in a negative manner.

-I’ve always known myself to be cursed, hence why I am a dog (as a way to be punished), but I have never really thought much thinking of it until quite recently. There was a case of a man (from an article I read) who dealt with clinical lycanthropy, and he figured apart of it to be from him having communication with a demonic figure. Thats uncannily similar to how I feel with my dog-ness. I feel deliberately that the devil cursed me.

There is also a mention in the article of the individuals family having history with Bipolar, which is also something my family has history and current situations with. Still figuring out my exact psychosis-related diagnosis, but it wouldn’t be bizarre if it was a form of Bipolar Disorder this whole time.

(The article I brought up is “Clinical Lycanthropy: Delusional Misidentification of the “Self”.)

I also read an article of clinical lycanthropy in a 12 year-old, it mentioned how lycanthropy in medieval and renaissance times has been afflicted with “satanic forces”. Which, literally what happened to me (besides the fact that I am a cynanthrope, not a lycanthrope)

There was also this passage from “When Doctors Cry Wolf”, listing the most common told symptoms from those experiencing clinical zoanthropy.

I started experiencing this symptom from my transformations more prominently lately, so seeing that text totally caught me off guard.

Reading more and more about who I am has done huge measures to making me feel more confident and happy with who I am. It gives me a sense of security. I’ve always known I am a Cynanthrope, but seeing it written out like this makes me feel so good.

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BURDS during a speed sketch session today with artsafari

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Interior illustrations by Mark J. Ferrari for Sandy Petersen’s “Field Guide to Creatures of the Dreamlands,“ 1989.

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due to popular demand... catboy testosterone doodle

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happy old gnoll

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I made a poster with a random selection of seabird courtship rituals!

how the heck did this post do so well?!? anyways as i said if it got popular i would slap it on redbubble i did that, thank you all for all the notes and comments! https://www.redbubble.com/shop/ap/154720777?asc=u

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being a bearded vulture is having a jar of bleached bones sitting on your desk and looking at them and going .wow i want to Eat Those but. you just settle for going batshit insane eating pretzel sticks in the kitchen, crouched in the corner with your wings around you. just me ????

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finished comm for @thespacehound! tags/associations ok! :]

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Das Trier in der Decorativen Kunst

Vienna : Gerlach & Wiedling (1896-1903)

Artist : Anton Seder

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Oooooh my god I just had a fucking joke epiphany. I am. Completely cuckoo. Literally and figuratively. Oh my god. who the fuck is the writer in charge I just wanna talk.

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secretary bird

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#literally some of our earliest system members are the 2 deer that were on noah's ark <- hold on a sec. that's awesome. say more

So, alot of our early system members tended towards archetypal and symbolic identities, rather than more individualized identities. They would have titles that reflected their role or archetype, such as "Crybaby" or "Bad Kid", rather than personal names.

We have had both traumagenic and metaphysical system members from a very young age. Typically, when we have dissociative splitting, we almost always split fragments. The fragments that begin to integrate, historically have done so through metaphysical means, by finding a sort of cosmic role to fit themselves into, and solidifying their identity around that. This is how we got members such as the 2 mentioned above, who have ties both to our trauma and to an archetype that resonates with them.

We were raised southern baptist and have a lot of religious trauma from that. We were heavily fixated on the story of Noah's ark as a child, and particularly feared what we were taught was an example of G-d's wrath and punishment of humanity.

The dissociative fragments resulting from religious trauma eventually formed into a number of different system members. Eventually, "Buck and Doe" formed. They served as a sort of spiritual protector, helping us be less fearful of G-d's wrath by being an example of the beauty of creation and rebirth that can follow from destruction.

They are not normal deer by any means however. They are unnaturally tall, ethereal, and they always move in perfect sync with one another. This ties into our personal beliefs that the earliest deer were in fact, not entirely of Earth origin, and were vessels for alien DNA to intermingle with Earth's lifeforms. (Which is itself thematically connected to the horror trope of beings that are Not Deer, i.e. the Ritual). But that's a whole post on its own!

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andrew kane

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I know we've all been hurt and I do understand where misanthropy comes from but I can't help but respect a species that will travel for hours and gather in open spaces to witness a rare astronomical event and start howling like coyotes when it happens just because it's cool

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Shuvuuia, a dinosaur typically most active at night, is fooled into getting up early by a total solar eclipse.