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[promqueengreen]

@ofwittyardor

Fine, Ross, I'm to blame. Everything is my fault. Always my fault because I didn't revolve all of my decisions and feelings around you. The nerve of me to make my own life choices. {My head shook. I was angry now. To think I came home because I missed my life here in New York, and more than that, I wanted Emma to have her dad and family nearby, and now I'm being attacked because my decisions weren't run by Ross first. Ridiculous. I get him being upset over the voicemail, but I couldn't help that I didn't even get that voicemail until recently, but it's like high school all over again... He claims he wants me, yet doesn't bother to pursue me. The second things get tough or force him to make an actual effort, he bails, then blames me for all of his hurts and woes. I'm done being Ross's punching bag. I'm done being blamed for everything that's gone wrong in his life. I returned to New York here to start fresh; not to rehash old moments and memories} You got punched because you kissed me when you knew I was technically there with Aiden. That's your fault, not mine, so no, I'm not taking the blame or guilt for that. Besides that, you knew full well Aiden was going to be at that dinner tonight from the moment you picked us up from the airport. What did you think was going to happen, Ross? That I would leave Aiden by himself at my apartment while I go hang out with all of you? If you didn't want to be around Aiden, or me either for that matter, since you're so angry with me, you didn't need to come to the dinner. I thought you were there because you wanted to be... Apparently being adults about all of this isn't an option, though. {My head shaking as I shifted up onto my feet. Typical Ross, he gets what he wants off his chest, but as soon as he's done, he suggests we end the conversation to cool off. Pfft. Everything revolves around what's best for Ross. Some things never change I see} That's fine, Ross. I'm going to go so you take all the time you want to cool off. If you still want Emma tomorrow, you can drop by my apartment when you want to get her. You can spend the whole day, evening, or anything you want with Emma tomorrow, but as far as dinner goes for us tomorrow night, I don't think that's a good idea. I think you and I could benefit from some space for us both to cool off and clear our heads. {I said as I grabbed my purse; looping the strap over my shoulders before I made my way to Ross's front door to leave. After opening the door, I exited his apartment; pulling the door closed behind me before I started toward the elevator. As far as I was concerned, I just wanted to get as far away from Ross as possible before I ended up giving him a second punch to his nose. Wow, I hadn't been this angry with Ross since the whole, "We were on a break" drama so many years ago}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Ross, I'm not doing this with you. I'm not arguing with you about Aiden. I had no idea how you felt about me... Or should I say, that you still harbored feelings for me, and as far as Aiden goes, I did make it clear to him when I relocated to New York that him and I were done. What we had in Paris would be left in Paris. I had no idea Aiden was coming to New York with the hopes of also getting relocated to New York for work. That was news to me, but I ended it with him. {I shrugged casually. I wasn't going to apologize for that because I didn't do anything wrong. Like I said, I had no idea Ross still had feelings for me} As far as your voicemail goes, I already explained why I didn't bring it up the times we did talk. {I said as a means of letting Ross know, I wasn't going to keep explaining myself. I made mistakes, but Ross did too. If we're pointing fingers in all of this, then they better be pointed at both of us because I wasn't taking the blame for all of it} And as far as me never asking you to come to Paris, when we agreed that Emma and I would move to Paris, I told you the company said they would fly you out whenever you wanted to come. At no point did you show any interest in coming there to visit us, but Ross, the invitation was always open to you. {I shook my head. Typical Ross. Always the victim. Always someone else's fault that things didn't go the way he wanted them to go. I see some things never change} Is that what this is about? You just want me here so you can fight with me? You want to point fingers and paint me out to be the villain because I apparently did you so wrong? Everything I did was wrong and selfish because I didn't put your feelings first with my every decision. Good grief, Ross... This is ridiculous. {I shook my head and sat back on the couch} I don't want to fight with you, Ross. What's done is done. It's in the past, so we can either continue to fight, point fingers, and dwell on that, or we can just focus on the here and now, because I've got news for you, if there's any hope in us making this work between us again, then we can't keep drudging up our wrongs from the past, Ross... {I said with a quiet sigh before adding} I love you, too, Ross, and I want this to work between us, but I'm tired of fighting about things in the past that we can't change.

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

What was I supposed to do? Leave him at the airport? Come on, Ross, he was in town with me from Paris. I couldn't not invite him to dinner. That would have been rude. {I said with a soft scoff and a slight shake to my head} Besides, it's not like I kissed him, cuddled him, or showed any sort of PDA or interest with him while at the dinner. I basically ignored him. {I said with a casual shrug. My way of reiterating that as far as I was concerned, Aiden and I broke up back in Paris. Sure, he forced his way into returning to New York with me under the explanation that he had business here in New York anyway, so he'd help me get settled into my new position in New York and then he'd leave. Little did I know he wasn't giving me complete candor in his actual plan. Amusement creased my lips though hearing Ross admit that he hadn't exactly thought through his plan. My lips pursed in amusement before a soft chuckle followed} Yes, it was very Joey of you. A really bold move, but hey, no complaints from me. {I said with a soft grin} And as far as me "ghosting you," I have no idea what you're talking about. Ross, I called you on a near daily basis. It wasn't just through Monica. {I shook my head. I wasn't about to be the villain in this whole scenario, woe is me nonsense that Ross conjured up in his mind. As far as I was concerned, if he truly loved me like he claimed to, why did he wait until I was gone to tell me? He could have told me before I agreed to take the job in Paris, but he didn't. Instead, he encouraged me to go. Communication was definitely a little off in that sense} No, after not hearing your voicemail with your confession until months later, I didn't bring that up because honestly, I figured you had moved on from me in all that time. Right or wrong, that was my thinking in that... I didn't want to rehash something that could potentially be hurtful to you; especially since I was in Paris. We were thousands of miles from each other, so how would us trying again work? My point being, it felt like more of an impulse thing and not one that was thoroughly thought out prior to you making that phone call. Maybe I'm wrong, but you and I have both been guilty of getting caught up in the moment when it came to our history with one another... I just didn't want us to make a mistake again. I just feel like /when/ we finally happen, the timing and everything will finally be in our favor, Ross, because the truth is, I do love you... I never stopped loving you. I want to be smart about this though and not just rush into something out of impulse or fear, you know? {We were adults so if we were ever going to finally have our happily ever after, this was the sort of thing we needed to talk out first}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{I knew what Ross meant by his comment... He wanted me to feel guilty, so his claim that he didn't want me there out of guilt was the Ross way of secretly wanting me to be there out of guilt. Oh, trust me. I had known Ross since we were kids. Sure, we might not have been close when we were kids, but in the ten years I lived in the city, I had come to know him very well. At this point, I could basically read him like a book. Case and point how I knew this was the "Geller guilt" at its finest that I was witnessing here and now. Truth was, I did feel guilty. Not so much for Ross ending up with a potentially broken nose from Aiden's fist, since after all, it was Ross who chose to kiss me right there in view of Aiden. He kinda deserved to be punched when you look at it from Aiden's perspective. Then again, I did feel a little guilty about that because Aiden was only there because he insisted on following me from Paris. Yes, I should have made it clear to him in Paris that we were over, but little did I know Aiden was making plans to relocate to New York City for me. Talk about not seeing that plot twist, but it is what it is. Aside from that though, I did feel guilty about not getting Ross's voicemail until recently... Opting not to call him to hash out the message because I was embarrassed by how much time had passed. Besides, Ross never showed up in Paris to fight for me, either, so for all I knew, I figured his message was a spontaneous thing, and he regretted doing it which is why he never acted beyond that} Guilty for which part exactly? Me bringing Aiden here? Trust me, that wasn't planned. He just came along. Claiming he had business in New York. {I shrugged unapologetically before I continued} Sure, I'm sorry you got punched tonight and that you're injured, but Ross, what did you expect when you kissed me in front of him? {I flashed Ross a playful grin before gently lowered the ice pack across his nose; gingerly holding it in place for him, so it didn't put too much weight on his sore nose} I do, however, feel bad about the voicemail... Months passed before I even heard it, and by then, it felt like so much time had passed that I didn't know if I should mention it. Especially given that you never followed up with another call, text, visit to Paris... anything. I honestly thought, given our history, that maybe you regretted the message, which was why that's as far as it went. That maybe the voicemail was only because of how you felt about me leaving for Paris, and then after you sent it you reconsidered your position on all of that. Either way, I am sorry, Ross. For all of it. Even though I am sorry, truly, that's not why I'm here with you tonight. I'm not here out of guilt. I'm here because I want to be here.

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Yes, I'm well aware of where you're going with your question and accusation, but to be clear, I'm not here out of guilt, Ross. We both know I'm far too selfish and caught up in myself to be here out of guilt... I don't do anything I don't want to do. {A fact that Ross knew more than most. It's also faults of mine that Ross has brought up more than once through the years too, so Ross should know I wouldn't do anything I didn't want to do; guilt or otherwise. Sure, I did feel bad that Ross got hurt tonight, but honestly, that whole fight was a result over him kissing me and Aiden seeing it. My point is, I don't feel guilty for bringing Aiden here to New York with me. No, we might be a Paris type of fling only... Meaning, I saw no future between Aiden and I, nor were we serious in our phase of dating either, for that matter, but still, me agreeing to let Aiden come here in order to see New York before him and I parted ways with one another wasn't something I did or should have to feel guilty over. In my defense, I didn't know Ross was going to show up at the airport when I arrived. Monica and my mom aside, I didn't know anyone even knew when I was scheduled to arrive in New York, much less expect to come face to face with Ross moments after I got off the plane. Yes, I did feel bad that Ross got hurt by it, as a result, but honestly, given all of the time apart while he was here in New York and I was in Paris, I thought he'd be way over me. Judging by his reaction and our conversation now though, I knew that wasn't the case... No, I wasn't ready to walk down the aisle with Ross, or anything extreme like that, but given all of this time apart, and yet we still always found our way back to each other, maybe that was a sign that him and I really were meant to be together when all was said and done. Again, nothing extreme or rash that I was ready to jump into impulsively, but I'd still be open to the idea of Ross and I trying again and see where this relationship may or may not go with each other} Okay, I'll get you a beer... Probably an ice pack for your nose too since it's growing in size as we speak. {I made a face as I walked to Ross's kitchen. More than familiar with my surroundings as I grabbed everything that I needed. Even managing to pop a bag of popcorn for us and then poured the contents into a bowl before I carried everything back into the living room with me. I first handed Ross his beer to take before I placed the bowl of popcorn on the coffee table in front of us. Once I took a seat, I held the ice pack out toward Ross to take, so he could put it on his nose} Come on, Rocky... Just humor me and put the ice pack on your nose for a few minutes. If you don't, I'll just nag you repeatedly to go to the hospital to get an x-ray and we both know you'd rather not do that. Especially since, knowing our luck, Dora, or whatever that mean receptionist's name was, is more than likely working. {I aired out with a playful smirk as I leaned back in the sofa to get a bit more comfortable}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Ross, you know we well enough to know that I'm too selfish and caught up in what I want to stay here with you out of guilt. {I aired out in a playful manner; all the while flashing you an amused smile. The truth was, growing up I was a bit of a spoiled brat. For a good part of my life I really did only act out of selfish conceit and decision. Over the years I'd like to think I had matured a bit though. Don't get me wrong, I still had my selfish moments, but I wasn't as conceited and stuck on myself as I once was. Growth. A level of maturity that I could be proud of} All joking aside, I'm staying with you tonight because I want to, Ross. {Besides, I wasn't quite ready to go back to my place anyway since I wanted to give Aiden time to get his stuff and get out of there. Providing he even went back to my apartment, I should say. I mean, even if he did, I don't know how he'd get into my apartment, but I'd figure out all of that at a later time, should the need arise. Even so, once we made our way inside Ross's place, I turned on a few lights then made my way to the kitchen. Calling back to Ross} Aside from ice for your face, do you want something to drink? A water? Or wine, maybe? {I offered. For all I knew Ross was exhausted after what had happened, so he wanted to call it a night, but on the off chance that he wasn't ready for bed, I hoped we could spend a bit of time talking since it was long overdue for us} And as far as Emma goes, I completely understand. I have plans to grab lunch with Monica anyway. I made them because I remembered you and I had previously agreed that you would be spending the day with Emma. {I called back from the kitchen as I worked on making up an ice pack for Ross} Besides, I'm sure Emma will be thrilled to spend the day alone with her daddy. She's missed you. {I added as I finished making up the ice pack and shut the freezer door before heading into the living room area with it} What did you decide on drinks? Is it a wine kind of night or are you playing it safe with water? {I asked with a soft chuckle; all the while a smile resting across my lips. It's funny how easy all of this felt. Sure, I knew months had passed since I had been here last, yet everything just felt right into step. Oddly, it felt so easy and natural here with Ross, like no time had passed at all between us. Grant it, Ross might not agree with that sentiment, but that's where I stood currently}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Of course I feel guilty for what happened. If I hadn't brought Aiden with me to New York City, the fight between you two never would have happened. {I said honestly before adding} But that's not why I'm wanting to stay with you, Ross. I mean, you know me, so if it was just about guilt, I'd make sure you got home safe and sound, got you an ice pack for your face, and then I'd probably be on my way. {There was no surprise or secret that I couldn't be a bit selfish at times. I tended to put my own needs and desires ahead of others. Sure, I had grown up a bit over the years, but in lieu of what happened tonight at Monica and Chandler's place, I realize I still had some growing up to do in that department} My point is, my offer to stay with you is because I care about you, Ross. {I added reassuringly and genuinely as we reached Ross's apartment; prompting me to open the cab door and get out so Ross could do the same} You know, it's funny, I've been to your apartment so many times, yet apparently I never paid attention to the address. Why would I though? It's not like we did the whole snail mail form of correspondence when I lived here since we saw each other every day for ten years. {I added jokingly as I waited to ensure Ross got out of the cab okay, before I closed the door and we started toward the entrance of his apartment building} Oh yeah, that's no problem. I figured you'd want to spend time alone with Emma. Besides, I made plans to grab lunch with Pheebs and Monica once you pick Emma up, so you don't have to worry about me being alone or anything. {I assured Ross with a smile as we made our way inside the apartment building and then started up the familiar and infamous "pivot" staircase toward Ross's floor} But yeah, dinner together sounds great. Did you want it you, Emma, and I or just you and me? {I asked before adding} If you were planning it just being the two of us, I can ask Monica if she and Chandler could watch Emma tonight. {I further explained as we reached Ross's apartment door and I waited for him to unlock it so we could go inside}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{Once we left Monica and Chandler's place, I listened as Ross assured me that he was fine. He reiterated that he wasn't dizzy or anything, but that didn't mean I still wouldn't keep a close eye on him tonight} Good... I'm glad you're not busy. If you think that's going to convince me not to stay the night at your place though, you're wrong. {I said playfully in response and flashed him a grin as we made our way outside to catch a cab or Uber. Before long one approached, so once we waved it down, we got into the back of the vehicle. I couldn't actually remember the address to Ross's apartment... Call it a brain fart or jetlag brain or whatever, but I remained silent as I waited for Ross to give the address of our destination. Before long the driver started toward Ross's apartment building, while I got comfy in the back of the vehicle} Well, tonight was eventful. {I stated the obvious as a light chuckle followed. By now my head tilted to the side and I rested in harmlessly against Ross's shoulder during the ride through the streets of New York toward his apartment} Oh, and my mom will be bringing Emma to my place around ten or eleven tomorrow... Maybe we can grab some coffee at Central Perk beforehand, and then we can head back to my place for Emma's arrival. {Knowing I had previously promised Ross that he could spend the day alone tomorrow with Emma. A plan that I still intended to keep, since I'm sure he was looking forward to having some time along with Emma after so much time apart. Still, given the chance in circumstances, if he wanted me to join them, I could do so... Especially since Monica had already taken care of getting my apartment ready and decorated for me, and I didn't start my new job until Monday, so I had nothing but free time these next few days}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{Purely on instinct, when Ross shifted up into a standing position from the sofa, I maneuvered up onto my feet too; automatically offering Ross my arm in case he got a hint of dizziness or something. I mean, I was no doctor or nurse, but he did get socked in the face and nose pretty hard, so I figured there could be a chance of dizziness, and if so, I wanted to make sure to keep Ross from getting hurt worse than he already was. In seeing he was steady on his feet though, I gave his back a gentle rub; all the while flashing him a soft smile} I'm going to let Monica know we're leaving, and then we can go. {I said with a smile as I briefly stepped away from him; finding Monica and Chandler hiding out in another room, as if to give Ross and I some time alone to talk. Not at all subtle, but I appreciated it nonetheless} I'm going to take Ross home to rest. Thank you for dinner... And, sorry for all the drama... {I said sheepishly as I gave Monica a hug and then Chandler afterwards before pulling back with a smile} I'll call you tomorrow. {I assured Monica as the three of us returned to the living room together, so Monica and Chandler could say goodbye to Ross before Ross and I took our leave from their place. Once everyone said their goodbyes, I snaked my arm through Ross's arm as we took our leave from Monica and Chandler's place} You feeling okay? Not dizzy or anything, right? {I figured Ross was okay, other than some pain, maybe, but still, better to be safe than sorry, right? I silently considered as I remained at Ross's side while we made our way toward the outside, so we could get ourselves a cab}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{I was so torn on what to do now. I had just broken off things with Aiden. Grant it, I had intended to do that when I left Paris, but Aiden apparently didn't take the hint, and not only followed me here to New York, but secretly arranged for an interview for himself here too with hopes to move here full time. All that to say, I saw Aiden as a Parisian fling and nothing more, but apparently Aiden was more attached to me. Wow, this is the second man in my life now who thought more like a woman than a man when it came to relationships and commitments. What happened to the guys who were only interested in flings because all of that relationship stuff freaked them out? Why were guys so clingy nowadays? Either way, I felt bad for how I left things with Aiden, so I knew it would be best to give him time to get a head start out of New York and back to Paris before I attempted to send him an apologetic text. Then there was Ross... I loved Ross, and there was a part of me who knew I'd always love Ross, but was getting involved with him again the right course of action for us? I mean, we had tried multiple times before and it never panned out between us. Fortunately we always managed to keep our friendship between each break up, but still, did we want to run that risk again? I silently considered as I shared those fears with Ross. Then there was Emma to consider. She was our daughter and the most important person in both of our lives... Would it be smart to start up another relationship and run the risk of confusing Emma if it didn't work out. All that to say, we had so much to consider, which is why I was relieved when Ross agreed that we should take things slowly. Hey, I was here full time again, so we had no reason to rush into anything. We had time to test the waters, and figure out what was best for us} I agree... There's no rush. Let's just take it one day at a time, and see how things go. {I smiled softly as I gave Ross's hand a gentle squeeze} In the meantime, what do you say we get you home to rest a bit there, Rocky? {I gently teased with the nickname; all the while a playful grin pulled across the corners of my lips} My mom has Emma for the night, so if you want, I could hang out with you at your place for a bit to watch a movie or something? {If we're going to test the waters, us hanging out together just the two of us would be a good place to start. I silently justified as I awaited your response to my suggestion}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Yes... Aiden was just a fling in Paris. I didn't plan anything long-term with him. Hell, I didn't even know he was coming to New York to interview for a position here until he told me earlier today. As far as I was concerned, when I left Paris, I intended for that to end things between Aiden and I. I mean, of course we were casual. I wouldn't even let him meet Emma. {My shoulders rolled into a slight shrug. Apparently Ross wasn't the only man out there who overthought things, and managed to create unrealistic scenarios in his mind. Aiden and him were more alike than I ever realized} As far as we go, Ross... {I paused briefly as I gathered my thoughts before continuing} Of course I love you. Me loving you was never the question. It just always seems like timing gets in the way of us. {That was the truth. Ross's love for me and mine for him was never really the question. It just always seemed like, when he loved me, I had moved on, and when I loved him, it was him who had moved on. The timing always drove a wedge between us. I couldn't help but to wonder if there was something to that. Maybe Ross and I just weren't meant to have that "happily ever after" type of romance} I guess now that I'm back here in New York permanently, we can figure all of that out. If "us" really is the right course of action... {I said before pausing briefly to add} Because Ross, if we try again, I don't want us to screw it up. We've done that too many times in the past, and it nearly ruined our friendship countless times. I don't want to risk losing your friendship. Not now... Not ever. Especially when this time around, we have Emma to consider too. For Emma's sake, you and I need to know if we're both serious and all in before we act on our mutual feelings. {I said with a smile as I leaned in to gently press a kiss to your forehead} In the meantime, Rocky, maybe we should get you home to rest. {I gently teased; all the while a soft grin rested across my lips}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{I felt a hint of relief fill me when Ross cracked a joke about the scuffle between him and Aiden on the balcony; knowing if he was cracking jokes, then there was no serious damage. Amusement creased the corners of my lips as I lowered myself down to the edge of the sofa beside Ross; fully facing him with a soft smile as I gently lifted the ice pack to see the damage to his cheek since the bloody nose told me everything necessary already about the state of his nose. Gingerly tracing my thumb across his bruised cheek while the smile lingered on my lips as I gently rested the ice pack against his cheek once more. Knowing it would help with the swelling and bruising Aiden's punch did to Ross's cheek} Mhmm. Whatever you say, Rocky. {I said playfully before teasingly adding} Aiden practically had to crawl out of here due to the damage you did. {I aired out through a soft chuckle. Obviously that was a case of sarcasm and joking now, but no harm in trying to add a little lightness to the uncomfortable situation. Of course Chandler was the one for the jokes and sarcasm, but every now and then I gave it my best shot too} You'll be pleased to know that Aiden is staying at a hotel tonight and then catching a flight back to Paris tomorrow morning. {I shared with Ross. The thing was, Aiden and I were never that serious. Maybe on his end, but definitely not on mine. To me, Aiden was just a Paris fling. One that I intended to leave behind when I relocated back to New York City. Apparently Aiden and I differed in our thoughts on that though, given that he was trying to get a job and relocate here too behind my back. Sure, I liked Aiden, so naturally I'm sorry that it ended this way, but at least now he knows where I stand on the level of our relationship} For what it's worth, I'm sorry for my part in all of this, Ross. I didn't bring Aiden here to make you jealous or to hurt you. Honestly, I never saw Aiden and I as that serious. He was just a fling in Paris. {I admitted with a casual shrug. Grant it, that didn't mean Ross and I were going to immediately rekindle what we once had, but Ross should at least know that Aiden and I were never what I considered as serious or long-term}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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{I watched Aiden storm out; prompting a loud sigh from me} I'll be right back. {I assured Ross and Monica as I rushed out after Aiden. I was angry, to say the least... Sure, maybe Aiden punching Ross was justified, given that Ross kissed me, but regardless, I didn't condone the violence in this case simply because the thought of anyone hurting Ross infuriated me} Hey! {I called out after Aiden. Watching him stop in his tracks before turning to shoot me an annoyed look} What the hell was that? {I said but I didn't let Aiden reply before I continued speaking} Look, I get it... You caught Ross kissing me, but that was no excuse for you to hit him. All of this could have been handled with a conversation. There was no reason to bring violence into it. {I aired out. Aiden clearly wasn't happy with my outlook on it, but instead of saying anything in response, he threw his hands up and turned to leave} "I need some air." {Aiden said before walking away. Maybe I should have stopped him, but at the moment, I needed the space too. All of this was confusing to me now. I didn't expect Aiden to come here to New York with me. Yes, for a brief vacation type of trip, but not to stay... A bomb he had dropped on me just a little bit before this dinner. My point being, I dated Aiden in Paris, but I had no plans of keeping that relationship going once I got back to New York. I just wanted to start fresh in New York. Yes, I knew that was selfish, but it was the truth nonetheless. With that thought in mind, I had hoped that me not going after Aiden tonight when he walked away would make him realize I wasn't right for him. I briefly considered as I returned to the apartment to check on Ross. Noticing Monica had him resting on the sofa currently} Hey... Are you okay? {I asked as I took a seat on the coffee table directly across from Ross}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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{I was so confused in this moment.... A bit angry and emotional too after the argument that Ross and I just had. I mean, how dare him accuse me of not caring about him. Had he not been paying attention all these years? Grant it, this isn't the first time Ross made accusations about me that were well off from reality. The night before I was leaving for Paris he accused me of not caring about him because I didn't have it in me to say good bye to him. Of course we worked that one out later that night, and actually found the perfect closure for us. Given the circumstances tonight though, it was like we were right back at that night, and I could feel my blood boiling as a result of Ross's ridiculous assumptions. I aired out a loud breath as I felt Ross grip a hold of my wrist; prompting me to stop before slowly turning to hear what he felt the need to add now. I swear if he was about to say he cared more about me than I did him again, I might just push him off this balcony. I wouldn't, of course, That was more a Monica reaction and not me, but still, I was mad at this moment. Mad and hurt, for that matter. Coming off as a complete shock to me though, not only did Ross not spew out anymore ridiculous assumptions or play the, "I care more card," but after declaring that he still loved me, he kissed me. What the hell? How was I going to react to this? I briefly wondered before finding myself leaning into the kiss. Mind you it didn't last long before I heard Aiden's voice yelling out from behind me} "Whoa, whoa whoa! What is this?! Get off of her!" {Aiden said before pushing Ross away from me and then in one swift motion, Aiden punched Ross in the face} Aiden! Enough! {I called after him as I grabbed his arm to pull him away from Ross, but given how mad Aiden was, I wasn't strong enough to do so. In the meantime Joey and Chandler rushed out to intervene. Given that Chandler was... Well, he was kinda a weak wimp, I knew he wouldn't be much help in this, but Joey grabbed Aiden's other arm and put separation between Ross and Aiden. In the meantime Monica and Phoebe joined all of us out on the balcony. Phoebe shot Aiden and Ross each a look of what seemed like amusement before she and Monica maneuvered over to Ross to see that he was okay} Aiden, get back inside. Now. {I said curtly. Sure, I knew Aiden had a reason to punch Ross, but I hated stuff like this, so I wasn't going to deal with unnecessary violence. Aiden nodded as Joey and Ross pushed him toward the window and back inside Monica and Chandler's place while I looked back at Ross} Are you okay, Ross? {I asked. Knowing I needed to address the declaration of love and the kiss, but I wanted to wait until that until Ross and I were alone again}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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See? He’s her lobster. Ross Geller & Rachel Greene in F•R•I•E•N•D•S (1994-2004)

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SOME THINGS I LOVE: [4/10] Ships Ross Geller and Rachel Greene, FRIENDS (1994-2004)

“Hey, I like Ross just as much as the next guy. Clearly, I have feelings for him but feelings don’t mean love. I mean, do I still have loving feelings for Ross? Yeah! I have continuing feelings of love. But that doesn’t mean I’m in love with him! You know, I have sexual feelings for him but I do love him.”

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