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[ on GOD i have got to get some sort of fidget ring or something. i am driving myself insane

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HE DON'T HUNT, JACK

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Sharpe helping Antonia to walk along the path to Tio Ramon's house. Her hand is so small in his, her feet unsteady, but she is so determined and he is so, so proud of her, his baby girl.

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Sharpe helping Antonia to walk along the path to Tio Ramon's house. Her hand is so small in his, her feet unsteady, but she is so determined and he is so, so proud of her, his baby girl.

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[ my favorite Cornwell-ism is Schrödinger's Tom Garrard... he was Sharpe's friend in India, but then it seems like he just pops up in the series randomly. He's sometimes an officer, sometimes a sergeant. He's been hanging out with Sharpe recently. He hasn't seen Sharpe in years. Sometimes he's dead. ]

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[ literally weeping with laughter bc @lacomandante is the funniest fucking person I have ever met. I woke my father up two rooms over. I hope everyone has, at some point in their life, a friend like Kiran.

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isn’t teresa just the best? i’m rewatching the sharpe series after finding your blog again and i’m just so overwhelmed with love for her. she’s so kind and patient, i missed her bad af when i read the book version of sharpe’s rifles 🥺💕

[ she IS the best, anon, absolutely. Teresa's character is so unique and amazing--she's kind and patient, but she's also ruthless and cunning. Her story is absolutely heartbreaking, but she manages to find love and happiness in spite of everything, and that is such an incredibly powerful thing to see. She's everything to me and has been for a long, long time, as has @lacomandante, my very best friend in the whole world who writes Teresa!!! Go show her some love, too!!!

I haven't been on this blog often lately, but I'm hoping to be back soon and regularly! I'm very glad you found me again--it's messages like this that make keeping this proper bastard up and at 'em worthwhile!!! ]

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[ just in case it isn't clear: TER.FS, raci.sts, and whi.te sup.rema.cists are NOT WELCOME HERE. Fuck all the way off my blog forever.

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I was searching for some pretty Hanukkah gifs to schedule a post tomorrow wishing my Jewish followers Happy Hanukkah and I found a fit/shape/body building site that posted this

And I thought to myself, I simply must show my Jewish followers fit Menorah Man

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$50,000 immediately dropped into my bank account wouldn't improve EVERYTHING but boy it sure would be a grand, sexy little start to a good, happy life path, don't you think

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[ sharpe's background of being a pickpocket, a burglar, and a thief should definitely have been used more for comedy and less for tragedy in the sharpe series because can you imagine

you're an officer in the mess hall. you watch a 6'1" 95th Rifles officer walk in, pickpocket a colonel, hide an entire bottle of wine in his jacket, and stuff a handful of silverware into his shako. He has made eye contact with you the entire time. He throws up a two-finger salute in your direction on his way out. You go to say something, but one of the "exploring officers" stops you and starts rambling about this man's skills. He does this at least twice a week. He's the most efficient soldier in Wellington's army. He calls you a bastard to your face and steals your watch.

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#(“the man eats pussy like he's still a starving orphan on the streets of london”)

AND LO, I looked with open eyes and saw, in the middle of a Sharpe episode, Sean Bean turn and face directly at the camera and say "Richard Sharpe eats pussy".

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I can't mansplain, manipulate, manwhore my way out of this one, lads,

so murder it is

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every time i start to feel cringe for being too deep in the hyperfixation i remember the intense depression i have waded through and have to remind myself that enjoyment is fleeting (so grab it with both hands), and life is for loving (so hold that love close), and if anyone thinks i’m cringe they must not be having a very good time (and i hope they can find a good time soon).

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[ rambling ahead:

I've been playing BG3 and while I borrowed the name for my Tav from a previous D&D character I made, I was struggling with the idea of whether or not her name (Mirri) was her given name or if it was just a nickname that she preferred to go by. And some part of it would be backstory relevant--she's been disowned by her family, accused of abandoning her Elvish principles and culture to pursue wickedness (she's a warlock), and so, as an act of self-love and to divorce herself from the anguish of her past, she abandoned her given name, going only by the name she chose for herself, a nickname originally that fits her better than the longer, more "formal" name.

And this is a trope I've explored before. It's also something close to the chest. My full given name is Samantha, but I never, ever refer to myself that way. I'm Sam. I've always been Sam. I've occasionally been called a variation of that--Sammy--but, from the moment I learned how to talk, I always, always introduced myself as Sam.

There's nothing wrong with Samantha. I think it's a pretty name all on its own. But it's my "formal" name. It's the name my parents call me when they're angry. It's the name I have to put on legal documents. But it's not the name I sign. It's not the name I introduce myself as.

I've seen the quote that floats around sometimes that says "Give your daughters difficult names. Names that command the full use of the tongue." and I'm well aware that my name doesn't really fit that concept. But some part of me, the part that is Sam and not Samantha, wonders what these daughters might choose to call themselves. People change the names they were given by their parents for a thousand different reasons--they're trans or nb and their deadname is just that--dead. Their parents were abusive and they don't want to carry that. The name was, frankly, awful. The name just didn't fit. The new name they found fits them so much better.

I like the idea of Mirri having a name that isn't hers. A name that her mother gave her, one that was proud. One that was long.

A name that she gave back when her mother slammed the door in her face. But I like the idea that she named herself. That Mirri is the name she chose, the name she chose when the other one, the one that commanded the full use of her tongue, was just the one that belonged on a legal document.

Exploring the idea of the person you are when you are on your own for the first time is fascinating and yeah, I might be projecting onto this character, but what good are characters you can't stuff with your own insecurities and ideas? Therapy is expensive.

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[ post cancelled!!! i would actually like to thank larian for giving me the gift of a character who fits into my 16 year old self’s fantasy while giving 26 year old me the chance to remember that i owe myself authenticity and love

[ i cannot believe larian studios laid out a trap for me specifically and i walked into it like a god damned looney toons character