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I never thought the breathing can be suffocating.

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January 13, 2023

I feel crappy today. I really cannot rid myself of thinking that I am never good. I'm a sore loser in life. I keep on revalidating myself but ending up feeling like a shit. Andaming ganap. Gusto ko pa naman sana siya. I hate the comparison. My heart is pumping inexplicably fast.

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Finally I was able to relay the need to ready our culminating activity.

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January 4, 2023

Smooth naman ang pagbabalik eskwela sa araw na ito. Nagawa kong ma-meet ang target tasks today. Ibig sabihin, productive ang araw. Sa 2 weeks na mga gawain, at least may na-attain ako. Nakatuwa lang.

Last person out ako sa faculty. Kung hindi lang alo natakot, malamang doon muna ako nanatili. Kaso inabutan ng takot kaya pumunta na lamang sa Mactan Town Center. Naghintay sa sundo. Ngunit ang tagal. Kaya pumasom sa petshop. Nakakita ng mga treats na para sa mga alagang aso kaya binilhan ko sila. Kakaaliw.

Slowly I am appreciating Huwan Migwel. Haha pero hanggang tingin lang. Walang malisya.

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Jan 3, 2023

Naisumite ko na ang grade sheets sa college classes ko. Nakapamili na rin ng mga pagkain kapag inabutan ng gutom sa faculty. Pati tubig. I guess ready na tayo para bukas. Unang araw ng pasukan sa 2023.

Naggawa ko na ring mabayaran si Fey para sa insurance.

At nakipagdagitan sa kakilala.

Nnarito pa ang mga gagawin sa unang 2 linggo. Marami-rami rin.

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2023 ready.

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My 2022.

Here we are again, crafting our year-long synthesis of what has been our 2022. At least in my case, this has been a 'panata.'

This year brought a lot of emotions and courage. Breaking out from my comfort zone to manning up from making decisions-- both personal and professional. Although during the first few months of 2022, we had struggled from the aftermath of ST Odette that brought damages to our city.

I realized how sheltered I am eventhough I am the eldest among 3 siblings. I cannot even fathom to live on my own after what ST Odette left us. It took me more than a week to sink in what had happened. From spotting water wells or atabay to bringing empty barrels back to our home. Withstanding the scorching heat of the sun while queuing for the rations of drinking water. There's also the need to look for places which their electricity were restored to charge our gadgets. These all made happened because of my younger siblings and my parents. Without them, I do not know to to survive.

Some of my colleagues succumbed to death. It saddened me. Life is really transitory. That's why, we have to put our best foot forward everyday. To live with no regrets.

Because of these incidents, it made me realize to man up and act accordingly. Im already in my early 30s and have not proven anything for myself. That's what I thought but reminiscing the past 12 months, I have failed to highlight the events in my life that I should be grateful for.

This time, I was given the opportunity to voice out my opinions and visions of what will be the path that the school I am rendering my service. I am glad to serve and spearheaded actuations to secure our path for the next three years. Crafted actions that will continue to ensure and benefit our students and that the faculty will also grow professionally.

Im glad that I am also promoted (Master Teacher 2) at the last quarter of this year! Yehey!

I have been commissioned to work on two translation projects (as a supervising editor of a collection and a translator); some of my translation works are also published online (somewhere); attended a virtual national translation workshop; and, attended short course program that will also benefit the institution that I am serving.

This year, I was also able to complete an action research with the help of my colleagues; submitted a new one (continuing the momentum); submitted a research work for publication (although I am still waiting for their response); and some of my poetry collection for publication (I was already notified that they have received my poems, hopefully it'll be published).

As for my family, my younger sibling passed the Bar exam and the other one in doing great as a scientist/ researcher; both mama and papa are healthy; and our dogs are healthy too.

Although I must say that I am totally broke this year. I am not financially stable to enjoy what my peers have been doing now that we are slowly going back to normal.  How I wished I could travel, eat out and buy stuffs (expensive stuffs) for myself. Haha. But I know this is the price of investment. Invest muna before anything else.

I coudn't asked for more. Nope. If there's one thing I could wished, to find my soulmate. If there is such thing.

I have read somewhere that I shouldnt be engaging to anything romantic if I am not financially stable, not in good shape both physically and mentally but who knows. I am still a romanticist. A hopeless romantic. That somehow, in this chaotic world, we will find each other. Love will prevail. This time, love will win. I'm gonna win.

Grazie 2022. It was a wonderful year. Benvenuto 2023.

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January 1, 2023

IKIGAI -the reason of being

Personal kong gagamitin ang framework na ito upang maging masaya ang paglalakbay ko ngayong 2023.

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January 1, 2023

Grazie, Pope Benedict XVI

I heard the news that the pope died. The predecessor of Pope Francis. I didnt know how to react as we are all preparing to welcome 2023. I have only known him as the first pope who resigned atleast in the past 600 years of papacy.

A lot of issues had been thrown to him during his time as a pope which clouded his great works in protecting the church of our Lord and gatekeeping the faith to Christianity. Let alone being a theologian, academic and a musician. Above all these, he was a great man. His resignation to the papacy of the 1.2 billions Roman Catholics cannot be viewed as an act of cowardice and succumbing to defeat but an act of humility to see his errors and ways it can be corrected.

Eventhough I seldom pray, I never had said a prayer for you, I admit never heed on your undertakings and all our leaders in general but after I have read a couple of articles about your, your papacy and conservatist view, after watching an available film that is based from true events, I have come to a realization-- to say a prayer not just for myself and family but also for our leaders. From now on, I will be including our leaders in my prayers. I will pray often.

You have made me realized that it wasn't an easy vocation let alone the hurdles you have to face. You have made me realized that You are human to. You feel sad and lonely. Tou need understanding and validation.

That is why, Pope Emeritus Benedict XVI, my thoughts and prayers for this new year is with you. Thank you for sharing your Love for us. Even in your death, you have taught me a great lesson. Something to ponder as I continue to thrive for 2023.

God bless you in your journey. Pahulay sa dayun.

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bacio al panettone?

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Adding more of these gorgeous hardcovers to the collection

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Children’s novels that are even better when you’re an adult

Beauty and the Beast: “The greatest happiness fades when it is continual, derived always from the same source, and we find ourselves exempted from fear and from hope.”

Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland: “If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn’t. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn’t be. And what it wouldn’t be, it would. You see?”

Heidi: “I’ll always say my prayers, and if God doesn’t answer them at once, I shall know it’s because He’s planning something better for me.”

Anne of Green Gables: “It’s been my experience that you can nearly always enjoy things if you make up your mind firmly that you will.”

The Wind in the Willows: “After all, the best part of a holiday is perhaps not so much to be resting yourself, as to see all the other fellows busy working.”

The Secret Garden: “At first people refuse to believe that a strange new thing can be done, then they begin to hope it can be done, then they see it can be done–then it is done and all the world wonders why it was not done centuries ago.”

Bambi, A Life in the Woods: “The most dreadful part of all,“ the old stag answered, "is that the dogs believe what the hound just said. They believe it, they pass their lives in fear, they hate Him and themselves and yet they’d die for His sake.”

Le Petit Prince: ““What makes the desert beautiful,’ said the little prince, ‘is that somewhere it hides a well.””

Matilda: “So Matilda’s strong young mind continued to grow, nurtured by the voices of all those authors who had sent their books out into the world like ships on the sea. These books gave Matilda a hopeful and comforting message: You are not alone.”

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Be someone's obsession

Be someone's affection

Be someone's interest

Be someone's passion

Kutob ra ko diha.