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it’s been a long time that i didnt post here, its the ending of autumn and i started to feel the cold of winter.

my mediunity is blooming and i will pass on orientation to see what way i can help. cidinha lend me two books to study spiritual pass that i will study on this vacation. today, 16th june, my collar broke up, but i think i can balance my chakras doing yoga.

i also project some offlineless time, studing, reading and doing some XVIII century things like chess or talk to people in person. i wish i will survive.

wish me luck, mr dear future-self.

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3 am and is witch time! or spirit time, whatever. is 1st april and today i start to study as hard i can (maybe 1 hour per day). i bought a bullet journal and a casio watch to be my tools on this journey, hope the good spirits and toth be with me.

past month was nice. i fell in love with a boy who keeps me waiting his answers on whatsapp and in the end he didnt answer me anymore. i think is because of his graduation on medicine, or relationships isnt his interest on moment. anyway, i felt the crazyness of be in love, it hurts but is good, i dont know how to explain. maybe in future i will rediscover him walking on famerp or hb.

the mars astrologic year and autumn begun and i feeling good, i  already picked some fruits about the work on center, like have acceptance to give pass and start a class evangelization on saturdays. i lost 4 kilos and now weight 101 kilos. im working hard on return to two digits until the end of this month, with good alimentation and exercices. and i think this is it.

namastê, universe!

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ok, two months since 21st december. i think my life change because i went to "thunder of light’s" left turn and a entitie told me thats my destine work on charity there, maybe on a next future. he also counciled me to make a new guia, because i would put my own energy on it. last tuesday, at night, i made it and it was magical because i felt so good doing. i placed it a little in the rain and ask to toth bless it, was also a supermoon's night, but it was eclipsed by the clouds.

i also started a yoga class, its my second week and i felt very good after do it. today i walked on rain and after taked a shower in water spout of my house roof. nothing anormal on the rest of life: started to help with evangelize the children on spiritism center, watched acropole speechs, discovered a cool channel about spirituality named arcas ramatis.

i think im walking on a good way. thanks, supreme inteligence.

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today its been one month since i defined that my life will change, that i will become my better form of human being: priorizing the justice, love, fraternity, good and all virtues of god’s idealization. last week i started mindfullness meditation and this change my way of perception of the world, after the meditation i go to avenue walk and say good morning to almost everyone, its supercool. i started to feel more the emotions and recognize when something changes my vibration, im also trying to refine my music taste, i created a spotify’s playlist named in·tro·vert and fulled it with my most calm and beautifull songs, a lot of the xx, by the way. my grandpa’s birthday went good, i talked with a lot of people (most woman) and some of then talk to my mother how much i was well (unlike one year ago). on the monday and tuesday i wanted to start the gym but i did not gone. i like more meditate and walk with my headphones. on the wednesday i went to rio preto on a speech of anete guimaraes, she is very good. i watched one of her youtube speechs and she talk about the frequency of thinking, and also recomended a nando cordel's mantras album, named the garden of my mind is beautiful. on the thursday i went to center’s study and someone asks me about the speech and i could easily talk about it, i guess is a beneficy of mindfullness. on friday i visited my uncle-grandma and travel with her to my site. i tryed to be most benevolent as possible and i think she like it a lot. yesterday i went to another speech, but that was of a gay doctor and he talk about the homossexuality and transexuality of the point of view of imortal spirit.

i liked this week and want that next will be as good as that. namastê.

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i love the smell of gasoline basil.

well, its been 14 days that i dont write here, im sorry. in this two weeks nothing so special happened. at the 1st of january i went to house of dr. hilderberto to make a wish on the inner chapel, but the guard there wasnt so receptive so i decided go away. on the street, i saw the square's lights and decided to go on the see the playground, and saw a guy which walked aimlessly on the streets of the city in the past, but i think now he stays with the family. he probably have a mental issue. after the visual contact he came to me and said hi, i answered and question if he was ok and he said: now, yes. this answer gave me goosehumps and i started to sweat, after he give me a pacifier without nipple. i identified myself like i was after the meltdown. after, i asked him what way i could help him, and confuselly he answered with job and food. i think maybe its the universe reaffirming that i must became a mental health professional and provide care to this population starting a clinic on my site. but, there is a lot of work to be done, because after the contact i washed my hands with some kind of pish. im working on my spiritual part, i will start the doutrination on kardec center and i became a supporter of the youtube's channel "humanity’s knowledges", witch provide a chat group to studies on kaballah. started to mindfullness meditation and also started to hear a lot of lofi hiphop to walk in the morning when the sun rise and birds are whistelling. i went to nutricioner and she tell to me start gym and reach 21% of body fat, this is my target now.

so, today is my grandpa birthday and is allways a adventure stay with so many old and weird relatives. wish me luck!

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hello, my dear future self. its been few days that i started this blog and thats my weekly experience. well, one thing that struck me was the visit to my sick great-aunt, she has some psychiatric ill mixed with (at my point of view) spiritual obssession. her husband change her medications as he wish, what complicates her cure. idk if he likes her state of anesthesia or is just being stupid. what intrigates me was because in that visit, i started to mentalize positive things and mentally pray the our father, then i felt something strange at the top of my head, on the coronary chakra and then we was talking of my similarities with my cousin (who is graduated in medicine) and she says: are you going to be a doctor? well, if study, yes. my grandma was surprised and i said thats because we are similar. in my point of view, the spirit who stay with her could see my deep intentions and some way spoke for her.

tomorrow will be the last day of 2018, i am gratefull because i received the bless to be mental healthy as i asked in the ending of 2017. in this end of 2018 i ask stringency of geburah, as i “negotiated“in abadiânia. that i pass the entrance exam on famerp and if i am called by the concourse to work in school, that I can reconcile studies and work, and also i want to lose 20 kilos.

see you next year, memory palace!

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today i start my personal journey to became a person that i idealize. someone who helps people with mental issues or chemical dependence. maybe a psychologist or psychiatrist, that will be said by the time. its 21st december and the summer starts on south hemisphere, the right time to begin projects according magic systems and hermethism. well, i miss write on tumblr and i think i will update weekly my results to my future self read. let the games begin.