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of course right when we become friends again, my life takes a drastic turn and we can never see each other

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hearing how tormented you were as a child and in depth, at that

makes me so incredibly sad

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no matter what

I’ll always miss you

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depression hits different when you have caused it yourself. having made mistakes that could have easily been avoided. i am consumed by guilt and regret

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"Whats wrong?" What isn't.

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it’s ok

no one wanted me to win anyway

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sometimes I forget that I ruined us…

destroyed our friendship and any way or ray of hope that we could ever be that again

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it’s a wild ride having “please don’t leave me” and “it’s your loss if you do” daddy issues with “please don’t yell at me ill cry” and “fuck around find out” mommy issues

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sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal

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I just wish I could die