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absolutely nothing could have prepared me for the direction this took

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ppl who celebrate fictional character birthdays are annoying pass it on

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Allah please strike down people who sell old video games for 200+ with lightning

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i can't get over this stupid fucking animation. i love how comically high the framerate is compared to all of his other animations. blud looks like he's boutta roundhouse kick silver the hedgehog

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I can’t stop thinking about how this is the girl they chose to put in Milgram. Not her sugar daddy. But Yuno. The girl who had autonomy over her body, and then got framed as the "murderer" in literal torture judgment hell because she “didn’t feel bad enough.”

The thing that cuts deepest, maybe, is how familiar that kind of numbness is. The detachment. The going through the motions. I got pregnant when I was 20. Again at 22. Both times I was scared. Both times I thought about abortion. I didn’t go through with it—more out of fear and confusion. I kept my kids. I love them. But let me be clear: that doesn’t mean I didn’t want an out. It doesn’t mean I didn’t spend nights wondering if I’d just destroyed my life because how tf will I turn in my paper due on Friday while juggling a kid

Which is why seeing Yuno’s story hurt so much. Obviously not bc she’s a bad person, but bc the way her arc was framed made me feel like the whole message was she should have felt guilty. That her lack of guilt made her worthy of judgment. Which is really, just flat out dumb, imho. Milgram was never about teaching anyone a lesson. Like literally, what made ppl think we could undo Amane's 12 years of brainwashing with three trials? It's about whether we personally forgive them or not. Yet, apparently Yuno learned 'the value of what she stole' because Mahiru, who has her own world view skewed + believes in amatonormativity, taught her? Bc Mahiru wanted children, but Yuno didn't, now Yuno should feel bad?

From what we know, Yuno took precautions. She used protection. She wasn't struggling finanically or anything, she got into sex work bc she didn't really give a fuck about *checks notes* the ethics of sexuality??? What exactly is the crime here? That she had sex? That she wanted to feel something in a world that was numbing her? That she lived? That she survived?

MILGRAM is supposed to be about people that did horrible things, but we think abt forgiving them or not based on their circumstances + thoughts. It's about choices. But this doesn’t feel like a choice. It feels like a warning. Ever since T2, when Yuno's VA even said she is certain that she'll be voted guilty this time, and now they're still trying to push us to disagree with her choices

Because I’ll tell you this. If I’d made a different choice back then, if I hadn’t kept my kids, I don’t think I would’ve felt grief the way people expect. I think I would’ve felt shame and guilt at all. This isn't to say I regret my kids. But I'm saying 20 year old me, literally only two years older than Yuno, had the right to do whatever we wanted with our bodies. And honestly, maybe I wouldn’t have cried either. But my actions didn't hurt someone. Even the indirect murderers, Mahiru, Fuuta, Kazui....sure, by our standards they didn't actually kill someone. But they aren't free of sin. Mahiru was a toxic partner, Fuuta doxxed someone, Kazui acted selfishly and ruined Hinako's life, etc.

I don't have a problem with Yuno herself feeling remorse. My problem is that the message telling us Yuno should be ashamed of herself

Personally, Yuno's arc doesn't sit well with me

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Yuno's Trial 3 MV Thoughts

I normally don't write posts like this, but I really, really dislike how Yuno's entire story panned out. There was a lot of imagery in MV 1 and MV2 that could've alluded to a murder in Yuno's case and awareness that she did abort the baby.

But now, it's about social messaging. And someone in the RU fandom said it well,

"While Yuno was thinking about how to deal with her predicament, only suicidal thoughts crept into her thoughts. It was easier for her to jump under a subway car than to tell someone what happened to her. We live in a society in which a girl is so afraid to admit that she is pregnant that it was easier for her to jump from somewhere."

But my thought is, she's the one in MILGRAM, based on Voice Drama information, because she didn't feel "guilty" or "bad" for losing a baby she didn't consent to? It is a known and real problem that men will tamper with condoms because they see ‘spreading their seed’ as macho. She was doing all the right things even though she was in a bad place. Blaming her for spiraling as a result of the situation is so fucked up.

'Ethics of Sexuality?' Why is Yuno here and not the sugar daddy? He would've been infinitely more interesting as a discussion than Yuno. It just feels extremely Victim Blaming and Misogynist. And I don't say this lightly or usually engage in this kind of conversion.

While I know Mahiru has always been the love girl and that she really wants to have a family someday, using her to give Yuno a lesson is weird...like...

Should Yuno feel bad for having the ability to have children and have these sugar daddies as opposed to Mahiru that seems to not been able to achieve her dream?

I'm very incoherent right now because I'm so distressed this is the story we got. I'm just in disbelief. How can you come from Haruka to ... to this...?

And I can see Yamanaka really proud of this story and even teared up. And I just can't see eye to eye to his image of Yuno T3. MILGRAM is supposed to be a representation of the modern mindset. Can you imagine if at any point, Yuno got Guilty? What kind of message are we supposed to get from the writer? Like wow we live in a society. It's fucked up that we're blaming the teenager for exploring her sexuality and in search of meaning and got abused. Or what?

How is this Yuno a wonderful person? That she regrets taking her life for granted when there are people like Mahiru?

I'm sorry for such a long rant wall. I am just ... disappointed... at how I thought MILGRAM is about unapologetically sinful and flawed people that did something horrible and it's up to us to determine our barometer for forgiveness. I don't know. I swear I'll be more literate someday. I'm scared for Futa, Kazui and Mikoto.

I truly feel from the bottom of my heart that I’m glad I was able to write this story. This version of Yuno only came to be because of this particular series of choices. I can't say it was “good” in light of the sacrifices made but ironically, this Yuno has become a truly wonderful person.

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it pisses me off SO bad how transphobes have so effectively used sports to launder transphobia and misogyny to people. like does nobody remember like ~5-10 years ago when it was a MAJOR feminist talking point to argue for desegregating sports and going by skill level instead of gender separation??? and now, because so many cis people hate trans people so violently and think we should be excluded from all aspects of public life, you’ve got a whole bunch of women who call themselves feminists laundering misogynistic talking points about how “women are just inherently weaker and worse at athletics than men :(( it’s just biology and women are inherently inferior :(( this is definitely not misogyny that’s unsupported by science, women are just weaker and worse at things :((“ like girl open your ears and listen to what you’re saying!!

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silver being so deadset on killing whoever is responsible for his ruined future and then not being able to go through with it because it's a little kid with so much responsibility put on her. god. also elise is such a fucked up character in concept, you could get a great story out of her with a writer that actually cared. girl who is told if she cries she summons satan and it's TRUE? the DRAMA?

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well

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how that school project is gonna turn out at this rate

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Im on my knees BEGGING square to release tcg arts in high quality

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This is how it feels drawing new refs for ocs that I willingly created

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(Minor Ch4 Spoilers?) Horrifying situation I just thought up. [COMMS OPEN if interested]

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hello quina nation