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i dont use this blog anymore. i dont know if you would even want to talk to me at all or not. if you do, i’m at @pumkinpaws now but please dont feel like you have to. i dont want to hurt you anymore than i already have.

Jamie

i don’t know where you are. I tried going through my blocked accounts and some of my pages and tags and my messages to see if i could find you again, because i don’t remember what your username was. I thought i found you, but the account was deleted or you changed your username. I’m going to try some other things after i write this, but i don’t have much hope for it working

I hurt you. I know i must have. you told me never to abandon you and i did. I don’t know why i thought it was okay at the time. I can only say that i’m sorry and im so sorry because you were trying to recover and you told me just never to abandon you. and i did. i blocked you with no warning and no explanation. im so sorry. 

Ren

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Jamie

i don’t know where you are. I tried going through my blocked accounts and some of my pages and tags and my messages to see if i could find you again, because i don’t remember what your username was. I thought i found you, but the account was deleted or you changed your username. I’m going to try some other things after i write this, but i don’t have much hope for it working

I hurt you. I know i must have. you told me never to abandon you and i did. I don’t know why i thought it was okay at the time. I can only say that i’m sorry and im so sorry because you were trying to recover and you told me just never to abandon you. and i did. i blocked you with no warning and no explanation. im so sorry. 

Ren

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also like..................................................................... normalize mental illness and stuff, but also know that bringing up shit like that out of the blue is way inappropriate cause there’s a difference between not being ashamed and just. not having some sense of boundaries. we aren’t intimate all of a sudden cause we both are ill. 

and i have NO idea how to express this, much less kindly

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i can’t deal with someone casually bringing up their depression and how it drags them down in certain ways and it would be okay, but like the constant negative talk is draining and also i don’t want to hear about your illness because it makes mine flare up and also i dont want to tell you what medications im on and that’s not unreasonable of me to do that

also i hate (HATE) ppl who mention one obsession or one compulsion that they have and they think it’s ocd like dude can you Educate yourself pls, cause we all have anxiety... it’s when it gets unreasonable that it becomes a disorder....... same with obsessions and compulsions. liking your PC files organised doesn’t mean you have ocd. Lordt!

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Offense but like how many years did straight people call everything they hated or disliked “gay”,,,,,, yet y'all can’t handle a single generalized statement online about being cis/het but okay!

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happy aprils,

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#TDOV reminders

-The trans flag was inspired by the creator of the bi flag and explicitly includes nonbinary people. (source)

“[Monica] Helms came up with the trans flag in 1999, after she met Michael Page, the creator of the bisexual flag and he told her “the trans community needs a flag too”. The idea for the design came to her quickly, hoping that the colours would mean something to people, with the white stripe in the centre representing the non-binary community.” 

-Bisexuality has been inclusive of nonbinary folk since at least 1990. See the 1990 Bisexual Manifesto published in Anything that Moves (source)

“Do not assume that bisexuality is binary or duogamous in nature: that we have “two” sides or that we must be involved simultaneously with both genders to be fulfilled human beings. In fact, don’t assume that there are only two genders.”

-Trans people and people of color comprise large portions of the bisexual community. (source)

“With more than 40 percent of LGBT people of color identifying as bisexual, and about half of transgender people describing their sexual orientation as bisexual or queer…these groups [are] vulnerable to further disparities that occur at the intersections of biphobia, racism and transphobia.” 

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rn the url is xoxotemporary but it'll be pumkinpaws once im done transferring stuff

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im delegting because this site makes me sick to my stomach but please keep seinding donations to walkthewalrus@gmail.com. thanks

#pedophilia #csa #child abuse incest #suicide #hopelessness #medical abuse

my mom is a pedophile and she molested and sexually abused me my whole life, and after countless attempts to get even a single person to believe and help me (including medical professionals and law enforcement), i am still all alone and now finally homeless after being kicked out. I’m and sick and disabled and unemployed and miserable, so now i am struggling to survive with extreme C-PTSD, depression, and fatigue all alone cause i have no family or friends who support me or believe me or nothin’ lol so please help me out in whatever way you are able to because i am horribly suicidal and still in the thick of the trauma no matter what i try to do to help myself, because i cant do it all alone and no one will help me, i get told “you’re on your own” by everyone and sent away, even from crisis stabilization unit-type places when i say im actively suicidal… which is really fucked up lol.

please help me and know that ill never forget the ones who actually did something. please reblog.

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you all are going to let me die like always. what isn’t th epoint if it hurts me more to be living/ / ????? no. all alone. you’ll regret it.

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none of u woud care if i did die either, yu woul dn; 

no one pays attention to me or anything it’s just like................................................................................ wow i couldn’t think anything would get worse, it always does, i want to die aways every day no one will reply, who cares no one is going to help me when i say im going to kill myself it’s like nothing anmore and no one c, so why not? it hurts, no matte what it hurts me, who is there? all o no body.

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help i want to die and no on

e cares lol ................................................................................................... why would yo

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ALERT / True Whimsy

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