purgaytorysupremacy

[purgaytorysupremacy]

get jackles on colbert next. colbert is a heller i just know it. he'll release the tapes

[purgaytorysupremacy]

[redacted] [omitted] [gutted]

[purgaytorysupremacy]

DEAN Yeah. Yeah, you know. He was just one of those guys. Took some terrible beatings, just kept coming. So you're always thinking to yourself, he's indestructible. He'll always be around, nothing can kill my dad. Then just like that (snaps) he's gone. I can't talk about this to Sammy. You know, I gotta keep my game face on. (clears throat) But, uh, the truth is I'm not handling it very well.

And this right here is the crux of every single time Sam tries to pressure Dean to be vulnerable and talk about his struggles / trauma / feelings before he's ready to do so, or when he simply just does not want to talk about those things with Sam.

In this scene Dean easily opens up to Gordon, a near stranger, and is vulnerable with him, divulges personal feelings about his childhood, experiencing things his peers couldn't understand, his feelings about John and his complicated grief about John's death. Dean is self-aware of his own feelings. He's not repressing his grief or the fact that he's not coping well. He openly admits all of this to Gordon. He just can't bring himself to talk about it to Sam. Because Dean feels he needs to be a pillar of support for Sam. He needs to keep his game face on, be the strong older brother.

A lot of fanon tends to reduce Dean to the one who never wants to open up or talk about feelings. The one who is RepressedTM and can't cope or isn't even aware of the root of his feelings. This is partially how Sam views Dean, though, but Sam's POV isn't the objective truth. We see Dean contradict Sam's POV (and Sam isn't here in this scene with Gordon to know that Dean is opening up, that Dean is talking about these things with other people). But reducing Dean to the biased and limited POVs of other characters while disregarding what we literally see Dean do on-screen is just bad media literacy. This is only one example, because this is the episode I am currently rewatching, but we see Dean open up to others and acknowledge his own feelings of worry, fear, grief etc all throughout the show. The fanon misconception that Dean is allergic to all feelings and can't have honest vulnerable conversations with others is truly just that, misconception.

[purgaytorysupremacy]

@heller-jensen at your request

Jared answering a question: “will Jared be in it? Absolutely…”

Jensen: duh f*ck?? He must be joking…wait no..he’s serious. “Yeah yeah…👀”

[purgaytorysupremacy]

I have no idea what AU I was going for here, but I need them to make out asap

[purgaytorysupremacy]

also I got type two diabetes from the anorexia I have from living in a fat phobic society so there’s that too lol

damn people rly hate type 2 diabetics don't they

[purgaytorysupremacy]

in fairness I do feel like that’s an accurate representation of what my mind feels like all the time so 🤷‍♀️

Come on man you can’t make me read about such an emotional topic and then throw that picture into the slide

[purgaytorysupremacy]

Metatron to Castiel: Find a wife. Make babies.

Castiel:

[purgaytorysupremacy]

MEG MASTERS ✧ 5.10 ABANDON ALL HOPE

[purgaytorysupremacy]

I really wanna do the astronaut meme where it’s this question and postmodernism is like “there never was” or whatever or maybe the church meme would be better where feminist standpoint theory is the one up in the mezzanine but it might be too niche and I’m too lazy to think it through properly and also is almost certainly not what (lovely) op was talking about considering the current state of the world but anyway

Is there such a thing as objective truth anymore? Asking for a friend

[purgaytorysupremacy]

Sam Winchester, patron saint of the corrupted

[purgaytorysupremacy]

they just said it all out loud, heteronormative nuclear families fall apart and in nontraditional+queer transformations of the concept we can find our faith and rediscover who we are. thee found family series of all time

[purgaytorysupremacy]

he has all the galaxies inside him

[purgaytorysupremacy]

[purgaytorysupremacy]

while I do think there are definitely films with gay reputations higher than how gay they actually are and there are very real instances of queerbaiting....there is truly nothing more irritating to me personally than gay film/tv fans saying a movie or show "wasn't gay enough" and all they obviously mean is "I personally couldn't jerk off to this cos there was no kissing or sex". an obvious example of this is how a lot of white gay ppl discuss Moonlight (2017). But I also just watched Burning Days (2022) a super compelling political thriller about a closeted police prosecutor who moves to a small Turkish town to investigate corruption and gets caught up in a blackmail scheme by the mayor because he's gay and trying to stop the shady shit going on. The tension between the lead and the handsome bisexual journalist who's trying to warn him about all this is SOOOOO palpable I was barely blinking when they were on screen just 👀. They don't technically "get together" because the film isn't a romance but essentially the whole plot is driven by how the prosecutor is so easily marked for ostracizing because he's gay. Tell me why one of the top reviews of this film that has a gay main character in a plot driven by hostility to him being gay and one of the top reviews is "could've been gayer" can ppl please either grow the fuck up or just go watch porn if all you wanna get out of a film is shallow portrayals of intimacy. youse are so boring the way you'll just dismiss the queerness of something wholesale if that queerness isn't the most obvious form of intimacy, or if it doesn't make you horny. and isn't it so interesting how these comments are most often made about LGBT films focused on people of colour??? Transparent. Exhausting.

[purgaytorysupremacy]

Catholic Supernatural would be [church bells] [Sam's rosary dripping blood in his fist as he punches a demon] [Cas' wings in stained glass] [smashing marble graves] [Dean praying on the altar's steps] [lighting cracking behind the bell tower] [Ave Maria recited between sobs] [Dean and Cas staring at each other across the pews during mass, choir chanting] [latin under Sam's breath] [incense smoke] [silver saints medals] [drowning in the baptismal font] [the Impala's ceiling superimposed with ceiling frescos of angels&demons] [Dean bloody in the ossory] [the body of Christ but it's Cas having sex] [confess] [repent] [deliver us from evil]

[purgaytorysupremacy]

intimate stabbing

outright obsession

confused pining

“no one knows me like you do”

lifelong promises that always suspiciously sound like wedding vows