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Yeah. That's exactly what I'm saying.

People like you are incapable of saying "this show just isn't for me", you have to turn it into THIS SHOW IS OBJECTIVELY MORALLY INCORRECT AND ANYONE WHO LIKES IT IS A BAD PERSON.

If I had a nickel for every time people acted this way toward a quirky cartoon full of gay themes created by the female show runner I'd have two nickels. But it doesn't seem coincidental that it happened twice.

Ok, ok, so I think I understand.

According to Sai Scribbles, a person who made a 4-hour long stream dedicated to defending Vivienne Medrano and calling her critics misogynists, people critical of creators like Vivienne Medrano who make any remotely boat-rocking and spicy take—especially when applying a Marxist reading when analyzing their work—that challenges the thesis of their art and their execution of its supposed themes are just moral goal-posting and need to be placated to in their media. Got it.

What a regressive stance to take.

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Courtney keeps accusing you of having "a server full of teenagers" when trying to call you a pedophile. Are there even any teenagers in your server, or is he just pulling that out of his ass to attack you?

There's a handful and we're mindful of them, it's like any other social media space. I certainly don't let them be moderators or encourage them to "predator hunt" or whatever.

In fact when I opened my Discord to the public as a Patreon and later Channel Member perk my biggest fear was I'd be surrounded by teenagers and not actually spend much time there. It's been a relief that my regular chatters tend to be in their 20s or older, even up to my own age.

So unlike Lio Convoy who "adopts" people and talks about them like they're his actual kids. And had the same teenage SA victim he advised to set up a camera to film their molestation as evidence living in his house for a time.

And unlike Courtney who acts like the kind of burnout who hangs around the high school desperate for the validation of teenagers thinking they're cool and has had multiple teens calling her "mom".

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Would lio “adopting” abuse victims just to berate and dehumanize them be classified as grooming? Like, there’s no doubt that they think all that yelling and threatening is normal.

Anyone who "adopts" strangers on the internet and calls themselves those people's true found family gets a side eye from me period.

Word of advice: if someone is trying to do that to you FUCKING RUN.

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Seems Courtney deleted that post. What a pussy

Oh so she did. The post in question:

The big bad bitch couldn't take her usually ass kissing teenage fans telling her "uh, yo, defending Lio's verbal abuse and torment of a mentally disabled woman isn't cool".

She's still defending it in the comments of her previous post though.

"Child engagement" yeah I'm not the one interacting one on one with teenagers on the internet and telling them to call me "mom".

And she's still raging about how I'm apparently the worst for laughing at the word "tangy" while looking at excerpts of Stockholm and doing an April Fools joke as a parody character "Seedy Orchid".

What she's calling me "dressing [my] channel up as a pedophile:"

(For an extra bit of irony: Seedy's design is meant to look like a knock off version of Lily's and her look is primarily inspired by an old boss I had who treated me poorly)

I'm still mystified at ANYONE getting mad that people actually verify the content of Stockholm so everyone KNOWS it's far FAR worse than just "Lily wrote clop during her brony days", which most people would just dismiss as an overreaction.

Hell this defense of "It's weirder for people to read Stockholm than it is that Lily wrote it" is the cover Lily and her sycophants run. How is unironically repeating it not giving her a shield, I wonder.

And Courtney says all this on her YouTube community posts where she has me hidden from her channel because she's suuuuch a tough "street mom" she can't confront me directly again after the last time didn't go so well for her.

She thought me giving her grace, telling my fans not to gossip or speculate about her in her clearly compromised mental state meant she could walk all over me I guess. Gloves are off now.

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My thing with the q slur stuff is I've had irl friends who use it as an umbrella and they all look at you funny if you say lgbt/lgbt+ instead of the q slur or if you say q slur instead of the word. Ppl will say "nobody's saying YOU have to use it" but then peer pressure you into using it (not to mention when ppl do guilt by association by saying t/r/rfs don't like it either)

Yeah exactly. Never in my life did I expect to be accused of being alt-right because I DON'T want to be called a gay slur.

The plot has been lost.

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Jesus christ I never knew about them holding her Facebook account hostage. What the fuck is wrong with these people.

Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different state's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

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Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different state's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

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Getting Close Was What Set Me Free

(Or: Why I Do This Work)

So I've come to realize that getting close to Lily was what set me free. And by that I mean: the reason I was able to finally see Lily for who she really is wasn’t because I stumbled across some damning document or a big exposé. It was because I got too close to her to keep lying to myself.

I was in her server from June to September 2024. Three months. Not long in the grand scheme of things, but long enough to change everything.

Before that, I was just a casual fan. I watched her videos, nodded along with a lot of her takes, maybe rolled my eyes at a few. But I still trusted her. I still believed in the version of herself that she presents—the version that’s loud, unfiltered, “honest to a fault,” as she might say. Someone who’s rough around the edges but ultimately good-hearted. Someone who "says what everyone else is thinking." That’s the version she wants you to see.

And for a while, I bought into it. A lot of people do. Especially if you’re neurodivergent, LGBT+, or otherwise looking for a voice that feels like it “gets” you. She markets herself directly to us—those who’ve been overlooked, who’ve been hurt, who want to believe that someone loud and confident must know what they’re talking about.

But once I got inside that server, once I was in her space every day, I saw the real Lily. Not the polished version, not the performance. The person.

It started small. Subtle acts of condescension toward her own viewers. Passive-aggressive remarks she clearly expected people to just “get.” The way she acted offended if someone asked a question she didn’t feel like repeating herself on. That kind of thing. It wasn’t abusive in an overt way at first. But it chipped away at you. It created this atmosphere where you always had to tiptoe around her mood. And if you didn’t? Well, you were either ignored, mocked, or quietly exiled.

What really changed things for me was realizing how much effort she puts into controlling the space around her. That’s what it comes down to. Control. Everything is about control—what people are allowed to say, what kind of questions are allowed, what “tone” you’re supposed to use when addressing her. And the more time you spend in that environment, the more you realize that nothing you say is ever just a question. It’s a potential offense. A potential threat. Every interaction with her is a test you can fail, and she gets to decide the rules.

The incest game folder is when I started going back to old allegations, to posts I’d brushed off as “haters” or “drama.” And suddenly everything clicked. It wasn’t just “cancel culture” or “jealous ex-friends.” These were patterns. These were consistent behaviors. And they matched exactly what I was now seeing firsthand.

That’s when I got out. But that’s also when I realized how dangerous her grip really is.

Because if I’d stayed a casual fan? I wouldn’t have looked any of that up. I wouldn’t have believed the claims. I would’ve kept assuming that anyone who criticized her was just bitter or couldn’t handle a “strong personality.” And that’s what scares me most. How many people are still in that mindset? How many people are still where I was?

That’s why I started documenting. That’s why I made this blog. Not to “get back at her,” not to cause drama. But to lay out the patterns. To name them. To put them in the light. Because they are recognizable—and not just in Lily. The same red flags show up in other online spaces, in other creators, in other parasocial relationships. And if this blog helps even one person get out of a toxic space, or recognize that they’re not crazy for feeling like something’s off? Then it’s worth it.

I do this because I’ve been there. I saw it up close. And I got out. Now I want to help others recognize what I did—before they get pulled in too deep.

This isn’t a callout blog. It’s a flashlight. And I’m just trying to shine it where it’s needed.

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Younger lgbt here to way in on queer. So hey anybody want to reclaim it for themselves. Fine. I’m fine with even the baby gays doing that. However I’ve noticed that a lot of straights started using it as a “umbrella term.” I don’t appreciate that, especially since I’ve used the term for myself to describe myself and that just seemed to emboldened a less than affirming straight person to use it. Straight people need to stop using “queer”. They feel like James Somerton changing gay to queer.

Yeah. One of my biggest problems is straight people are REALLY comfortable saying queer again all of a sudden. Overjoyed they can say it again, it seems. I've had real life friends think they can just start calling me queer out of the blue. Oh cause it's an "umbrella term" now right? So it's okay!

Except there are people who don't want to be called it. And yet we'll get told "But it's an umbrella term! But it's used in academia! But these organizations here say its been reclaimed! Why won't you just let me call you a queer, you queer!?"

And then the other argument: "Well so what if it means strange? What's wrong with being strange?" As if it's still not a word labeling being LGBT in of itself inherently strange. And then other "strange" people decide they can just appropriate the word queer because they all want a slice of the gay rights movement for some reason.

Now polyamory and kinks are "queer" too. So, conveniently, straight people who were never and would never have been impacted by queer as a pejorative? Why they get to be "queer" too! Cause queer is an umbrella term for all things WEIRD amirite?

Imagine doing this with any other group. Oh you don't identify with that word? It still describes you though because I said it does. Now get over it or else you're a bigot.

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Yes conveniently the straight conservative Christian man who constantly dodges accountability just mysteriously doesn't factor into the responsibility for his own actions.

Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different state's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

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Hey Sai do you think you could explain whatever the hell is going on between you and Courtney? All I’ve seen is her Youtube posts, and I’m confused. Also a bit horrified she is defending the Rosa call. There’s been something about cosplay, and some other things. I’m just confused, and while I don’t agree with everything you say 100% I don’t think you’re the literal internet devil like the people in Courtney’s comment section seem to believe based off how they act.

Coming here because Courtney doesn’t answer my questions and it’s stupid you get mad about something when I don’t know both sides of the story.

When she says I was "cosplaying a pedophile" what she means is I made an April Fools video performing a parody of Lily Orchard to satirize how bad her videos are:

Because I'm an entertainer. Like I've always said.

Courtney claims she isn't spreading ridiculous bullshit like this because she's angry I didn't center her in my community, but, well, come to your own conclusions.

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Does this mean she also knows that Lio defended her sister or the incident with Jorden…or what about Lio grooming Peaches and others to be his internet kids?

Considering Courtney has no problem letting troubled teenagers online call her "mom" ... no I don't think she cares about the creepy "adopted internet kids" thing.

"I'm the one responsible for keeping it not weird" Yeah well you failed at the second you have kids calling you "mom".

The people totally protecting children online, everyone.

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Yeah almost like you tend to find neurodivergent people in high numbers on the internet because it is a good way for us to build community with each other in an environment we can understand and navigate.

Oh but it's Rosa's fault she fell victim to a petty ass pathetic man who can only feel like he's accomplished in life if he's verbally abusing mentally disabled 20-somethings.

Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different sysye's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

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Yeah this whole line of reasoning that well if Rosa is so disabled why is she online AT ALL is batshit insane. Lio is responsible for his own actions. Lio made the decision to berate this woman for hours on end because he was mad he wasn't getting his way with Stargiant. And Lio took no responsibility. His "apology" was basically "I'm sorry that Peaches started it Rosa is still a liar though".

Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different sysye's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

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You hear that Courtney's young neurodivergent fans? If you don't want to get yelled at by a power tripping loser for 4 hours for the crime of not even being able to ban someone from a fucking Discord server you just shouldn't be on the internet.

Again: what kids did this help?

Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different state's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

[purpledemonlilyposting]

Ok I’m completely done giving Courtney any sympathy because I genuinely thought she had a right to be miffed about how people were handling Lily even if I disagreed and thought she had crossed several lines. But she is now defending the Rosa call and saying it was fine for Lio so scream at a disabled woman because she is an adult and how she would have called Rosa worse names, and she is arguing with people in the comments about who said what and completely ignoring all the people telling her that Rosa couldn’t block people like that info goes against her beliefs so she isn’t responding to them.

No fucking shot...

Wow so she's really defending Lio and his little butt buddy Peaches verbally abusing a mentally disabled woman with literal brain damage for 4 hours because she didn't ban someone from a Discord server when she didn't even have permissions to ban people. And because the server owner had already blocked Lio so he found someone else to lord his petty little internet power over.

So Courtney you're okay with him telling this woman he hopes she doesn't breed? That her mother, her caretaker, will kick her out of the house for this? With him and Peaches making fun of her speech impediment she has from the literal brain damage from her seizures? And you know how Lio just consistently targets vulnerable people half his age with mental issues?

This is a new low.

What kids did that help? What kids has Lio ever helped? He doesn't even know how to report properly. He didn't even know what RAINN and the Center for Missing and Exploited Children are. He thought he could just report things to his local police that are happening on the internet in a different state's jurisdiction and they'd magically escalate it to the FBI. He's not even good at this, it's just what he uses as an excuse to act like his own abusive father to people who can't fight back.

I have no idea what she thinks Lio is gonna do for her if she's willing to just hand wave all the terrible shit he does to vulnerable people.

Ask him about Jordan, the SA victim he advised when they were 16 to set up a camera to film in case their mother's boyfriend molested them again. There was no penetration, you see, so that made it fine for him to suggest in his mind. He then had this same kid at his house, started treating them poorly after they transitioned and blamed them for his cat with FIV dying. Cause he cares so much about victims you guys.

[purpledemonlilyposting]

My stance on the word Queer is this: If an lgbtq+ person wants to reclaim it and have it empower them, good for them. If you call me (an old lesbian) queer I am punching you in the throat, especially if you say 'but we need to reclaim it so it loses its slur meaning'. I don't care, you wanna use it you do you but I grew up in the days when it was far more damaging and I do not want to be called that.

So if people want to reclaim it, go right ahead. But don't call people it if they tell you they don't want to be called that. Not everyone wants to reclaim the slur.

My problem is people will go "Oh of course you don't have to call yourself queer if you don't identify with that word... but it is an umbrella term that includes you and if you don't just accept that without question you're a bad person."

Cause, uh, that doesn't really sound like I'm being given a choice.