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FACEBOOK BREAKDOWNS

Back in 2015 I posted one of many posts that year indicatived of a person having a mental breakdown. I wasn't the first to over share, I had seen other "Friends" have incoherent ramblings, some spewing forth vindictive screeds, some begging for help. Gone were the perfect photos and updates on perfect lives. The concept of putting window dressing on our lives. Before Facebook I had profiles on MySpace, Hi5, Friendster and America Online, or is it America On Line, AOL. I have had Match, Sparkmatch and OKCupid, fast forward a dozen years or so and I never did create a profile on Plenty O'Fish, dating sites I mean.

Facebook, in my opinion, was not a dating site, it was a social networking site, a way to keep in touch with friends and family, now the family part is where it gets tricky. "No, Dad, Facebook, what's that? Never heard of it." Well, I suppose dear old pop must have heard through the grapevine about Gen X/Millenials gathering place. AOL was for Boomer/Gen X. I don't know what the new ones are, or what the year groups really are to give us generational labels. I figure generational divides are more indicative of the cultural differences. My younger brothers are five and six years younger than me. We are "on the cusp" to use a astrological terms. I was born in 1975, my brothers 1980 and 1981 respectively.

I was the first in our family to own and work a computer, a COMMODORE 64. Later in life, when I entered college, we had a computer lab in the library with MacIntoshes and PCs, I do not remember the brand of the PCs we used. I do purchased a personal computer for myself to be able to do school work from my bedroom. The internet connection was a with a dial up modem. I am curious how many are out there that are still using such a medium to connect with. AOL will be important later.

Back to the beginning. In 2015, after some rather interesting events at a South American drug induced hysteria in a "healing group" I returned with a newfound awareness of the interNET. Remember that part where I tried to avoid sharing my social media personal life with my dad? It's akin to hanging out with my dad and social group of peers at the same time. There are parts of my young life I did not want to share, as my life is what I can only describe as embarrassing. Such as sneaking off to a dark corner to partake in no-no activities such as smoking the marijawana and being a naughty boy with the "bad influence" friends. What other things does one not want their parents to find? Pornography, there, I am being a mature adult and using the word openly. It is shameful, or at least it once was to discuss such livacious topics openly and bluntly. In December of 2014, I was roommates with a woman who was 15 years younger than me, and that is very scandalous if it was 10 years prior, actually, in 2004 I would have been arrested and thrown in prison with a pink jumpsuit for dating a female 15 years younger than me.

I have been in hiding since 2001 for dating a young woman almost 9 years younger than me, I have not dated a lot of the female species. Prior to that year I had "talked" online to quite a lot of women older and younger as in real life, I am ridden with social anxiety, awkwardness, insecurity and other mental and emotional stigmas that made it difficult. Today I feel I am eloquant and able to navigate social spheres and situations decently. Still, that does not mean the internet does not remember nor that those gossip spreaders, the Whisper Network, from pre-online days does not still exist. I was thrown to the ground by a group of four men, kicked and stomped on while they yelled "PEDOPHILE" at the top of their lungs in the PROGRESSIVE AUTO INSURANCE parking lot across the street from where I have lived for almost two years. To clarify, I dated a 17 year old in 2001 when I was 25. She was my first girlfriend since my first "official" girlfriend broke up with me after getting pregnant by another guy when she was 19 and I was 21. My first girlfriend had a baby when she was 15, before I met her via AOL, otherwise, I would probably never have even had a girlfriend.

I stepped out to have a cigarrette on my balcony and see that the sign is PROGRESSIVE, no AUTO INSURANCE in the name, thus "assumptions" or rather, "assume makes an ass out of u and me."

Internet porn. My brother and I shared my computer when I was his roommate, I do not know if you are one who has ever typed in "naked cheerleader" in a search field. My has been a mute cripple for the better part of a decade, probably because he had sex with a 15 year old when he was a 15 year old, or where they 16, regardless, current year men kill other men in order to have a woman, that's the truth. I didn't drink nor smoke until was 22 or 23 years old, my roommate had to listen to me scream and cry into my pillow "why don't girls like me." Perhaps I was 22 when I had my first official girlfriend. We were boyfriend and girlfriend before meeting in person, that's another story however. When I was 15 my 14 year old neighbor girl had a boyfriend with a car who was over 30, in high school I had a rather cute yearbook editor who was 17 whom allegedly had a 34 year old "gang banger" boyfriend who would pick her up from school. Is that true or gossip. All I know is that I was living with a 24 year old single mother when I was 39 years old, then I heard the audio call of a rather rich and powerful NBA owner named Donald Sterling crying about his 24 year old mistress with whom he shared with his basketball team crying about optics and being photographed with them as apparently it was bad for her image. He was an 80 year old man, I was put in the hospital over three years ago with a shattered leg in a street assault. I think they named my generation Gen X as in X-termination.

That computer I shared with my younger brother? The old laptops I gave him and our dad? In 2015 I posted an Facebook screed explaining how software like Napster(which I had installed on to originally download songs) maintains a record of our uploads and downloads, seeders and leachers. My brother was scared as he knew we was being stalked by vigilantes, I think it was an old man who wanted his girlfriend.

We are only Leaches, Sam Seeders

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RHPS

1 AMERICAN WAY Ruby Spacek

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going it alone is gone

Like a chapter in a book, a novella left in a hostel drawer, eras when we were young and creative, the world at the tip of our fingers. Opportunities to be seen, heard, read, viewed from all directions. Not those introverted weirdos our high school jocks and bullies made us out to be, but beautiful butterflies waiting to be born form the coccoon nut of a sluggish caterpillar, we were hip, and trendy, we knew how to use the internet, we could even do a bit of brogramming, "Hello World" from the Thin Blue Edge, 2000, a brave new world where no longer would those with the biggest brawndo, the machismias maximo rule the school yard. We had the bloggosphere at our fingers, we had our usenet, we had our forums, we had our e-zines, we had our email newsletters. Most importantly, we were Anonymous, Agents of Angst, Kurt Cobain, Alice in Chains, Grunge against the hair metal of those Kool Kids, the world would fear us, love us, they had already laughed at us, our ecclectic thrift store fashion, counter to those American Eagle Elite and their parents' credit cards. It was all just a matter of time. We Talk Pretty Someday, Davids versus Goliaths ready to be born, to triumphantly march out from behind the electronic screens and into your nightmares, Tis I0!!! Your internet lover, your AOL Dream Boo. We must have reached the epoch, the crescendo of our digital age sometime around 2016, when a new generation of hungry counter culture icons found that they could sway the world and course of history through tweets, those of us from the gritty days of MySpace, Hi5, FaceBook, adapting, changing, fleeing from Boomer Oppression, "no dad, I don't have a FaceBook." Perhaps we should have seen the day, the Snapchats, the Minds, the Nings, one million nodes on a Drupal. We didn't need a publishing firm, grammatical perfection, "Industry Standard" line spacing or font. Reading my gmail in reverse order, instead of going down the 6133 gmails, I'm starting with the oldest first. So on Feb 23, 2022, 8:18AM, I missed this short fiction piece from Michele Catalano from There Goes The Neighborhood, and with the timewave of life, our brief connections, our reconnections our missed connections, washed away in the flash floods of life and digital overload. I am sorry I missed your email, bills piled up, I began competing with likes, clicks and views with the A-Hole in the room next to me, bad mouthing the Marvelverse, a DC Plant, giving bad reviews to my poetry, HOW DARE YOU AH-AVA!!! My own substack logon is lost, as well as my fandom, into the internet abyss with dozens, if not hundreds of logons from over 25 years of free content. Thank you Persian Kitty, Pirate Bay, thank you content thieves, art critics, grammar nazis for allowing anyone with a smartphone to entreat into the domain of Gamers and Game Journalism, what's a kiwifarmer? Who is Unburndt Witch? Who am I and why should I care, all I know is I clicked on the link to read the store and Michelle gave up. And that makes me sad.

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The Devil You Know

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Comic Book Ads

I am of a certain generation of boys who ordered products from the advertisement catalogs in comic books. Education can be fun.

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What is Love

Can you love someone you never met?

https://emilystrange.com/

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Hi, my name is Tim Pool and I'm a thief

I can't find my own posts, IP Thieves

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Hi, my name is Kevin and I'm a pornography addict

I saw mom/son porn on the internet and everything made perfect sense.

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JACK BLACK FRIDAY

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The Internet Can’t Stop Laughing At Keanu Reeves Doing Things (26 Pics)

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I'm glad kept these notebooks

I have so many more I didn't think of keeping as when I was much younger I thought I'd live forever and now these are the only memories I have left of Novembers past. I got so busy I missed my life.

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Where Art Thou FANDOM

Heard a appdrop for the latest trusted movie review site, made me go look at a classic in my www archi from the pre-Twitter world.

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I Once Was A Butterfly...

who dreamed it was a man, so now i wonder, who dreams below our feet that IT is a dragon sleeping and dreaming of the day GREED awakens sleeping Dragonfly

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Voting Is In

"Not Adele"

"Not Imke"

"Not Chloé"

"Not Charlotte"

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Glen Beck is gay

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BOB DYLAN

I spoke to a fellow Gen Xer tonight who did not know who Bob Dylan is, i haven't heard anything to the contrary about Gramps

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