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Journal entry for 27/1/25 //

I was very sick not even two weeks ago... and yet here I am with an extremely runny nose, sour throat, etc. overall feeling very congested. That feeling when you try to sniffle only to find your nose is blocked is my arch nemesis. Slightly worried that maybe this is my hayfever kicking in much earlier than usual, which would be many times worse than a cold.

I woke up with 4 new spots today and to the revelation that I was completely out of concealer, setting spray and salicylic acid and deoderant so I had to run to the drugstore and spend the cash I had on me. o(TヘTo)

On the bright side!! Spotted a cool mag in the shop today. Top 200 goth albums (not bands) of all time!! Spoiler alert: Disentigration by The Cure is number one. Sisters of Mercy's First and Last and Always is number two. Can't say I disagree with that! I don't usually buy magazines cause they can be extortionately priced, but honestly, this was one of those things you need to get, esp. if you live in a small town and don't get to outwardly express being part of certain cultures or even just interested in ones like goth. Also, the best part of getting mags is that you can cut the pictures out and stick them on your bedroom walls / in your diary when you're finished reading. Anddd if you haven't heard of any the albums in the mag... you now have new listening material to broaden your musical horizons! ＼(￣▽￣)／

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Journal entry for 25/1/25 //

Today I got woken up early to go to the beach. My dog found a football and kept running up and down with it and making me chase her around – surprise suprise, she got covered in sand (and me by default, hehe).

I haven't gone to the beach in a really long time and honestly it was really nice. I need to start going outside more and experiencing things that I used to love. Small stuff like just talking a walk on a windy day. I enjoyed it a lot!

Went to bed when I got home for like 4 hours. Not too proud to say I only got out of bed at like 7.30 to go take a shower. The worst thing about showering is having to dry your hair afterwards cause mine is super thick and heavy and takes forever. It's been really soft since last time I went to the hairdressers though, so that's definitely a plus

I gotta work tomorrow and it's always the worst part of my weekend. Sunday shift is always practically empty but the build up to going into work is always worse than the actual shift lol.

Pretty slow saturday. I love sleeping more than anything, and I can sleep all day tomorrow until I gotta work. I'm looking forward to it so much. I haven't been having as many nightmares lately which is a relief to be sure and I can't really remember most of the dreams I've had recently so they don't bother me as much.

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I think probably my worst personality trait is that I have soooo many ambitions, but I never do anything to try and kickstart actually achieving them. Like yeah, I wanna be in a band, but I'm not actually going to learn how to play an instrument. And yeah, I want to be a grade A student and eat less junk food and start going to the gym, but I'm never actually going to do it. I wanna wear cool outfits and write novels and actually do something with my life, but I end up sleeping the day away instead.

And now I've told myself I'll start writing my thoughts down on my tumblr blog. We'll see just how long that lasts...(￢_￢;)