furuba taught me how to have compassion for myself
Basically a personal scrapbook / archive. Untagged spoilers.
I only randomly come on here these days. 24yo. Any pronouns. If someone were to ask my gender or sexuality I would send them an OHSHC gif.
My child self said something like my aesthetic involves cats, books, nighttime, and bioluminescence.
15 year old google psychologist on tiktok: you HAVE to be PROFESSIONALLY DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM or else youre a FAKER whos STEALING RESOURCES from ACTUAL PEOPLE WITH AUTISM
psychiatrist: you dont act autistic. ok well i guess you acted autistic as a kid but not now so clearly something changed. whats masking?
psychiatrist: you experience a lot of traits of autism but you made eye contact with me for a bit so you cant be autistic
psychiatrist: you cant be autistic because youre too smart
psychiatrist: well you experience profound symptoms of autism but your brothers already diagnosed with autism and thats not possible for you both to be
psychiatrist: ok you seem autistic however youre a teenage girl. have you considered you might have borderline personality disorder/bipolar disorder instead?
*also when you get diagnosed*
psychiatrist: i cant advocate for your disabling ptsd to the government, i can only do autism. yes i know your autism isnt the actual problem here but have you considered that youre just being autistic about it?
psychiatrist: i cant write a letter of recommendation for gender affirming care because youre autistic. yes i know you work a full time job and live independently but youre not capable of making these decisions
psychiatrist: *doesnt try to treat/talk about anything but the autism*
the 15 year old again: i know you SAID youre diagnosed with autism but i dont believe you because anyone can say that, so im going to continue to harrass you about it anyway