interesting how you can live your life focusing on one trauma and then be like i don’t have trauma in other areas my trauma is Focused and Specific on this One Thing and then when that thing kind of gets resolved its like congratulations welcome to level 2 - the Hidden Traumas
glad to pay my own rent and to live in minneapolis and to have so many houseplants that i feel constantly surrounded by nature. glad i have a job even though it’s not what i want, glad i can provide for myself, glad that my partner is moving in with me soon and glad that i didnt kms in the past if im going to be FOR REAL.
i think my life is very different from what i pictured it being at 15 or even 18 or even 21 but i think that where i was uncertain about what my life would look like, i have found some kind of peace that i never thought was really possible. tbh im in a good place right now even though this is not what i would have told you i wanted as a high school student.