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I fucking hate the way that every year, they leave me alone with terrified dogs who I have to comfort for several hours while they all go on their merry way to watch fireworks. I can’t leave them alone or they’ll fuck up the house and themselves. Someone l needs to stay with them and I do it every fucking time even though it’s stressful and overwhelming and I hate it.

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I was just thinking how great it is that I’d started falling asleep at an acceptable 3:30am every night. And then I promptly stopped being able to sleep pretty much at all. It takes so long to even doze off and then I’m only halfway asleep the entire time. I’m exhausted.

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As an autistic person, you can literally tell someone "I mean this genuinely and literally and this is all genuinely good faith. I mean this all completely neutrally, I'm not implying anything else and this is all extremely literal and good faith" and someone will still misconstrue you in ways you never thought was possible.

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I made a dumb mistake in my inquiry to a taxidermist ohhh my goddddddd

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Eating half the snack foods in someone’s house, drinking three cans of soda knowing they rarely ever buy it, and then acting like you’re just funny and hungry when they call you out on wasting all the food is weird and rude as fuck. And the fact that this isn’t the only person who does that is weird. They don’t do this at their houses, they even admit it. What the fuck.

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brokeback mountain, the handmaiden, moonlight, portrait of a lady on fire - true love, richard siken / thomas yingling, Hart Crane and the Homosexual Text

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Please stop saying this shit is relatable oh my goddddd I’m telling you those are not the experiences the characters are coming from their mindsets are coming from completely different places and you won’t listennnn

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Introducing my friend to these books is quickly becoming not enjoyable‼️

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due to personal reasons i will be coping in maladaptive ways

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sorry for showing symptoms of the disorder i told you multiple times I have. Do you want me to kill myself?

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Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky, from a letter featured in The Life & Letters of Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky

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Wanting to make things and draw and write but having very little creativity feels a bit like a prison sometimes

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Yessss another day of my dad complaining about me to my mother and refusing to communicate with me because he thinks that me trying to understand and have a conversation about it is me being defiant and argumentative 😍

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I’ve had to start getting new clothes because my stomach sticks out so much that a lot of my shorts and pants have become uncomfortable. No body dysmorphia bullshit, I look several months pregnant and I fucking hate it. I want to be okay with it but everything looks ridiculous on me. I hope to god it’s a medical issue or some easy fix and this isn’t just how I hold weight.

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I think I just feel worse about it in the warm months because that’s when everything went so well and so wrong.

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What happened to I promise..

Did you mean anything you said?