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[rachiebarbraberry]

To all my old friends,

Hey, long time no see. I can’t believe this blog still exists, but in spite of myself, I have stubbornly refused to delete it. I have chosen to leave it up to the Tumblr gods to erase, either by the natural passage of time or by this website burning to the ground. To my surprise, it still hasn’t. My last login was several years ago. The wretched old rachiebarbraberry was so old that Tumblr archived it, adding -blog to the end and leaving it to rot. I logged in, restored the URL, and left it.

I never visit this blog. It burns my retinas, to be frank. But I always think, hey, maybe some little Glee freak will stumble upon it and see my improvement and go, “Maybe I can do that, too.” Or maybe an old friend of mine still stops by from time to time to reminisce. I hope one of you does, and I hope you see this.

I had this blog during the worst years of my life. I left, then came back, then left again. Maybe I repeated that cycle a few times. Memory is fleeting. I was a teenager, and many teenagers are not good people. I’d like to think I’m a good person now. 

I wrote this post to say that I made it. I’m still alive! I know, I’m surprised, too. My writing, preserved here from 2011 in its rawest, most horrible form, has improved immeasurably. I got a degree in it! Meg, now with a BA in English Literature. I have a job that I love. I’m a writer! I even work from home. I’m telling you this, my perhaps invisible audience, because it was all thanks to you.

To my dearest Kurt, my Brittany, my Blaine, my Finn, and all the rest who came and went, I’m here because of you. You saved me from myself when I was at my lowest, no small task for a teenager to give another teenager. I’ll forever be grateful for the impact all of you had on my life, from outright saving it to sharpening the writing skills that have brought me to where I am today. I’m sorry I was a horrible teenager, I’m sorry I left so many times and always in such a hurry, but just know that I still think of you fondly. I hope you think of me fondly, too, in spite of all things.

Thank you all. This will be the final post on rachiebarbraberry, but I might pop in from time to time to keep an eye on my inbox here. Drop me a line if you want to chat, to reminisce, to check in, any and all of the above. Anonymous will do, just leave a name and a contact, and I’ll do the rest.

As a final note, to all the weird little writers here, you can do it, too. Just practice. It’s all practice. And to anyone having a hard time… It’s cheesy, but just know it gets better. I think that was a line from Glee, or something like it, but my memories of the show are dripped in a haze now, and I leave it that way to rest.

Take care, Meg ⭐️

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↳ @RACHELBERRY UPLOADED A PHOTO TO INSTAGRAM.

No better way to spend between-show breaks. ♥ Featuring flowers generously picked by the one and only Judebug and the always camera ready Stella-Ella.

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I knew it! I knew it!!! You are going to be the perfect Melchior --- alongside my perfect Wendla, of course. Notice the italicization on both fronts. Believe me, the crazy schedule will be so worth it.

I can kiss my sorry ass goodbye.

Not really, but– basically my entire schedule is going to be cuh-razyyyy for awhile because I was getting my usual drink at this juice place I found and guess what type of call I got in the middle of ordering?

That’s right, you guessed it– I’m going to be Spring Awakening on Broadway’s new Melchior Gabor. Now I have a reason behind listening to the soundtrack instead of pretending I’m not listening to it.

So, well, that’s my news. Has anyone else gotten any cool news recently?

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We can do that later. Are you okay?

PRIVATE ➞ HUMMELBERRY.

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Kurtz --- that wasn’t the news. I’m moving. Temporarily, while Brittany’s away. I’m going back to our old apartment. Stella and Jude need stability; their mommy’s gone and most of their lives have been spent in those bedrooms, that living room. They need familiarity.

PRIVATE ➞ HUMMELBERRY.

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TWITTER FEED ➞  @MACEMCCARTHY

@MACEMCCARTHY: shoutout to both @rachelberry and @kurtelliothummel for their scooby doo behaviors today.

@MACEMCCARTHY: also thanks to @spencerporternews and @themadisonmccarthy for being my support system. you guys rock! [victory hand emoji]

@MACEMCCARTHY: now to watch my sister kick ass in #OnceOnBroadway

@RACHELBERRY: YOU WERE AH-MAZING!!!

@RACHELBERRY: Not that we were watching, of course.

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PRIVATE ➞ HUMMELBERRY.

I need to tell you something. Something starting wtih Brittany left New York to travel the world for an undisclosed and potentially unkown amount of time in an Eat-Pray-Love-type search for her soul.

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I had every intention of explaining our current situation when the right time presented itself. 

I thought Rachel would have mentioned something to you by now…

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@rachiebarbraberry: 'Third drink’ status? #allthisandatonytoo @kurtelliothummel ★ (via instagram)

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Mama, the weeping Mama, the angels

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TWITTER FEED ➞  @MACEMCCARTHY

@MACEMCCARTHY: The funniest part is I literally thought about that on our way to the Tony's. I'm impressed. So good.

@MACEMCCARTHY: Don't play innocent it doesn't look good on you, Rach.

@MACEMCCARTHY: Also, I'm deciding to do it, btw.

@MACEMCCARTHY: NOT BECAUSE OF YOUR INFLUENCE YOU ATTEMPTED TONIGHT.

@RACHELBERRY: OHMYGOD!!! THIS IS AMAZING!!!

@RACHELBERRY: BEST!! NIGHT!!! EVER!!!!

@RACHELBERRY: Everybody congratulate my very best friend, @KURTELLIOTHUMMEL, on his Tony win and wish @MACEMCCARTHY luck in his inevitable and currently unspecified success!

[rachiebarbraberry]

TWITTER FEED ➞  @MACEMCCARTHY

@MACEMCCARTHY: YESSSSSSSSSS MY BOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [100 emoji] [clapping emoji] [clapping emoji] [clapping emoji] [clapping emoji] [clapping emoji] [heart emoji] #tonys2015

@MACEMCCARTHY: also kudos to the spring awakening cast for being able to censor their songs #itriednottolaughoutloud #tonys2015

@MACEMCCARTHY: ALSO BEING SUBTLE IS NOT SOMETHING RACHEL BARBRA BERRY ☆ KNOWS HOW TO DO.

@RACHELBERRY: Censorship at its finest. ☆

@RACHELBERRY: I've no idea what you're talking about, Mr. McCarthy.

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You did it! Kurtz, you did it!

Is this – did that – that was my name … is this even real – –

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That’s my best friend! That’s my best friend!!!

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@rachiebarbraberry: Performance ready! #tonys2015 (via instagram)

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You know I didn’t mean it like that, Brittany.

Right. Of course. I trust you have their best interests in mind.

Right. Pleasantries over, huh? Does tomorrow at five work for you? I was hoping to treat you to dinner at your favorite vegan place, but if you don’t have time for food, I can rearrange.

Just us, by the way. I don’t think the babies would understand much being said anyways. I’ll explain it to them this weekend.

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It’s different when you’re on stage. Believe me. Boring is the last word that comes to mind. It’s purely exhilarating. And Mason, this is a rock musical. It’s a great idea. Just --- listen to me. You’ll have time to work on your music. Kurtz and I just performed for a huge crowd at 54 Below. You can do this. Let me get you a script at the very least. You can read it and think it over.

Rachel…

Rachel, I literally can’t even follow the plotline of Once when I watch my sister perform because I think shows can get boring. What makes you think I can even act in one? I– I don’t know. This doesn’t sound like a good idea. What if I audition and then I don’t get in? Then that’d be dumb of me to even try. Plus, my music, you know? I don’t want to get distracted.