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eyes need a smaller screen so mobile for the night. i'll be on discord and wire for anya if anyone wants to chat. nighty fam!

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🐝  *  ―  𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑽𝑰𝑵𝑮/𝑩𝑬𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑳𝑬𝑭𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

BEING LEFT ❛  wait! you can't just leave me here alone!  ❜ ❛  i don't know how to live in a world where i'm all alone.  ❜ ❛  everyone i've ever loved has either left or died.  ❜ ❛  i'm not yet ready for it to end.  ❜ ❛  will we ever see each other again?  ❜ ❛  please! you promised! you promised you'd never leave.  ❜ ❛  if you leave now, i'll never forgive you.  ❜ ❛  are you really going to leave after everything we've been through?  ❜ ❛  how am i supposed to keep on like before when you're not here anymore?  ❜ ❛  i knew this day would come, but i hoped it wouldn't be today.  ❜ ❛  please don't go. not yet. just stay a little longer ...  ❜ ❛  don't just walk away. say something, anything, before you go.  ❜ ❛  so that's it? you're just ... gone?  ❜ ❛  you can't just walk away like none of this meant anything!  ❜ ❛  why does everyone i love always leave?  ❜ ❛  i should've known better than to think you'd stay.  ❜ ❛  is it really that easy for you to walk away?  ❜ ❛  you said we'd face the world together. now i have to face it alone.  ❜ ❛  if you're going, at least look me in the eyes and say goodbye.  ❜ ❛  i don't have the strength to watch you walk away again.  ❜

LEAVING ❛  i'm sorry, but i cannot stay here any longer.  ❜ ❛  for once, i'm trying to do the right thing.  ❜ ❛  you don't need me here anymore. you've always been stronger on your own.  ❜ ❛  i wish staying was enough. i really do.  ❜ ❛  don't look at me like that. if i don't walk away now, i never will.  ❜ ❛  one day, you'll understand why i have to walk away.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could stay, but this isn't my place anymore.  ❜ ❛  don't wait for me. i don't know when ... if i'll be back.  ❜ ❛  i wish there was another way. but there isn't.  ❜ ❛  this isn't goodbye because i don't care. it's because i do. too much.  ❜ ❛  this goodbye is the hardest thing i've ever had to do.  ❜ ❛  i'm leaving because i love you too much to keep hurting you.  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry i couldn't be what you needed me to be.  ❜ ❛  i have to go find who i am without all this.  ❜ ❛  just because i'm leaving doesn't mean i stopped caring.  ❜ ❛  i'm not running. i'm just done waiting.  ❜ ❛  every step i take away from here is breaking me.  ❜ ❛  i can't keep pretending this place feels like home.  ❜ ❛  the hardest part isn't leaving. it's knowing you'll be here when i'm not.  ❜ ❛  sometimes goodybe is the kindest thing we can say.  ❜

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KPOP DEMON HUNTERS (2025) ⊱ rp prompt

change pronouns and adjust as needed.

you will be so much more than that.

demons have always haunted our world.

that duty falls to you.

that victory is within your reach.

that's not even a real number.

there's no water in these.

how can you be late?

i didn't even get to finish my ramyeon!

why do they always interrupt our snacking?

they will face my wrath!

now you gotta die.

ugh, you came at a bad time.

you just crossed the line.

i understand you are weak.

and you dare to mock me with it?

i'm not here to mock you.

i'm here to help you.

it's time for a new strategy.

what makes you think that could work?

you've never done a single thing that didn't serve yourself.

that was weird.

we already have plans.

i can't wait to eat kimbap and stare at the ceiling.

sounds super boring. i'm so down.

we literally just sat down.

i can handle this. i'm not having a nervous breakdown.

you always say no.

you sound exactly like her.

no. we gotta hide and fix it.

earthy and herby. smells legit to me.

hurry, before someone sees us.

in order to heal a part, we must understand the whole.

you have a lot of walls up.

watch yourself.

they're not even that cute.

i'm gonna throw up.

no, it's too public.

don't eat that!

let's go kill these guys.

hard to say goodbye when we're having fun.

make it stop.

wow. did you really follow us here?

we're not here to fight.

whoa! mind the face.

surprisingly, your plan is working.

it's a lot more serious than i thought.

is that bird wearing a tiny hat?

wow, i wasn't expecting a hug, but ...

i thought the mannequin was gonna be a fun icebreaker. but i see i was wrong.

hey! i just wanna talk.

but first, i wanna talk about those pants.

you were supposed to be dead.

i could've told your friends what you are.

that's none of your business.

i know what it feels like to have them.

is that what you think?

you're not good enough for them.

you know you can tell me. i'll understand.

i'm nothing like you.

denial. i get it.

i'll be here when you're done pretending.

there won't be a next time.

are you a prisoner too?

thanks for having my back.

we keep meeting like this.

i didn't think you liked sharing.

should i tell them?

i'm gonna tell them. eventually.

are you whispering?

your secret's safe with me.

i'm helping myself.

i'm pretty good at reading people. actually, i'm kind of an expert at it.

i just can't shake this feeling that you're keeping something from me.

i'm not keeping anything rom you.

sorry, i sound nuts.

yeah. eternal suffering. sounds fun.

you made me come all the way out here so you could jumpscare me?

i'm glad you'er finally ready to talk.

you could've picked somewhere nicer for a date.

you're so old.

this is strictly a business meeting.

i am a mistake. have been since the moment i was born.

excuse me? i'm everyone's type.

i see why you're single.

see? we'd never work.

go find yourself a better boy.

this one's hopeless.

that's the funny thing about hope. nobody else gets to decide if you feel it. that choice belongs to you.

for what it's worth, i don't think you're a mistake.

i just want you to know i'm here for literally anything you need.

seriously, what is your problem?

not everything is about your insecurities, [name]!

what's with the long faces?

you killed your family.

don't forget about our deal, [name].

i'm kind of a difficult person.

something's wrong.

i knew it was too good to be true.

don't leave!

say you didn't do this. how could you do this?

it was all a lie.

it was real! what we had was real. i know it was.

i just needed you to trust me. that's all.

that's right, i lied to you.

i thought i could fix it all.

thi sis what i am.

why can't you look at me?

why couldn't you love me?

you come here like this?

you can't even fix yourself.

i'm sorry for everything.

i wanted to set you free.

you gave me my soul back.

this feels amazing.

see what you've been missing?

i'm so happy you didn't, like, die.

wow, [name], way to be super literal.

i definitely feel recharged.

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anywho gonna go hide now but the movie was good.

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watched kpdh and will be making a verse for anya , in which her and her brother and friend are russian rapping trio who also hunt demons. also for those who follow my private mm i will be adding mira.

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GUESS I SHOULD TAKE SOMETHING FOR THE PAIN BEFORE I WATCH KPOPDH. i already know it's gonna trigger a migraine because the trailer did , but i don't wanna miss out like i did when everyone was on the spiderverse stuff , so we endure the pain for the FOMO.

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If  they  had  managed  to  stay  outside  of  the  life  that  was  their  prison  ,  Anya  might  have  been  hearing  that  compliment  under  different  circumstances.         (  actually  they  definitely  would  have.  )   They  had  been  working  on  that  in  the  months  that  they  spent  in  hiding.   It  was  hard  for  her  to  grasp  ,  ┈┈  but  eventually  she  found  that  it  actually  felt  good  when  praised.   Only  for  that  progress  to  be  broken  down  so  fiercely  when  they  were  brought  back.

Anya  looked  back  to  Yasha  ,  ┈┈  watching  the  handlers  load  her  up  to  take  her  to  the  infirmary.   She  thought  about  asking  if  she  would  be  okay  ,         (  but  she  knew  better  than  to  even  let  someone  know  they  were  thinking  that.  )   At  this  point  it  was  hard  to  tell  what  would  effect  her  ,  ┈┈  and  what  would  effect  Jamie  if  she  slipped  up.   The  not  knowing  was  what  kept  her  in  line  the  most.   Doubting  anything  they  were  willing  to  do  was  a  mistake  that  had  lethal  consequences.

But  it  was  hard  to  think  Yasha  taking  the  pain  was  any  better.   She  knew  that  was  the  goal  the  Red  Room  turn  the  girls  against  one  another.         (  it  was  the  only  way  to  keep  them  dependent  on  you…and  not  each  other.  )   But  even  after  all  of  that  ,  even  after  all  that  they  had  done  to  turn  her  into  nothing  but  pure  rage  ,  ┈┈  she  still  hated  what  she  did  day  after  day.   She  was  just  silent  about  it  now.

She  was  thankful  it  was  over  for  not  at  least  ,  ┈┈  even  though  she  knew  the  day  was  far  from  over  ,  it  was  nice  to  know  she  was  done  with  hurting  people  for  now.  Anya  let  out  an  almost  relieved  breath  ,  before  turning  to  leave  the  greater  training  room  the  rest  of  the  girls  practiced  in.         (  better  for  her…and  more  importantly  better  for  them.  )   Before  long  there  wouldn't  be  too  many  suited  to  handle  her  ,  ┈┈  and  for  some  reason  that  made  her  nervous.

Once  they  were  out  of  the  larger  room  ,  heading  back  to  where  most  of  her  training  took  place  ,  ┈┈  she  happened  to  look  down  and  notice  splatters  of  blood  on  her  hands  and  arms.   Left  over  from  the  heft  beating  that  had  definitely  been  too  much.   There  was  a  huff  ,  before  she  started  scrubbing  at  the  blood  there.   Subtly  at  first  ,  ┈┈  but  increased  her  efforts  when  it  only  smeared  around  some  more.   “  Stupid  ,  stupid  girl.  ”   She  muttered  to  herself  under  her  breath  through  her  teeth.   She  couldn't  be  mad  at  Yasha  ,  she  was  just  afraid.   But  if  only  she  hadn't  cried  ,  maybe  she  could  have  avoided  that  today.

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CONSEQUENCES were never cut and dry when it came to HYDRA and the Red Room. Every TYPICAL lesson that the organizations drilled into the heads of those they turned into weapons, was painful and ruthless...so it stood to reason that their PUNISHMENTS would have to still seem harsh by comparison.

Had it just been he himself that had been recaptured...he could have accepted that, in return for being able to keep his family out of the EVIL CLUTCHES of their captors. Instead though, he and the twins were all being made to suffer in NEW AND WORSENING WAYS that had been thought up in the name of pure cruelty. The demonstration playing out before the Soldier in that instant was just that; CRUELTY.

As the asset was ordered to do, he removed one of his knives from its sheath, before handing it down to his daughter. Beneath the muzzle they had refastened on to his face, the Soldier's jaw was clenched tightly as well. It was an endless walking NIGHTMARE, and worse than just suffering through it, he had to watch ANYA SUFFER.

Neither of the two CHILDREN deserved what was happening to them, especially. As he was instructed to look on though, he had focused his attention on ANYA. At the end of the day, he had failed to save even his OWN children. He had no delusions about being able to look out for any OTHER CHILDREN.

Just as those that also occupied the room had expected, Anya made quick work of Yasha. When the blade made contact, his intense focus zeroed in on what was happening, namely in case he needed to STEP IN HIMSELF. He couldn't accept the punishment for Anya or Yasha, but he knew well enough that their CAPTORS wouldn't be too keen on losing one of their very best. If Anya had needed his help, it was the one thing he could still do to protect them.

He hadn't even SEEN in son since they had all been taken back to the LIVING HELL that loomed like a shadow over the lives of the entire family. He had only seen his daughter's psyche suffocating under the weight of what they were made to do.

Seeing the state of her, the Soldier looked to her with a CAREFULLY CONCEALED sympathy, which intermingled with the guilt of having prevented all of this to begin with. TWICE OVER, NOW. When he finally spoke though, it was in an even tone, and it was in Russian.

"Your footwork has improved. It's over, for now. It's time for us both to get back to your Takedown and Submission drills." His icy blue gaze landed on the knife that they still held, holding his hand out expectantly for it. Once it was given over, he cleaned the blade off by wiping it on his sleeve, one side and the other, before placing it back in the sheath at his belt.

He turned to the higher ups in the room then, all of them having already turned their glares on him as though watching closely to make sure he wasn't being PATERNAL with Anya.

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Fists  contacted  flesh  in  quick  succession.   The  other  girl  shrieking  as  she  curled  in  and  back  away  from  the  other.   Anya  ,  the  one  who  balled  her  hands  in  fists  only  glaring  back  at  her.         (  as  if  the  sheer  act  of  avoiding  her  strikes  was  enough  of  an  insult.  )   Maybe  that's  because  it  was  just  as  bad  for  Anya  ,  as  it  was  for  Yasha.   Yasha  had  been  the  one  to  earn  the  punishment  ,  ┈┈  but  she  wasn't  the  only  one  being  watched.   Around  every  corner  was  a  test  in  the  Red  Room.   Every  breath  being  watched  an  analyzed  for  the  slightest  hint  of  defiance.

Failure  for  Anya  to  perform  the  punishment  would  only  mean  a  harsher  punishment  for  them  later.   A  cruel  method  ,  ┈┈  but  effective  if  you  stopped  and  thought  about  it  for  long.   Eventually  they  would  do  anything  to  kick  the  can  further  down  the  road.

Not  only  that  ,  ┈┈  but  Anya  was  facing  her  own  scrutiny  from  the  overlords  that  attempted  to  control  her.   Defecting  was  not  something  usually  tolerated  ,  and  Anya  had  managed  to  run  with  not  one  ,  but  three  of  their  prized  assets  had  made  it  out  in  the  course  of  her  little  stunt.         (  they  wouldn't  be  tolerating  that  again.  )   and  this  time  ,  ┈┈  they  were  going  to  make  sure  that  she  knew  the  consequences  if  she  stepped  out  of  line  again.   As  much  as  Anya  thought  she  could  ,  she  couldn't  do  whatever  she  wanted…Not  by  a  long  shot.

So  now  ,  Anya  joined  the  ranks  not  only  as  a  student  of  the  Red  Room  again  ,  ┈┈  but  as  their  honorary  attack  dog  until  she  understood  the  lesson.   Where  normally  another  girl  would  be  put  up  to  the  task  ,  they  were  all  lucky  enough  to  be  spared  the  hurt  because  it  was  Anya's  job  now.   If  she  refused  to  comply  ,         (  all  it  took  was  a  threat  on  her  brother's  life  or  even  the  soldier's.  )   None  of  them  were  above  the  rules  ,  and  the  ones  who  held  their  leashes  were  making  her  see  that.   The  one  comfort  that  she  had  was  that  Jamie  was  safe  as  long  as  she  complied  ,  ┈┈  tucked  safely  away  on  an  undercover  mission.   The  rest  she'd  deal  with  when  she  was  left  alone  to  sleep  and  it  was  just  her  and  the  memories.

Anya  let  out  a  huff  when  Yasha  once  again  squirmed  back  and  away  from  her  ,  ┈┈  muttering  pleas  for  it  to  stop  in  Russian  even  though  it  was  useless.   She  knew  just  as  much  as  Anya  did  that  it  was  only  making  matters  worse  …  for  both  of  them.   Yasha  shook  her  head  ,  and  Anya  clenched  her  jaw  so  tight  she  thought  it  might  snap.   Fists  trembled  ,  not  from  fear  ,         (  but  the  sheer  adrenaline  from  the  serum  they  pumped  her  with  to  cause  her  rage.  )   Shaking  with  a  need  to  strike  again.

Before  she  could  though  ,  she  was  told  to  stop.   Anya  froze  in  her  place  ,  ┈┈  a  furrowed  brow  looking  for  the  trick  before  looking  to  her  handlers.   Then  the  trick  came  ,  or  rather  the  twist  to  the  situation.   A  knife  ,  placed  in  her  hand  by  a  metal  one.         (  a  cruel  form  of  punishment  they  put  the  whole  family  through.  )   If  they  wanted  to  run  together  ,  they'd  be  broken  again…together.   She  replayed  those  words  that  had  been  told  to  her  when  she  got  back  ,  ┈┈  step  out  of  line  again  and  her  whole  family  would  end  up  in  the  fucking  ground.

Her  hand  gripped  around  the  hilt  ,  Yasha  too  beaten  to  run  ,  not  to  mention  there  was  nowhere  for  her  to  go  ,  ┈┈  all  she  could  do  was  stand  and  face  the  other  girl.   And  all  Anya  could  do  was  the  one  thing  she  didn't  want  to  do.   The  second  Yasha  was  on  her  feet  ,  Anya  engaged.   She  was  quick  ,         (  far  quicker  than  the  other  girls  in  the  Red  Room.  )   Her  naturally  enhanced  genetics  not  needing  the  serum  these  girls  wouldn't  get  until  they  earned  it.   She  moved  quickly  and  efficiently  ,  ┈┈  the  only  sounds  heard  were  lightning  quick  slices  on  flesh.   That  and  the  muffled  cries  Yasha  gave  with  each  stinging  cut.   Anya  pressed  forward  ,  forcing  Yasha  backwards  into  a  retreat  towards  the  other  girls.   Yasha  brought  her  arms  up  to  block  ,  only  for  Anya  to  let  out  a  growl  before  slicing  a  line  across  her  arms  before  a  booted  foot  collided  with  Yasha's  sternum  when  she  got  an  opening  ,  ┈┈  the  young  girl  falling  limply  to  the  ground  before  the  rest  of  the  girls.

Like  she  was  a  warning  to  the  others  what  happened  when  they  didn't  produce  quality  results.   Then  and  only  then  ,  ┈┈  did  Anya  finally  receive  the  order  to  back  off  of  the  girl.   Yasha  was  alive  ,  but  barely.   She  would  live  to  try  again  though.   That  much  Anya  was  sure  of.   She  turned  away  from  the  girls  ,         (  but  couldn't  avoid  the  hushed  murmurs  of  shock  over  how  she  left  the  girl.  )   She  knew  they  were  afraid  of  her  ,  ┈┈  it  wasn't  hard  for  that  fear  to  grow  around  Anya.   Returning  once  again  to  the  side  that  James  stood  ,  hands  trembled  with  exhaustion  ,  but  also  a  mix  of  adrenaline  that  wasn't  done  yet.         (  a  problem  they  usually  treated  with  a  mild  sedative.  )   Not  strong  enough  to  knock  her  out  ,  ┈┈  but  enough  to  calm  her  down  enough  to  handle.

She  tried  to  take  a  deep  breath  in  ,  finding  it  difficult.   “  Is  it  over  for  now?  ”

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« @vremyad  :   Semi  plotted  starte  for  the  twins. »

The  city  of  Madripoor  was  always  so  bright  ,  you  had  to  often  times  remind  yourself  that  you  were  in  one  of  the  most  dangerous  cities  on  the  planet.   A  place  without  rules  ,         (  except  ones  made  turf  by  turf  and  overseen  by  the  Powerbroker.  )   The  last  Powerbeoker  ,  ┈┈  happening  to  be  the  one  who  had  sent  them  here  in  the  first  place.   Sharon  had  some  things  that  had  to  get  left  behind  ,  and  with  her  new  position  in  the  CIA  watching  Val  ,  it  made  more  sense  to  send  Anya  and  Jamie  instead.

Not  to  mention  the  two  of  them  happened  to  have  a  leg  up  that  most  didn't.

It  was  just  an  in  and  out  mission.   Technically  a  heist  ,  ┈┈  but  they  were  steeling  back  stuff  that  belonged  to  someone  else.   Theft  to  give  it  all  back  to  the  owner  was  still  a  heroic  deed…right?   Regardless  ,  ┈┈  that  was  the  logic  that  the  twins  were  running  with  this  operation.   It  was  hardly  their  first  heist.         (  by  then  the  twins  had  snuck  into  way  more  secure  places  than  this.  )   The  special  part  about  this  mission  ,  ┈┈  was  that  they  were  doing  all  of  it  on  their  own  from  start  to  finish.   Bucky  ,  Natasha  ,  and  Sharon  all  had  their  hands  off  the  situation.   They  didn't  even  have  anyone  who  flew  them  in.   The  only  assist  they  had  before  heading  out  ,  ┈┈  was  their  parents  arranging  a  safehouse  for  their  base  when  they  arrived.

Which  was  where  they  were  when  Anya  stepped  out  of  the  bathroom.   Sharon  still  having  some  of  her  connects  had  come  in  handy  ,  ┈┈  this  was  one  of  the  nicest  safehouses  they  had  stayed  in  while  working  this  business.   Jamie's  tech  had  all  been  assembled  for  his  space  to  work  on  developing  the  game  plan  ,         (  before  they  pulled  off  their  theft  using  their  powers.  )   If  everything  went  according  to  plan  ,  they'd  be  in  and  out  with  no  problems.   With  that  part  done  ,  Anya  had  stepped  into  the  bathroom  to  shower  ,  ┈┈  stepping  out  of  the  steaming  bathroom  with  a  robe  on  and  drying  her  hair  that  had  settled  into  a  mess  of  curls  from  the  water.

“  Okay  ,  Sharon  might  be  uptight  sometimes  …  But  that  was  thee  best  water  pressure  and  water  heater  I  have  ever  seen.  ”   Anya  wasn't  the  type  to  be  known  for  being  particularly  chatty  ,  ┈┈  but  Jamie  was  practically  her  second  half.   “  Any  idea  of  who  the  big  boss  in  town  is  yet  so  we  know  what  we're  dealing  with?  ”

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ENDLESS EDITS OF ANYA BARNES. ┈┈ mutuals may interact/reblog. roleplay blogs only , no personal blogs please.

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𝙈𝙄𝘾 𝘾𝙃𝙀𝘾𝙆! 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘪 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘢 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘵. 𝖻𝖾𝖾𝗇 𝗌𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗂𝗇 𝖿𝗋𝗈𝗆 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖿𝖾𝗇𝖼𝖾 𝙎𝙄𝙉𝘾𝙀 𝙍𝙀𝘾𝙀𝙎𝙎, 𝗌𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗈𝗎𝗍𝗌𝗂𝖽𝖾 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝘳𝘦𝘫𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘴 𝖻𝗎𝗍 𝗇𝗈 𝗈𝗇𝖾'𝗌 𝖼𝗈𝗆𝗂𝗇 𝗍𝗈 𝙋𝙄𝘾𝙆 𝙈𝙀 𝙐𝙋!

RAGEBUILT. is a private , mutuals only roleplay blog for original marvel based muse ANASTASIA BARNES/THE WINTER WIDOW. this blog takes inspiration from both comics and the mcu , but focuses on headcanons for portrayal. this blog contains potentially triggering themes , and is not intended for writers under 20. written by jj.

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FOR ALL THE K!POP DEMON HUNTERS PEEPS OUT THERE , i still haven't seen the movie but i will be seeing it soon. after what i've been reading , anya is gonna be the one who gets an au for this fandom , but she's gonna be a russian pop star doing the same bit as the girls in the movie.

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