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Ever since I learned that Nova's Null Star and Wisp's Breach Surge are affected by Arcanes Avenger and Arachne, I've put together a fun build in Warframe for Nova and to a certain extent, Wisp. Getting 303% ability strength and the doubling buff from Void Fissures have led me to this screenshot. Worthy Comradery allows Breach Surge to get red crits when you get a weak point hit while arcane avenger is active and Null Star can proc the sparks so it just becomes a feedback loop that only gets stronger in any situation I've found myself in. The only thing that limits me is other DPS characters killing faster than me and enemies being invulnerable.

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I have to remind myself that the compliments and praise I receive are genuine

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I can only blame myself for the lack of intimacy between my long distance partner and me. I became distant and actually started referring to them as my friend instead of as my partner when I spoke about them. One night, I started overthinking our relationship and how I was interacting with them. I messaged her during that time and said some things I shouldn't have but was grateful enough she didn't read or if she has read it, she hasn't said anything about it. After that night, I have been trying to make the effort to feel the love I have for her again because I can't bring myself to let go of her so I can look for the intimacy I want from someone else. I'm afraid of asking for more intimacy because there isn't a convenient time for us to be intimate anymore since there's a 6-7 hour difference between us. It's hard for me because I feel like even though the relationship is 100% real to me, no one else I talk to would ever believe me and I have nothing but photos of hobbies we show each other and the occasional selfie so I can't really prove that I am in a relationship with my partner and that is what made me feel distant.

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Talking to my co-workers led me down memory lane tonight and I realized that there have been so many amazing women in my life that I have had some form of a relationship with and how unhealthy I was for them at the time. I don't recall anything I did that would be considered toxic but it was definitely unhealthy for the relationship we had to continue. Those relationships are separate from the relationships where I was definitely toxic though. I hope they're living better lives now.

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Monster Hunter Wilds might be the best Monster Hunter game so far. My only issue with the game so far is the fact that I can't explore while doing a story quest as much as I would like, but that isn't exactly limiting either because you can use the slinger to grab things that are otherwise out of reach. Being able to swap weapons on the go is absolutely amazing. People might complain about the performance of the game and that's valid, even on PS5 the game sometimes looks like clay sculptures (I have it set to prioritize frame rate) or has choppy frames in some areas/transition sequences but that hasn't impacted me at all. One thing they did right was showing you what monster parts you wishlisted on the monster drops page in the guide and being able to see the guide for monster weaknesses while you're posting a quest is a nice QoL feature I hope they keep for future games.

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My friend is on a journey of sobriety and I'm gonna do my best to help her stay sober because I want her to be better. I know she's had a traumatic past but I love her so I'm going to support her as much as I can

Trying to talk to someone who is in a really bad head space always freaks me out but I do my best to stay calm and help them get away from it as much as I can. I hope my friend will be okay. She injured her self in front of me which terrified me but it's better than the alternative which is much worse. I told her I hope she'll message me soon because I'm gonna worry about her. I've known her for so long that I seriously would miss her if she's gone

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I had a dream the other night that I was thoroughly enjoying beating up someone I worked with and genuinely hated. I've never woken up feeling so happy before, I hate the guy for sure but he doesn't deserve what I did to him in my dream. This isn't the first time it's happened though, I've dreamed about beating him up before and woke up feeling the same way.

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Trying to talk to someone who is in a really bad head space always freaks me out but I do my best to stay calm and help them get away from it as much as I can. I hope my friend will be okay. She injured her self in front of me which terrified me but it's better than the alternative which is much worse. I told her I hope she'll message me soon because I'm gonna worry about her. I've known her for so long that I seriously would miss her if she's gone

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I might be one of the few players who feels this way but I haven't really had a desire to play Nikke since they updated some of the daily missions to give more points which means you can get them done faster. It's great that this is the case but now I have less things to do in the game to get the 100 points I need to get all of the daily rewards. Because of this and Solo Leveling season 2 airing has made me want to play Solo Leveling: Arise again. I originally stopped playing it because I was frustrated with the constant buffering in the lobby and I felt overwhelmed by the amount of micro transactions the game had/has. There are a lot of systems in the game that can overwhelm you at first but they added an early game progression quest line that guides new players through what should be done to be more powerful, it also incentivizes the player to participate in the harder difficulty stuff or do the side stories which showcase some side characters and give them a bit more personality.

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I just remembered the time I used a mixed moveset on a Charmeleon in Pokémon Showdown years ago that was something like this. The person I was going up against quit the match after I used a Rock Slide. I've been thinking that the person probably thought I was really dumb for using Timid instead of Hasty or Naive but I didn't want to lose any defense and I knew I could boost the attack stat with EVs so that was my logic. The other player also probably didn't expect a Rock Slide to do decent damage against their Pokémon. I really enjoy using middle evolution Pokémon or the RU/NU/PU tier Pokémon because I like theory crafting movesets and builds for those Pokémon. An example would be Grotle with Shell Armor and Stockpile with Eviolite to build its defenses but it only works on paper because Grotle is really slow with a base speed of 36

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Despite what he tries to enforce on that podium,

Your identity is yours and only yours to decide

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I'm so desperate for a healthy relationship with someone that I just end up making it unhealthy anyway. The only healthy relationship I have is with my grandfather who I live with and I still feel like I don't do enough to help him or be of any use to him which leads me to shutting down and being useless. I want to help him and do things to make his life easier but by the time I can make myself do something for him, he already does it himself.

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I like interacting with the hex a lot with its affection system however I won't romance any of them because I firmly believe that they'd all be better together while my Drifter is content being their friend. Arthur and Quincy could be together because I think they'd learn a lot from each other despite both being abrasive. Aoi and Amir are more of a cute sibling duo but they'd be a better fit together than Arthur and Aoi do. Eleanor and Lettie are both very confident in who they are so I don't really see them together but their freak matches so I put them together lol

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Let’s all bite transphobes *together*

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