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jesus christ man stop unloading on people around you its not fucking fair

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note to myself: stop freaking the fuck out please

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MMMmmMMmmmMMMMm the temptation to cut 8))

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bash head into wall plz

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wow this weekend was fucking miserable and that was just. the cherry on top. fucks sake

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the best days are the days i forget you exist

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just because it still makes you cry doesn’t mean you aren’t moving on

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? there it is

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things that exist but you can’t see:

people thinking about you and smiling

flowers growing in your heart

the moon’s affection for you

how much you’ve healed already

a lovely future written in the stars

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all you motherfuckers did lately was ignore me anyway. 

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YEAH COOL OKAY. YUP. JUST GO SPREADIN THAT SHIT AROUND. we both know that shit ain’t true.  fuck off

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fuck off. FUCK off

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i dont think about her in the same way. i actually dont really want anything to do with her. but i do think about her. i think about not wanting anything to do with her. we still live fairly close to each other afaik and leaving the house stresses me out a lot of the time because i just dont want to fuckin run into her. and now a good friend of mine has invited me to a party that she is also invited to, and i really want to go but i just REALLY don’t want to see her. ugh, FUCK

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invited to a party which my ex is also invited to hmm. why is this an issue for me. why does she still cause me so much anxiety almost a fucking year later. why am i not completely fucking over this shit yet. this is so frustrating. honestly its driving me fucking nuts

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a nice, civil exchange. no issues no nothin it was good

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6 Types of Childhood Abuse | psych2go (new release) 

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feelin that dnd jealousy crawl up my fuckin back again ohhh feels gooood