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"I constantly think of you, you haunt my nightmares. I used to feel human, to feel alive, but now I just feel like the ghost of the child you used. You never think of me, but you will haunt me for the rest of my life."

Yes, I finally feel comfortable enough to post my vent art, or something I created for a trauma holder to cope. I am a victim of child on child sexual assault, but my assaultress was 8-10 while I was 6-8. We try to pretend this doesn't affect us on a day to day basis, but we still have flashbacks and nightmares. I still can't see her face without having a panic attack. I have been groomed since then, but this was my first true friend. It wasn't right, no matter what any1 says, but people refuse to acknowledge it was assault. Simply being in the state she now lives in caused our DID to kickstart itself after a system collapse due to distress, but I still argue with my family on a day to day about if it was traumatic. I will forever remember the details of her face exactly, but I doubt she even remembers me and the impact her "exploring" her hypersexuality as a child on me. I will forever feel tainted. Those pictures on my mom's Facebook with this girl in the pictures? Tainted, immediate panic attack. I will never be able to look back at years of my childhood without feeling dirty and disgusting, seeing me and my assaulter hugging because I didn't understand what was happening.

Anyways, Tara, I hope you suffer every single day for the permanent impact you will have on my mental health. I hope you never rest. I hope you never feel comfort, because you will never let me feel comfort and closure. Burn in fucking hell.

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Not gonna put a t0n of details here cause my last intr0 f0r this was n0t the vibe anym0re, but let's try again. </3

Main sys bl0g: @3ldrtchh0rr0rsys

DNI: terfs, animal/child fuckers, n facists/homophobe s/general trash

I p0st 0n here 0ccasionally ig ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

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Haven't p0sted 0n here f0r a h0t sec s0 have a really messy practice sketch 0f me trying 0ut a different art style XP

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Project is going smoothly, I have also given him his stalker's zombie child because I did his concept sketch and decided he looked like a girl dad.

I also made him a Baptist priest instead because I know more about them. Plus southern vampires are cool as hell, I'm not even biased, it's just cool. Also "Baptist" is very loose, I think it's a really weird ass church of the vampires worshiping their favorite human and John trying to convince the church they're Baptist for funding. Also scam the church.

Y'all, I might be cooking (AKA I got bored while doing my English exam which I still haven't finished)

Random man who was dealing with a stalker, and decided the best idea was to become an Orthodox priest. Not religious in the slightest, but he bluffs his way through the process and ends up achieving it after 8 years. By then, the stalkers been caught but dude's committed now. Not even because of the 8 years of time used, but because this entire congregation he's dealing with is fucking insane and if he leaves for too long people outside the congregation start going missing. Something something vampires, something something our boy is fucked every six ways to Sunday. Literally or figuratively, however you want to interpret this.

For example:

*random teen eggs church building*

"I think we're going to have to kill this guy (placeholder name)"

"I THINK THE FUCK NOT."

idk, might make a concept drawing might not, who knows.

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Y'all, I might be cooking (AKA I got bored while doing my English exam which I still haven't finished)

Random man who was dealing with a stalker, and decided the best idea was to become an Orthodox priest. Not religious in the slightest, but he bluffs his way through the process and ends up achieving it after 8 years. By then, the stalkers been caught but dude's committed now. Not even because of the 8 years of time used, but because this entire congregation he's dealing with is fucking insane and if he leaves for too long people outside the congregation start going missing. Something something vampires, something something our boy is fucked every six ways to Sunday. Literally or figuratively, however you want to interpret this.

For example:

*random teen eggs church building*

"I think we're going to have to kill this guy (placeholder name)"

"I THINK THE FUCK NOT."

idk, might make a concept drawing might not, who knows.

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big sister and little brother.

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my Twoface design 💥

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Hey y'all! Sorry for being gone so long, the art juices ran out, supply chain issues and all that. Take this warm up headshot inspired by "Who can it be now" and the fact that I just like drawing people who look scared shitless.

They're fine, don't worry.

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some Vampire Wally and Dick

Wally accidentally got turned too. Turns out vampires don’t actually need that much blood to survive — so he didn’t have to wipe out half of humanity after all. Yippee!

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buncha stuffs i havent posted (ft. superbattinson)

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Petition to draw edit a tim picture into Tim as cardinal but it’s just his Red Robin costume with one of those catholic cardinal hats on top

say less

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Ghostsoap in Polish Army PT uniforms

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Ghostsoap in Polish Army PT uniforms

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can y’all stop thinking about fucking for just one minute?

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Repost because I PUT MY BOY ON VOGUE‼️

Drawing on your phone is NOT for the weak. My fingers are still sore. Hope my few loyal dozen followers enjoy this one tho 🙏🙏

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Eldest sibling drawing an eldest sibling