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My wife….

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Gale Dekarios sketchy sketch 💜

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I love my dads playstyle of Baldurs Gate, never talks to his companions, never goes to camp, didn't even know there's romance in the game, long rests only when theres no more spells left, explored the underdark before he did the goblin quest, called astarion someone "he wouldn't buy a car from"

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The abandonment wound that turns into a deep, never healing "I want someone to take care of me" is just

So

Big sometimes

And so often we become the one who takes care of people - those of us with this wound.

The hard thing is, learning how to take care of yourself really well doesn't heal it. Learning how to ask for help when you need it doesn't heal it. Learning to live with it doesn't heal it.

Nothing really does, when that "step" in your early childhood was either missed, mishandled, or otherwise fumbled spectacularly enough to cause this kind of wound. It's hard in complicated cases too, where you were cared for in many ways but maybe not the one that mattered. Or you were cared for in ever way but inconsistently. Or it was from a source that betrayed or abandoned you, even if you were handed off immediately to someone else that took care of you. There is no wrong way to receive this wound, nor is there a competition for who gets to feel it the hardest or the deepest.

But those who have it recognize each other, I think. We do, even if we don't know what it is we are recognizing. Even if the wounds were caused in different ways, even if our stories look so very different.

"I want someone to take care of me"

It may just always be there, in some way or another. It may even be unwanted, where you can't articulate it or you become hyper independent. It may be desperately wanted and cause clinging and limerance and all those painful things. It may be witnessed and cared for and managed by someone who sees their wound and does all the 'right' things.

But it doesn't really ever leave, does it

And we find each other, don't we?

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One thing I love about Gale is that he'd do the finger wiggle and say "don't mind if I do" to a little treat but he'd also say it to the Necromancy of Thay.

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A kitten at heart

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♻️

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Gonna start doing this when someone tells me what to do

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yes

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while i did a gifset to showcase an armour set, i was also intrigued by just how different the animation is for the wizard class vs gale's unique animation:

wizard class animation

gale's unique animation

it's amazing to see not only just how quickly gale performs the somatic component of the spell, but also his efficiency of movement compared to the standard wizard animation.

there's a world of difference here, the difference between a wizard vs a prodigy, an archwizard and chosen.

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Another favourite interaction in the game.

I love Gale and Karlach, they have a really sweet friendship and the care they share for one another is one of the best dynamics in the game.

I like to think that regardless of the outcome of Karlach’s story, so long as he remains human, he still makes the Cleaver. If she dies he keeps it as a reminder of her, and as a reminder to keep his promises. If she goes to the hells, he takes it to Wither’s Party and presents it too her, teaches her the words that make it work.

Karlach is delighted, and returns to the Hells (with Wyll or Tav) and uses it as an awesome distraction. First the axe dances, enemies are mesmerised by this strange axe and then ruthlessly murders everyone on her hit list.

Karlach’s Kinetic Cleaver becomes almost as famous as she does.

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they can’t even stop you from thinking about your OC’s on the clock. they can’t take this away from you

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Know the camp rules!